A/n: This is Chapie 4 it may be a bit Mary-sue and I do apologize. Also if there are question marks instead of the right punctuation please tell me in my profile and I will fix it up right away! Also sry for some the char being out of chars.
Disclaimer: I don't not own Inu yasha or any other char. Besides Alu and Kioshi.

Chapter 4
Why did you leave?

Kioshi had been running threw the forest to her favorite hiding place. She had known he had been chasing her for that stupid ring. "This is to priceless" she said to herself with a chuckle as she made her way into the rose garden Sesshomaru's mother planted herself or that's what lord Sesshomaru told her anyways. She ran till she found a tree that had been shading a little bench. She then made her way up the tree looking out. She soon saw him stomping on every flower in his path. She had quietly laughed to herself and began to think.
"He's too good for her" she thought and gave a sigh. She really hated his arranged marriage. She had hated it so much because she had been in love with Sesshomaru ever since she had figured out what her mothers last words where. "It's written in the stars." She said silently. She had finally figured it out when she was nine now being 13 her heart was filled with sadness. Every night she would cry in her pillow begging the gods to make him feel what she had felt for him. No ring would equal no marriage at least she had hoped I mean maybe if she had more time with him to feel the same way he and that witch would never marry. She was then pulled from her thoughts when she heard Sesshomaru get closer then before. "Give me that stupid ring you wretch!" he screamed leaving an echo. Kioshi jumped from the tree and took off hoping she could make it to the river before he had stopped her. But no such luck she had soon fell to the ground clenching the ring tighter then before. Sesshomaru had grabbed her leg but let go after she fell. He then put his hand out gesturing for it. She gave a sigh then got up to make her way to the bench that was under the tree she was just in.
She took a seat as he did. "Give me the damn ring." He said in an annoyed tone. She didn't answer but looked at the beautiful piece of jewelry he was about to give to what's her face. It was no fair she was never going to get a chance with Sesshomaru she knew she loved Sesshomaru more then that woman ever could. "You know" she began as she decided to express her thoughts on the marriage to him. "You're too good for her." Sesshomaru didn't say a thing but held confusion in his eyes. Then began to open his mouth to speak. "And what is your business knowing?" "Well" she started as she looked into his eyes. "I don't have any business knowing but she doesn't love you she just wants your family's money she don't really give a care cant you see?" "I already knew that" he answered. Kioshi's heart boiled over he knew that and he was going to marry her any way. Nothing else made Kioshi madder then seeing her one true love throwing his life away. "But if you knew that then you should be with someone else! Someone you love! Someone you can spend your long life with! Not some little bitch who don?t give a shit about you!!! It makes no sense!" She cried with tears pouring from her eyes. Kioshi couldn't bare him making this mistake it was more then she could handle especially when she had loved him so. He grabbed hold of her hands that where situated in her lap and brought her chin up to make sure he could read her grey eyes. "This isn't about me anymore is it?" He had questioned her. Kioshi then opened her mouth to speak but couldn't so she closed it again as Sesshomaru stared at her questioningly. She then tried again and began. "It's just I can't sit by and watch you make this stupid mistake." She said quietly. "I mean I'm the one who really who really um" who really what?" he asked with a stone face. "Who really loves you alright!?!" she screamed as she looked back into his eyes.
He didn't say a thing but put his hand on her cheek and looked at her with his previous stone face. Kioshi had jumped from his current movements but didn't move anymore as he stroked her check lovingly with his thumb wiping away tears. "I um I uh I" she said in an attempt to put together a clear sentence. She looked at him as he got closer and closed his eyes. "Is he going to kiss me?" Kioshi thought in her mind while looking at him wide eyed. She then quickly closed her eyes but stopped only inches from each others lips. They where so close together Kioshi could feel the warmth of his own breath. They had heard kikyo's younger sister calling for Alu. Kioshi's eyes quickly snapped towards Sesshomaru who had a pissed off look on his face. He had never liked the human child Kioshi was fond of and never would. "I'm going to kill her" he had mumbled under his breath as he got up. Kioshi had quickly jumped up off the bench and stood in front of him. "No Sesshomaru!" She had yelled. "She is only a child!" He gave a growl deep in his throat and began "Move out of the way wretch! I'm going to kill that human child if it is the last thing it I do!" Kioshi returned the growl as her eyes became a darker color of grey then slapped him across the face. "Shit did I just do that!?!" she yelled inside her mind. Then before she had knew it she was on the ground. She looked up to see Sesshomaru who had a smirk on his face. She jumped up and gave him a side kicks in the head that barely fazed him. He then grabbed her foot spin her around then sent her crashing into the ground.
