I stood there for a moment. My hand pressed to the glass. Should I go after him? I knew I should've, but I didn't know where he'd gone.
"I know how you feel" Mad-Eye said from behind be coming over and putting his hand on me shoulder "What are you doing up?"
I felt I had no other options, at least with the rest of the order we could spread out and look for him. "Harry . . . left" I said
"What?! Where?"
I leaned on the door and shook my head "I . . . don't know he said he'll be back and if anything happened he wanted me to get Mum and Hermione out"
"Shit!" he spat out
I stayed leaning on the door while Mad-Eye rounded up the other order members. Of course when they all found out they instantly began yelling at me. I was already tired and flustered I didn't need them telling me what an idiot I had been.
"Listen!" I yelled over the masses of voices directing their anger at me "I tired to stop him! I would've gone after him if I knew where he went okay?!"
I once again ran my fingers through my hair, draco rubbed my shoulders and led me over to a seat, where he continued rubbing my shoulders.
"Potter's crazier than I thought" he said. I had to agree.
Someone had woken Hermione, though I'd advised them not to. She came downstairs like a bat out of hell "What THE HELL is his problem?!"she screamed
I could already see the tears glistening in her eye's, I pulled away from Draco and went over to stop her from throwing the nearest object. "Hermione, you have to relax you can't go getting all worked up" I instructed. She turned to protest then I added, whispering in her ear "for the baby"
"Come with me" she said pulling me into the kitchen "he told you?"
"Before he left"
"Did you . . . you didn't tell anyone did you?"
"No, no" I assured
"Do you think I shouldn't have told him?" she asked "What if this news pushed him over the edge? You know how he's been lately"
I could see the anxiety in her eyes and I tried to reassure her "Of course not. He has the right to know, he is the father. And you know Harry as well as I do, he worships the ground you walk on, he wouldn't just up and leave you especially with a baby on the way"
She nodded and leaned into my embrace, then began to sob. I tried to comfort her, but I couldn't . . . because I was as unsure as she was. I was glad when Mum came in and took over. Remus and the others were already setting up a plan, there were a lot of people out to find Harry. What he was doing was very, very dangerous. We'd go in groups of two to different parts of London, parts where Harry, (or at least where we thought) was liable to go. We had only a very small scale because, even to Hermione and I sometimes Harry was like a stranger. So closed off.
"Is everyone clear?" Severus asked he was pairing with Remus, Fred was with George, Tonks was with Mad-Eye and I was with Draco. We'd agreed on Mum staying with Hermione, Ginny and Jane in case he came back.
"I wanna come!" Hermione pleaded through her endless tears
"No! . . ." I said sternly "You're not!"
"Ron please"
I glared at her, she glared back and ultimately I won. She'd hate me now but thank me later if anything happened . . . which I prayed it wouldn't. The tension was unbearable as we set off one by one out to look for the most important person in the wizarding world.
