Ok this chapter really sucks so I beg for your forgiveness, I'm really sorry.
SOME THINGS CAN NEVER BE FORGOTTEN
Some things never go away
Beast Boy came bouncing into the living area of Titan's Tower with Terra arm wrapped around his own. They where soon followed by the rest of the Titan's each of them talking amongst themselves.
"Oh hey Raven we where just going to go play some volley ball you wanna come with?" asked Beast Boy as he looked at her, gently unravelling Terra's arm from his.
"No thank you" replied Raven coldly not even bothering to open her eyes to acknowledge his existence.
"Why not Raven?" asked Robin as he walked over to her and forced her to look at him in the face.
"I said NO!" yelled Raven as she glared up at robin, making him back away from her slowly. Raven snorted as she stood back up and walked in the direction of her room, forcing anyone that was in her way to move.
"Dude what is her deal?" asked Beast Boy as looked up from the place he was hiding.
"Raven" said Cyborg under his breath as he continued to look at the corridor that lead to her room.
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Raven sat alone in her darkened room, floating a few inches above her bed. She was disturbed by a gently knocking at her door, making her grumble something under her breath as she landed gently on top of her bed.
"What?" she asked harshly as she opened the door and saw Cyborg's goofy face smiling back at her.
"Why do you always do that?" he asked as he looked at her, the goofy smile was still on his face.
"Do what?" replied Raven in her usual monotone voice as she looked at large metal friend.
"Why do you always run to your room when we're all about to have fun?" asked Cyborg as he looked at her, his human eye begged for an answer. Raven let out a slight sigh as she put up her hood and looked once again at Cyborg's face.
"You know why" she said emotionally, but Cyborg noticed that she had slight hint of sadness in her voice.
"You wanna talk about it?" he asked making Raven look at her friend strangely. Part of her didn't want to talk to him about it but a small voice kept telling her it would make her feel better.
"Ok" she said finally as she walked back into room allowing Cyborg to pass over the threshold and enter the place she never let anyone except Starfire enter. Cyborg looked around him nervously for a place to sit and saw raven's hand mirror lying on the top of her bed, he nearly fell over when his eyes locked on it making Raven smile slightly and sigh as she picked it up and placed it on her bed side table.
"So where can I sit?" asked Cyborg nervously as he rubbed his arm and looked at Raven.
"Where ever you want" replied Raven as she sat cross legged on her bed and looked at him. Cyborg smiled and moved closer to herbed and sat down on it, making sure he kept as far away as he could from Raven's mirror, he still had nightmare's about the last time he went into it. They both I silence as Cyborg tried to think of something smart to say but his mind kept drawing a blank.
"So what's the matter?" asked Cyborg eventually braking the silence between them. Raven just gave him a look making Cyborg tremble slightly.
"I'm losing control over him" replied Raven emotionlessly as she took down her hood and looked at Cyborg. Her voice may have sounded void of emotion but her eyes told him that the subject caused her great sadness.
"Who?" asked Cyborg before he could even think, making him mentally kick himself in the butt.
"My father, Trigon" sighed Raven as she felt him laugh in her head, "I am the result of his unholy union with my mother, he came to earth and tricked her into believing that he was a handsome young man and forced her to marry him. After she found out that he was really a demon bent on destroying everything my mother tried to kill herself but she was taken away from my father by the people of Azarath, the place where I was born"
"I always wondered where you got that chant from" remarked Cyborg making Raven smile slightly at him.
"I was raised by my mother and a beautiful lady named Azar, she was the person who taught me how to keep my emotions under control, she told me it was the only way to keep Trigon's evil contained within me. When I was ten Azar sadly passed away, I was devastated she had been like a mother to me, that's when my real mother began to care of me again" said Raven before she stopped and fought to hold back her tears at the memory of Azar.
"You must really miss her" said Cyborg as he placed his hand on her shoulder and looked lovingly into her eyes. Raven couldn't help but smile as she looked into his eyes, she felt safe when she was with him.
"Anyway three years after that day Trigon appeared on Azarath, he was determined to take me and make me his. That was the first time I used my powers, I wasn't going to let him take me away, unfortunately Trigon saw my potential and managed to put some of his own evil soul inside of me, he is hoping to one day gain control of me from the inside, hence the 'big red dude' in my head. He is the manifestation of my father's evil and it's always looking for a way to escape, that's why I can never allow myself to feel anything, that's why I can't have fun" said Raven sadly as she moved Cyborg's hand off of her shoulder and put her hood back over her head.
"Wow I didn't know it was that bad" said Cyborg as he looked at his friend, he found that he had an all new level of respect for Raven. He knew it was tough being a teenager but she had to constantly fight against her demon of a father, never resting, never even being allowed to feel happy or even love.
"Now f you don't mind I have to meditate" said raven softly as she pointed at her door, making Cyborg instantly get the message.
"I'll make sure your not disturbed" he said as he smiled at her before he walked out of her room, "Oh and Raven?"
"Yes?" replied Raven as she looked up and saw his head sticking around the corner of her door.
"Take care of yourself" he smiled before his head disappeared leaving Raven alone in her room. Raven smiled again before she resumed her meditation, floating just a few inches above her bed.
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"So is she ok?" asked Robin as e stepped out of the shadows from behind Cyborg making the metal giant jump slightly.
"I hope so" replied Cyborg as he looked at Robin. "I really hope so".
Told you it sucked anyway I hope you enjoyed it (even though I know you didn't). Ok remember to stay safe ok?
Later days