Kioshi had given a heavy gasp when she had felt Sesshomaru's much larger body on top of hers pining her down. She had struggled bit when she opened her eyes. "Umm Sesshomaru?" She questioned the man who stared down at her with different eyes. She recognized those eyes. She recognized them by Inu yasha the way he would look at Kikyo every day. And now she seen those eyes on Sesshomaru she had never seen his eyes like that before but every moment she had seen them would bring her such great joy. Out of instinct she had closed her eyes. It had only been seconds when she had felt his long hair fall upon her face then felt him start to coress her tender lips with his own. She had shivered with pleasure as she experienced her first kiss. She couldn't believe they where kissing each other. She slowly moved her hands around his neck to make the kiss deeper then it was. But then Sesshomaru removed his lips from hers. "What's wrong?" she questioned with a deep blush on her face. "Father" was his only answer as they both got up and took off in different directions.
Kioshi had quickly climbed a tree and jumped from one branch to another. She had known if Lord Sesshomaru had caught them kissing then she would be dealt with a horrible death. The reason? She was not royalty she was not proper she was basically living in a small shack before her parents died and they took her in. She also didn't have any royal blood running threw her veins. Sure her parents had to be some of the strongest youki but it didn't matter they were only soldiers nothing more. And his father would never ever allow them seeing each other. She stopped for a moment and saw Lord Sesshomaru coming her way she then began to move faster then before in the tree tops. Kioshi hadn't been looking where she was going and fell off of the treetops. Kioshi gave a light laugh when she realized where she had fallen.
"Ha, ha umm hey Kikyo Inu yasha." She had fell right in the middle of their 'romantic picnic' Inu yasha had been telling her about as a surprise for Kikyo for more then a month now. "Nice of you to drop in" Kikyo said with a giggle. "Sesshomaru." Inu yasha started as he stared right into Kioshi's eyes and sniffed the air around her. "His scent is all over you Kioshi why is that?" She gave a heavy gulp. "I uh don't know uh? see ya!" She screamed as she took off further into the deep dark forest.
Kioshi then gave a heavy sigh as she entered her favorite hiding spot only she Kikyo Alu and Kaede kikyo's younger sister knew about. "Hello Kioshi!" Kaede said excitedly. Kaede was a beautiful excited six years old. She was very mature for her age but could be a pain sometimes but loved to help Kikyo and herself. Kaede was a small child with long black hair and a cute little kimono on. "Hey Kaede" Kioshi answered as she lay on a pile of hay. "Are you ok?" She questioned the older girl. "Yeah ill be fine" Kioshi answered as her heart beat was barely getting back to normal. "Where's Alu do you know?" "No I don't Kioshi sorry I was looking for her though." "I know I heard you" Kioshi said with a smile as she let her tail wrap itself around her own waist. "Kioshi are you in there?" she heard Kikyo call. "Yeah Kik come on in!" Kioshi replayed to her long time friend. A young woman entered putting her bow and arrows down to the side and sat next to Kioshi. "Kaede why don't you go find Alu" Kikyo let out. "Do I hafta!?" The girl cried. "Yes you have to" the youngest girl gave an angry sigh and stomped off out of the hut.
"Ok Kioshi give me the information I know there is something up I can sense it." Kioshi got a deep blush again and gave a laugh. "He kissed me" she said silently. "You don't mean Sesshomaru actually kissed you!?! Do you!?! On his own free will!?1" Kikyo cried excited for her younger friend. "Yes! He did I swear it was so romantic!" Kioshi squealed with delight. "Did you tell him you loved him?" Kikyo questioned. "Yes I did and I told him how I felt. He stroked my cheek then came in for a kiss in the rose garden." "That is so romantic!" Answered her older friend. "But then we heard Kaede so he was going to go after her I slapped him." "You slapped him!" Kikyo interrupted. "Are you mad!?!" "I know that's what I thought! But anyways I tried to punch him hard but nothing he then threw me to the ground and pinned me there." Kikyo looked at her intensively and held her breath trying not to giggle or scream. "He then looked at me and gave me a kiss." "Oh my goodness" Kikyo said happily. Kioshi could tell Kikyo anything she was like a big sister she was the only one who knew that she had liked Sesshomaru in the first place. Kioshi always wanted to tell Inu yasha but he was so immature and he didn't like Sesshomaru at all so she decided against it. "But he stopped because his father was coming." "It's official Kioshi you and Sesshomaru are a secretive couple." Kioshi sighed. "Yeah isn't it great!?!" "I am so happy for you!" Kikyo said as she hugged her younger friend. "He is the one isn't he?" Kikyo questioned. "He is" she answered and gave a big smile to herself.

