A/n! Hey all this is chater 8!!! can you believe it!?! i can! ne ways i want to thank you all for reading this so very much! This chapter is called"That old feeling." Diclaimer!: I do not own inu yasha or any chars. other then alu and kioshi! BTW i am pissed cause my brother ate my chili!

Chapter 8

That old feeling

Kioshi awoke the next morning groggily. She cried herself to sleep that night. 'This week has been a rollercoaster.' She thought in her mind. 'I felt happiness then sadness. I don't know how I am going to get through this.' She was then pulled from hearing a small voice. "Kioshi-sama?" Kioshi slowly looked up to see the village children. "Ai" Kioshi said with a smile. "What do you children need?" The kids gave an uneasy smile it was then Kioshi knew what they wanted. "A story?" The children smiled a big smiled and cheered. "Ok I will tell you a story." Kioshi then slowly moved from the graves and walked into the village.
She kept walking till she reached a nearby river causing some of the children's parents to follow to watch over their children. "Tell us a story about you and the Youki prince!" A female child cried. "No tell us about you and how you fought a Youki ten times as strong as you!" The children argued with each other till Kioshi intervened. "I will tell you a story of how I was when I was a child." Then a female dressed in dark blue and had long hair began. "But Kioshi I thought you didn't remember that far back? That what you told us when we where children." Kioshi smiled at the woman "I couldn't remember then Hiroko. But now I can. The other night I gained some of my past back." The woman nodded her head a bit when Kioshi closed her eyes as if thinking. "When I was a child I had two human parents. My real parents had died when I was a baby. As I got older I found a companion and that is my wolf Alu. She has been with me for most of my life. Around the time I thought I was human and I was afraid of every kind of Youki. But one day I bumped into a young boy. This young boy had ears of a dog but face of a human. I was scared of him but then I got to know him. From that day on he was my best friend. But later on that day my village was being attacked and killed my human family. I blamed the eldest son of Lord Sesshomaru. But then my mother had barely enough breath to tell me that the family hadn't killed them it was another Youki. From that day on I vowed to get revenge on that Youki. But also from that day on I remembered my mother's words 'it's written in the stars. So later on I fell in love with the prince Youki. But I had to run away years after. There I killed many Youki's and ten years ago I came to this village. And I have even known some of your parents since they where children wanting story's from me also."
The children smiled as she stopped and begged for another story till they heard another Childs voice. "Kioshi-sama?" Kioshi looked over and smiled. She saw Rin. "Rin what are you doing here?" She questioned as she beckoned her over with her finger. The child made her way around the many village children watching her as if she was an alien. Kioshi then quickly took Rin and put her on her lap. "Who's that?" A young black haired girl questioned. "This? This is Rin. She is a young girl I met yesterday." The children smiled and began to talk anxiously. "Want to play! Rin?" One of the young girls questioned as they all got up. Rin looked to Kioshi who nodded her head. "Go ahead it will be fun." The child smiled and got up from kioshi's lap. "Where did she come from?" Questioned Hiroko as she put her hand out in order to help her up. Yesterday I saw her after the rain storm." She answered as she took her hand for help.
Slowly they made their way towered the village watching the children chasseing each other. "Who is she?" The woman questioned. "She is my child." The woman snapped her head around which caused Kioshi to laugh. "Not my biological child of course not." The woman standing next to her gave a heavy sigh. "Kioshi you're not using her to replace the one that you lost are you?" Kioshi sighed and looked to her feet. She knew in a way Rin filled in the spot of a child she lost long ago. "In a way" Kioshi answered. "But Rin she is a bit like Amaya. Her happiness makes me feel full again. It makes me feel free." She answered. "But this child has she not any parents already?" Kioshi shook her head no. "She is an orphan. She tells me about this savior who saved her awhile back. But she has never told me the name of him or even her." Kioshi sighed. "I am afraid for her. I want her to be my child more then anything else in life. But I am afraid if I do care for her something might happen. Like it happened to Amaya." Kioshi looked straight ahead as the wind blew her hair in different directions. "Kioshi just take care of her. Don't let her out of your sight. Make sure she is where you can see her at all times." Kioshi sighed as she looked to the child who was smiling. Kioshi was overwhelmed with happiness for the child that was having a lot of fun with the other children. "Alu" Kioshi said with a smile after hearing a twig break. "No need to watch her anymore you may come out." Soon the wolf left the bush and stood in front of the woman. "Come Alu. We must take this child back to where she belongs.