.One year later.

Kioshi awoke to Alu licking her face. "I can't wait to see Sesshomaru this afternoon." Kioshi said with a sigh as she looked out the window to see Inu yasha holding Kikyo in his lap on a nearby tree. "Go Kikyo!" Kioshi laughed. Kikyo turned around and had a blush on her face. "I hope Inu yasha decides to become human so he and Kikyo can be together till they grow old." Kioshi gave a sigh. She had always envied the humans it was something she couldn't help. Sure the youki's may have been the superior species and had more power then they could handle but it was like they would live and never die till someone killed them and she hated that. All she wanted was live life but not forever. She gave a sigh and began to herself "well maybe ill be with Sesshomaru for the rest of my long life." Kioshi said out loud as she looked in her closet and took the clothes that lord Sesshomaru just bought for her when she turned 15 the month before. She put it on happily and sang thinking about Sesshomaru. It had been a year and a month since their first kiss together in the rose garden. She soon stopped dancing after she put on the clothes remembering that day at noon was Sesshomaru's wedding. Kioshi sat down on her bed and had tears forming on the brim of her eyelids. Kioshi looked at herself in the mirror. What she saw was a youki dressed in a black kimono blue hair with pink strands framing her face. She looked at herself in her grey eyes and gave a sigh as she wiped away a tear. She walked over to her bed and grabbed the cape and tied it around her neck. She sat down and put on the knee high boots that where very rare. Kioshi tied them but suddenly stopped as she saw a note slip under her door. She gave a giggle she had known it was Sesshomaru. He was so romantic and so careful with her when she was in his arms. Kioshi walked over to the door and grabbed the note. Then began to read it silently.

My dearest Kioshi,

As you well know it has been a year since we have been together. And I think you might be sad for today is my wedding. Come down in about a half hour and meet me where I first stole a kiss from you. I want to talk to you and tell you our romance don't have to end.

Forever yours,
Sesshomaru.

Kioshi gave a sigh and held the note close as she did everything he had wrote her from love letters to get well letters to I'm sorry for being an idiot letters to anything. She quickly put the note in a secret place in the wall. Kioshi made her way down the stairs hearing Lord Sesshomaru yell at the help for doing everything wrong. She bumped into
Inu yasha who had a smile on his face. "Kiss you did she?" He nodded his head yes. "Look Inu yasha ill talk to you later ok?" Kioshi looked back as he walked be and ran towered the rose garden as fast as she could.

When she finally reached the garden she sat down on the bench and gave a smile as Sesshomaru was in sight. To Kioshi's surprise he didn't have his usual kimono on but a black suit with a tie. He sat down and held her hands. "Kioshi you know how much I care for you don't you?" Kioshi shook her head and tried to hold back the tears that where coming back to her. "That's why I am calling off this wedding I want my heart to belong to you." Kioshi's head snapped back to his eyes and cried as she hugged him. "Do you mean it?" She questioned from under the tears. "I do and if my father doesn't like it then we can run off together." Kioshi had more tears forming as he pulled her away and kissed her romantically. Kioshi's mind was full of many thoughts. "I knew it. I knew we would be together." She yelled happily in her mind.
Then that kiss soon ended when Kioshi found herself on the floor she looked up to see the worst site she could have ever seen at that moment. "Lord, Lord, Lord Sesshomaru" She stuttered. He glared down at her as he grabbed her by the neck and dragged her inside he there threw her against the wall.
"Father no!" Kioshi heard Sesshomaru yell. Kioshi's tears of happiness soon faded into tears of fear. Sesshomaru ran towards his father but his father only threw him across the room leavening him unconscious. "Sesshomaru!" Kioshi screamed as she struggled to get up but he had grabbed her throat again. His eyes grew into a dark red as green flowed from his hand. She knew it was poison and it burned her so. She screamed in torture then heard Alu try to save her but Lord Sesshomaru swatted her away as if she where a fly . Kioshi screamed louder but her breathing got shorter and shorter.
She had taken one look to Sesshomaru who was getting up. He looked at the fear in her eyes as she mouthed the words "help me" Sesshomaru quickly attacked his father without hesitation. Lord Sesshomaru dropped Kioshi to the floor as she searched for air to fill her lungs. Kioshi looked up to see the only one she had ever loved barely being able pinning his father to the ground. "Leave now!" Sesshomaru yelled to Kioshi who got up and stared at him with scared eyes. "I can't leave you!" She cried. "I said go!" he said with a serious look. Kioshi backed up a bit as Alu got up. "Son of a bitch Kioshi I said go now!" She reluctantly took off out of the front door with Alu close behind her.
Kioshi ran faster then she ever had and let tears poor out when she thought about Sesshomaru. "Please gods keep Sesshomaru safe!" She begged. She then felt her neck and found an imprint of Lord Sesshomaru's hand.

present time

Kioshi soon faded back into her present time shedding a few tears. She sniffed a bit but quickly pulled herself together. She looked around the hut to see them still sleeping. Not wanting to wake anyone she stepped over the sleeping bodies of her friends and slipped out of the hut. She looked around to see Alu who was with a sleeping Kirara.
"Alu come on girl." Alu walked close behind her as she walked through the woods that she started to remember. "I am going to the house." Kioshi had a tear from her eyes as she neared it. "I have to" she said to herself quietly. As she got there she stopped remembering the same road she had ran down. She then looked up to see the huge place in which she used to live in. She gave a sigh as she approached the abandoned castle. She neared the door and soon gave a sigh. Kioshi sighed once more while taking a deep breath as she put her hand on the door knob. She turned it as it made a squeaking noise. It had echoed throughout the house as she entered. She heard her foot steps hitting the ground. She touched the walls and stared at one place on the floor she wept to herself that was the same exact place where Sesshomaru was holding his father down for her.
She turned away and grabbed hold on the banister that made its way up to her old room. She walked up the steps slowly. Kioshi finally met her destination and walked in. Her room looked exactly the same not one thing touched. Even her expensive bed wasn't made. She looked in the mirror to see the same girl she stared at many years ago. "My letters" she said to herself silently as she opened the secret compartment. She had found twenty letters and read each one by one. She had found the letter Sesshomaru had written that day. "Our romance doesn't have to end." She said to herself. "HE LIED DAMN IT!" She cried as she slammed her fist on the bed which caused dust to fly from it. "That was a lie a complete lie!" She had more tears from her eyes as Alu put her head on her leg. Kioshi patted her. "Thank you Alu." She said with some comfort to her. She took several deep breathes preparing herself for the rest of the house. "Come on girl we just have one more stop."
Kioshi walked outside to find the garden but long dead. She had still tears in her eyes as she sat on the bench she could even feel Sesshomaru's presence. "Kioshi?" She heard and jumped startled. She looked over and gave a light smile to her long time friend. "Yes Inu yasha?" she questioned as he sat down next to her." "Are you sure that really happened?" He questioned her. "Yes it did." "Then why am I having a hard time believing my father ever would do that to you?" "Do you need evidence Inu yasha?" She questioned. "Well yes I do" he answered. She gave a sigh then moved her hands to her cape to take it off. Soon after she had pulled down her kimono a bit to her shoulders showing some cleavage and to reveal the hand print of lord Sesshomaru's. "I never show this to any one." She whispered softly as
Inu yasha's hand slowly crept to Kioshi?s neck. There he could feel the indention his father made. "Its still there" he said quietly. "Yes and it will be there forever. Forever engraved into my skin a reminder of my horrid past" "I am so sorry Kioshi. Maybe if I had been paying more attention that day I could have helped you." Kioshi gave a sigh and began "Its ok really it is." Kioshi then quickly covered her neck and out back on her cape. "Come my friends." Kioshi got up as did Alu. "We must go to the others." Inu yasha slowly got up and walked close behind as the sun appeared. "They should be up by now Inu yasha."
Kioshi entered the hut and they where just talking about what they saw. Every one stopped as she and Inu yasha sat. "Do you still have the impression of his hand?" Question the monk. "Yes" she answered. Kioshi held back some hidden tears that Kaede, Kagome, and Sango noticed. "Come walk with us Kioshi." Kaede let out as she got up. Soon Kioshi got up as did the other girls.
They had walked till they made it to the hiding place she so loved. "Are you ok?" Kagome questioned in a concerned tone. "Ill be fine" Kioshi answered. She then hugged her knees as she let another tear pass. "I am so sorry you had to go trough that." Kaede said apologetically. "You didn't want to leave Sesshomaru did you? He made you. In order to protect you" Sango let out. "Yes that is true I never wanted to leave him I loved him so. He wasn't cold hearted cruel when I was around I think we soften each others hearts but that horrid day!" Kioshi had tears forming but kept from closing her eyelids trying to prevent all the tears from coming out. "I loved Lord Sesshomaru as a father I just can't believe he did that! And till this day I think about it every day and every night." She gave a sigh and began abruptly startling them who where in their thoughts "I may not see you guys again." "Why!" Kaede cried. "I mean you just got here and we haven't caught up like we should have." "Look Kaede my young friend in the last 50 year I have done wrong and I have to tell Inu yasha and warn him. Then find Sesshomaru and warn him as well." "What's wrong?" Kagome questioned. "It's not for me to tell you. But my message could help Inu yasha and Sesshomaru in a fight that might happen in the next coming months. My best friend will hate me as will my one true love but this had to be my last efforts. I am sorry but I have to go." She quickly got up and bolted out of the little hut in search of Inu yasha.