Kioshi then slowly walked into the game which caused Rin to run to her. "Kioshi-sama! I want you to meet my savior!" Kioshi smiled but agreed to do what she wanted. "First Rin lets go to the river so I can get you face washed up." Rin nodded as Kioshi walked away. 'This child. She makes me feel whole again. She makes me feel happy.'
Kioshi then stopped at a small river and dipped her cupped hands into the river. Rin smiled and did the same. "Rin" Kioshi began as she took out water from her cupped hands. "When will your savior come and how come you won't tell me then name of him?" The child smiled. "I want to introduce you!" She said excitedly. Kioshi then splashed her face with water as did Rin. "That is very sweet of you." Kioshi answered. Kioshi looked to Rin then her hair. Rin's hair was messy. She had one piece of hair up on the top if her head and the rest down. "Want me to do your hair Rin?" Rin looked to her and got a big smile and nodded. Kioshi then took her hair and combed it with her hands. She then took three stands of hair and began to weave one hair to another finger. Rin smiled and began to talk. "Kioshi-sama will you be my friend?" Kioshi smiled. "Of curse I will be your friend." Kioshi then slowly finished braiding the child's hair. She took out a long strand of clothe and tied the hair not to let it fall out of place.
"Kioshi-sama?" The girl questioned as she turned around to face the woman. "Will you stay with me forever?" Kioshi looked to her a bit surprised by the question just asked. "You want me to be with you?" The girl nodded. "I know you sent the wolf to keep and eye on me and you did that to protect me. Well I think if you where to be around me and my savior we could all be truly happy." Kioshi gave a soften smile and took the girl in her arms. "My child." Kioshi said with tears flowing down her face. Rin looked to her a bit puzzled but smiled. "Why are you so happy Kioshi-sama?" Kioshi looked to the child tears still flowing down her face. "I haven't opened my heart to anyone for a long time. Last time I did the one who I loved like a daughter was murdered by an evil man named Naraku. But you see Naraku is still after me." "Why Kioshi-sama?" Questioned the young girl a bit afraid for her older friend. "You see Rin when I was a child my real mother was murdered and so as my human parents. I went to live with a Youki who looked over everything in his castle. There he had two sons and one I fell madly in love with. He was due to marry another but he deiced not to. But that day his father found out and almost killed me. I got away from his father with the help from that prince. But then I never saw him again. Soon after I lived with a man named Naraku. I got away from him ten years ago and now he is after me in order to keep me as his forever." The child looked to the woman a bit sadden. "Kioshi-sama. I will protect you." Kioshi looked to her. "That's so sweet Rin." Kioshi hugged the girl once more but then quickly snapped out of it when she heard a scream from a woman.
"Alu! Look after Rin!" She called as she ran to the village. Some of the houses were on fire as debris covered the face of the vile thing who had ruined the village she called home. "Is anyone hurt!?!" She screamed and heard a few people call no. Kioshi growled a bit as she got into fighting position. "Kioshi-sama!" Rin called as she ran behind her. "Alu hold her back!" Called Kioshi and quickly ran towards the youki. Her nails extended as she slashed him catching him off guard. Kioshi looked over to see a sword that looked evil. Her challenger tried to hit her but she quickly ran around him kicking him causing him to fly into a nearby tree. "You fucker" she called out as the debris started to fade away. "How dare you come to my village and attack my home you shall pay!" She growled as she ran towered where her enemy was situated. As she got closer she saw he was gone. "Where is-"she was cut off as a sword entered her back. The evil from it over flowed through her body as she screamed in pain. Kioshi clenched her teeth together and grabbed the sward tarring it out from her back. There she did a back roll facing her enemy as the debris cleared up completely.
There she stared at him into his golden youki eyes and he stared back at her equally surprised. "Kioshi" he began slowly. At that moment kioshi's heart sunk faster then the titanic ever would. "Sesshomaru." She let out without realizing it. All Kioshi wanted to do was run to him as he held her in his arms. Then she noticed something his left arm was missing. Kioshi was then pulled from her thoughts as Rin approached. "Sesshomaru-sama!" Kioshi looked to her and quickly shot a look to Sesshomaru. "Rin" he began coolly as the child stood by his side. "Where is Jaken?" Kioshi looked to the child and quickly interrupted. "She is yours? How is that possible?" Sesshomaru glared at her soft eyes for a moment. Her eyes where scared confused and were longing. "Sesshomaru-sama saved me like I told you Kioshi-sama." Kioshi bent down on one knee causing the young girl to run to her. Kioshi then whispered in her ear. "He was the prince in my story." Rin looked to the woman a bit taken back then looked to Sesshomaru. Kioshi nodded lightly as he watched them both. "Do you still love him?" The girl questioned whispering in the woman's ear. Kioshi nodded a bit "more then life." "Can I tell him?" Rin whispered to her. Kioshi shook her head no which made the girl give a sad sigh.
"Kioshi-sama!" cried the village children as they ran to her. The adults quickly ran to the children to catch them before they got to her but where unsuccessful. "Don't hurt Kioshi-sama!" a little boy cried. "You made her bleed!" Another shouted. Kioshi looked down to see a hole. "Leave the village alone!" They cried and threw rocks at the youki which made him growl and attack till Kioshi stood in front of the children. "The flame may not be there anymore Sesshomaru. And you and I may not feel the way we did those many years ago. But I know for a fact you will not hurt me or the ones I love on purpose. So please leave the children alone." She growled as she looked him straight in the eyes. "Come children." Kioshi said while shooing them to their family. There Kioshi hit her knees the pain of Sesshomaru's sword barely getting to her. Rin looked to her scared and quickly ran to her. "Kioshi-sama!" Rin called as she hugged her. "Sesshomaru-sama! Help Kioshi-sama!" Sesshomaru didn't answer but turned around and walked in the woods signifying her to follow. "Don't you dare leave Sesshomaru!" Kioshi yelled as she grabbed onto a tree and her hands glowed blue. Soon her hole in her healed to a scar. Sesshomaru stopped watching her not believing his eyes she was a healer. She could heal. "Kioshi-sama!" Rin cried and hugged her tightly. Kioshi smiled but then put her aside as she got up and walked towards Sesshomaru. "We must talk." She said as she got in front of him. He didn't answer which made Kioshi growl. "How dare you Sesshomaru. How dare you pull this stunt on me. Just because we are not lovers anymore. You have to follow me now Alu will look after Rin while we are gone." Sesshomaru growled with annoyance and reached out to slap her but she disappeared behind him. "My skills are better then they use to be Sesshomaru. Alu watch Rin." Kioshi gave a stone face to Sesshomaru who growled with annoyance. "Come Sesshomaru." She instructed as she began to walk in front of him causing him to follow slowly.