"What I have to tell Inu yasha is bad enough but to tell him the other things can kill me. Kill him." She thought as she ran. She stopped when she saw him sitting by the river. Kioshi walked over and sat next to him. "The river looks the same" she said suddenly. He looked at her and shook his head in a yes position. "Tell me now Kioshi tell me what you need to tell me." Kioshi gave a smile and looked at the water that shimmered. "You could always read me like a book couldn't you Inu yasha?" She sighed once more and took a deep breath as well. "Inu yasha what I have to tell you is very important now listen." Inu yasha stared at the girl who's eyes where closed intensively. "A few weeks or months from now a complete evil has came up with a plan." "What's the plan?" He questioned. "Using dark magic he will find a way to take all youki's powers away even the weak. The spell will either kill the youki's or turn them human the ones with human characteristics like me and you."
"Are you sure?" he questioned. "When was this plan came up with?" "50 years ago." She answered obediently. "Who came up with this plan?" Kioshi's eyes flung open to look at him "Naraku" She said simply. Inu yasha pounded him fist on the ground "damn it I should have known! That bastard we must stop him Kioshi!" She showed sorrow in her grey eyes awaiting the questioned she was going to answer for the last ten years. "Wait a minute how did you know about this?" There was a silence as Kioshi turned her head ashamed. "Kioshi!" he said with a concerned toned as he grabbed her arms to move her body so she would be facing him. "How did you know about this?" She looked up at him and gave a sigh then fixed her eyes to the ground. "You see Inu yasha after I ran away and something happen. Then Naraku well he kind of took me in and there I became a member of Naraku's army. I killed many innocent people but when I heard he turned you and Kikyo against each other I was so pissed off I confronted him he almost killed me and I knew I wouldn't be able to make it out alive so I waited and between those times he took my memories all of them. I couldn't remember you, Kikyo, Sesshomaru, not even Alu. When Naraku erased my memories he said I had amnesia. He told me we where lovers and I was one of the most powerful youki there was. During then and now I gained most my memory's and that's why I still have dream of when we where young. I ran away about 10 years ago with Alu looking for you and Sesshomaru."
She looked in his eyes that where part red. There she got worried she had heard his sword was once broken then he could let out his full youki for his eyes scared her more then anything. "You bitch!" he screamed as he slapped her across the face. Kioshi looked at him and blinked as blood dripped down slowly from her cuts. She couldn't believe he slapped her. He had never slapped her before for anything. She and he would mess around and hurt each other but this time he was serious. He came closer as she got up and glared at her. "Go away now." He said as he cracked his knuckles. She bowed her head when sadness began to fill her once more. Tears began to pour she had lost her best friend but she had to tell him she had to try to protect him some how. She knew it was a big mistake she made in her life but when she joined Naraku she was young and broken hearted. "I am sorry Inu yasha but for you to know I still love you. You will always be my best friend and I will never forget you." She took off as fast as she could with dust in the wind.
Inu yasha looked at his claws that had blood on them. "Inu yasha?" He heard a small voice. He turned around to see Kagome have a sad and worried look on her face as she approached. "Where's Kioshi going?" Inu yasha looked to the ground realizing what he just done. He lost his very first friend the one who thought she was human for the longest time. The one who he confided in. Who confided in him. The one who got him and Kikyo together. The one thing that kept him standing when he just wanted to die those many years ago. "Why did you send her away Inu yasha?" Questioned a little Shippo was approaching on Sango's shoulder. Inu yasha slumped to the floor. "She was just trying to protect me" He said to himself as the rest sat down on the opposite. "Where's Kioshi?" Questioned Miroku who looked as if he had taken a long, long hibernation. "I don't know" Inu yasha finally admitted. "What do you mean you don't know?!?" Kagome said with furry. "I sent her away after she warned me of something." "You what!" Kaede said with a look that cried I want to kill you so bad right now. "How could you Inu yasha? We knew each other since we where children and you send your best friend away?" "Now wait lady's maybe Inu yasha has a good reason." They stared at Inu yasha till he would talk. But the truth of the matter he didn't have a good reason. He was so stupid he did that to her. "Kioshi" he silently said.

(a/n: Well that?s the forth the next Chapie is my fav so far remember 5 reviews and I will give you the next Chapie! )