Kioshi stopped at the river as the waterfall splashed. Kioshi looked to the water and sighed. "Now Sesshomaru now that I have you here I must talk to you to make sure you know what going to happen soon." Kioshi turned around as he stared down at her. The female held her breath her heart in her stomach and tears at the brim of her eyes. She loved him still. She was so happy to see him again. But he was different he was as cold as ice. She sighed which made Sesshomaru speak up. "Tell me what you need to tell me." Kioshi shook her head and began. "Fine the sooner we do this the sooner we can both get on with our lives." There was a silence till she began. "I found Inu yasha the other day and I told him. And now we are not on talking terms anymore. In fact I am not sure if I want to tell you after all our memories together." Kioshi then looked up to him and began. "But they are just memories right? That's all there will ever be between us." She sighed once more afraid. "Sesshomaru. I already know you know Naraku. After the years I left the castle I lived with him." This made Sesshomaru's face twitch a bit but that's was all the emotion he had showed. "I heard Inu yasha hurt Kikyo I knew he was responsible. He then erased my memories and told me we where lovers." "He touched you didn't he?" Kioshi looked to him a bit taken back by his questioned. "He might have... I am not all that sure. When he did try id blank out not wanting to remember any of the advances he made towards me. But after years passed I was sent to kill a monster that had blood Naraku needed. I heard your name as they spoke and memories of us came to me. I have a lot of my memories now but not all. But what I really need to tell you. Naraku needed that blood to put his plan in motion. He is planning to take all Youki's powers and turn a lot of us human and this will kill some of us also." Sesshomaru looked into her sad eyes. The eyes he wished to see everyday when he was younger. But was it fate them to be brought together once again. Or was it never meant to be. Kioshi gave a sigh and turned away. "I am sorry Sesshomaru if this has made you angry at me in any way. I know it affected Inu yasha quite a bit." Kioshi the turned around to face him once more. "But even if you are angry at me I am glad we met once more. And even if you are angry there is no way in hell you'll be able to keep that child away from me." Kioshi then walked into the woods leaving Sesshomaru by himself.
'Damn it' he growled in his mind. 'I thought she was killed back then. She had to be. She was only a child when she left.' Sesshomaru snickered at his thoughts. Did he even care for this female anymore like he use to? He wasn't to sure about her thoughts. He had forgotten all about her a few years back after all of the memories of her faded away. And as if it had happened yesterday he remembered everything about her. Every wish she had confessed to him, how much she loved him, and all her deepest darkest secrets. Now the young girl he had fallen in love with was grown. And what made it worse she was working for Naraku. Sesshomaru growled a bit as he walked. He wasn't to sure if he was angry at Kioshi for joining Naraku or angry at the fact she was his lover. He was pulled from his thoughts when Rin's voice hit his ears.
"Kioshi-sama! Can you please stay with me and Sesshomaru-sama?" Kioshi gave a sigh and shook her head no. "Why not Kioshi-sama?" "You see Rin remember that story I told you a few minutes ago about the prince?" The girl nodded a bit. "The prince has no feelings anymore towards me." The girl gave a sad faced to her elder friend. "Are you sure. Kioshi-sama?" Kioshi sighed and nodded as she got down on her knees with her arms wide open. The girl ran towards her as Sesshomaru stepped out of the trees. Kioshi wrapped the child in her arms with a smile. "You are one of my angels Rin-chan" Kioshi said with a smile. The girl let go of the woman with a light smile on her lips. "Will you come and be with me tomorrow Kioshi-sama?" Kioshi smiled and nodded her head. "Just keep that cape and I promise I will be there tomorrow." The girl grinned till Sesshomaru spoke. "Come Rin" he instructed. "See you tomorrow Kioshi-sama!" The girl called as she ran over to the male youki. "Good-bye Rin." Kioshi answered. "Alu." Kioshi said silently knowing her old friend was in a dark forest. "You must follow her Alu and keep out of sight." Alu quickly did as she was told and took off after the young female child.
Kioshi walked into the village as groups of adults gathered around her. "What was that about?!?" Asked a female with long black hair wearing a dark kimono and was about 50 years of age. "I am very sorry." She announced as she put her hands up. "That was Rin's guardian." Most of them gasped at that. "Kioshi! How could you let that child go with that...that... that monster!?!" Kioshi sighed. "This may sound strange but he and I where an item when we where younger. I never meant to put any of you or your children in harm. And if any of you are hurt in any way please tell me and I will heal you." A couple of people came to her with a bloody head or bloody arms. Kioshi sighed as she touched an older mans head and touched her own. There her hands glowed a light blue and the man was healed. Kioshi then was the one who had a scar on her head where the mans scar should have been. "Is that everyone?" She questioned as she healed the last person. Everyone agreed as Kioshi got up. The villagers had already put out the fire all she had to do was build the few houses that where on fire.
Kioshi then left the village to gather wood. She was a bit annoyed that after all those years he had come back and he didn't even say nice to see you again. He barely even spoke a word to her. 'How dare he?' she spoke quietly in her own mind. She was still in love with him. She thought after all those years she might have changed her opinion on him and never want to be with him again. But the truth was she did love him. She wished he felt the same way. Knowing him like she use to he was probably confused about his feelings towards her. He was probably just as confused as she was at the moment. Kioshi gave a sigh as she sat down by the river looking to the moon. "The new moon" she let out silently as she stood up and walked out into the water. Being in the water for a few minutes cleansed her from all the wrong she had done in her life that's what she believed. So every full moon since she was eighteen she would step into the middle of the water. Kioshi sighed and walked out onto land once more. She slowly gathered trunks of tree's she had cut down before she went back to the village to fix it up. Kioshi slowly walked trying figure out why Sesshomaru had to be that child's savior. What confused her more was when she was younger she remembered she hated children. It just didn't make any sense to her.
"Kioshi" a voice said which caused her misplace her thoughts. "Naraku." She said dully not even turned to face him. "What do you want?" Naraku answered with a smile that formed on his lips. "Come Kioshi you will find you like it better with me then you ever will here on the outside world." "I am doing fine Naraku unlike you who will die." Naraku laughed out loud. "A bit too confident to be making such threats." Kioshi growled a bit. "You will die Naraku I promise you that" He laughed a bit at her determination. "You will see Kioshi you don't belong here on the outside world." Kioshi growled a bit as his laughter got further and further away. "Bastard." She sneered through her teeth as she began to walk towered the village once more.
Kioshi gave a sigh as she reached the village. "Kioshi!" A young woman about 17 let out as she ran towards her. "The elders have told me to inform you that you must leave immediately!" Kioshi looked puzzled and put down all the wood down she had on the floor. "Why Gen?" She questioned. "They said the monster that killed your family has been spotted in the woods." Kioshi growled. "Which way?" The young woman pointed north as Kioshi nodded in understandance. "Fine." Kioshi said as she began to move northwards. "Kioshi-sama! You mustn't she is waiting for you. That's exactly how come I must! I promised myself I would get revenge on that monster and now I am." Kioshi then quickly upped her speed sniffing the air. She could never forget that stench of the youki who had killed her family.
Kioshi's pace slowed when she spotted the youki she knew was the killer. She had never seen this youki face to face and wasn't even sure what kind of youki it was. She turned around slowly and saw it was a cat youki. Kioshi growled with annoyance she had known the cat youki's loved to play tricks and magic was its best weapon. "Afraid Kioshi. I am Emiko." She laughed as she made her way towards the angry female. The cat youki had black fur around her and deep blue eyes. "You bitch! You killed my mother my father and my biological mother didn't you!?!" The cat Youki laughed at her and began. I not only killed them I killed you real father also." Kioshi gasped a bit and shook her head no as they walked in a circle. "My father died in battle!" The woman laughed. "That he did a battle against me." Kioshi growled as she laughed. "Well today your luck has run out!" Kioshi screamed as she jumped towards her slashing her stomach where abundance of blood fell. Kioshi smirked but the woman only laughed as the cut she had made healed itself. Kioshi gasped. "You didn't think you could defeat me that easily now did you dear. Kioshi blinked her eyes and the Emiko was right in front of her. The cat female punched Kioshi causing her to hit a tree and break it. She slowly made her way towards Kioshi and grabbed her kimono and lifted her to her feet. Kioshi then grabbed her shoulders and tossed the other female behind her hitting the ground. Emiko growled in annoyance as Kioshi ran towards her. Kioshi then slashed at her messily her emotions getting in the way. Emiko only laughed at her attempts and kneed her in the stomach causing her to fly backwards into a large rock.
Kioshi growled in annoyance as ran towards her but her body stopped. "What the fuck!" Kioshi cussed. 'The Youki blood it's gone." Kioshi gasped. 'Naraku must have done some strong magic to take up the rest of the blood' she growled. "You will die now." The female laughed. Kioshi growled in annoyance. She should have known that Naraku was working with that cat in order for him to get her back. "Kioshi." She said with a smile as she touched kioshi's skin. "Don't touch me!" Spat Kioshi. The woman laughed at her then jabbed her hand through the left breast which caused Kioshi scream in pain. Kioshi watched the woman take her had out of her and then look at the blood she had gotten on her hands. Your mother and father had sweet blood I wonder if you contain the same." The woman laughed then licked her hand full of blood. "Better." She said finally. Kioshi couldn't believe this she was going to die and she never got her revenge on that bitch. Kioshi struggled to stay up watching the woman who only laughed at her. "You will die Kioshi. And I am staying here until you do." She laughed. "This is the problem Emiko." Kioshi laughed. "I will never die to the likes of you." The other female laughed harder then before. "You have your mother's determination. She said the same thing just before I cut her head off." Kioshi growled in annoyance of that monster before her. There Kioshi could see that the rays of light above her. Kioshi tried her best to keep awake. She had to stay awake for Rin's sake. She didn't want Rin to lose anyone else. But in the end blackness engulfed kioshi's own eyes falling into a deep dark sleep.

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The young child looked up to the sky while lying on the grass. "Kioshi-sama still loves Sesshomaru-sama" she whispered to herself. "But Kioshi-sama doesn't want him to know." The young child gave a sigh confused of what adults thought. Why didn't Kioshi want him to know? Was she just afraid? I guess it was a reasonable since she hadn't seen him since that long ago. Rin smiled as rays of sunlight shined down from the sky. That day was the day Kioshi was going to come back and be with her. She couldn't wait. 'Kioshi-sama is such a good person." Kioshi thought in her mind. "Kioshi-sama would never leave this cape behind." Rin said out loud as she hugged the piece of clothe. Rin suddenly looked up to see Sesshomaru walk away. "Come Rin" he said as he walked into the forest. Rin then got on top of the two headed dragon as Jaken took the reins.
Slowly they walked through the forest as Sesshomaru led the way. "Where is Kioshi-sama?" The girl questioned out loud. Rin may have not known Kioshi long but she knew Kioshi would never lie to her. "Kioshi-sama might be in trouble Sesshomaru-sama!" Rin called out but her words didn't faze him a bit. "Sesshomaru-sama can you check on Kioshi-sama." The girl said in a bit more concerned tone. There Rin could hear someone scream which caused there to be tears at the brim of her eyes. This caused Sesshomaru to stop. "She can take care of herself Rin" he answered coldly as the smell of blood found its way to his nose. But he had ignored the smell and continued on in the woods. Rin looked to Sesshomaru's back intensely. He wasn't going to save her? Why wouldn't he save Kioshi? Especially when she knew that Kioshi still loved him. "Please Sesshomaru-sama please find her and save her!" He growled at the young woman who kept pestering him. "Please Sesshomaru-sama." The girl paused she had no other choice she must tell him what Kioshi told her not to tell him. "Sesshomaru-sama she still loves you!" She blurted. Sesshomaru stopped for a moment as if debate if he had heard what he thought he heard. 'Love?'

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