Choosing to Smile to the Past

It was everything I wanted

Just this, that's all, just this

It was all I thought I needed

But you don't know how much you need it 'til you miss it when you loose it

I was foolish and half-witted

And maybe I still am

But at least now I've admitted

On this one final day

Walking through the paths along the street

Freezing away

My heart would race with anticipation

But not today

In this cold foreboding fall

The last day

I used up my chance

Fighting meaningless fights, battling battles not meant to battle

I can't take that one last glace

The glint in your eye when I told you my secrets

Digging into my soul

We'll never get to fight those fights again, you know

Fulfill each of our stubborn roles

I think I've known all along I shouldn't be here

I didn't want to think it would end

I know the way I feel for you and know you don't feel that too

Only a friend,

And I know I can never compare.

I'm sighing a lot now, I find

Trying to get the image of you out of my troubled mind

Walking along, I'm falling behind

I know I can't forget you, even if I wished to

But at least now I've admitted

Yes, I was foolish and half-witted

We both were, admit it

Yes, I hoped I wouldn't have to go

I know it's only fair

Yes, I hoped I would never have to know

Only a friend, I could never compare

But what I saw in your eyes in that one last stare

What I hoped I saw there

Were you begging me like I was begging you?

Begging for it not to end

Not to go

Begging for a seam to mend

Everything we left to be broken

Every day we left with words that will remain unspoken

After this final day

I will no longer continue to do things with the lightheartedness I found

With you

I know, though, I'll find myself again

Walking through the paths along the street

Freezing away

My heart would race with anticipation

But not today

In this cold foreboding fall

The last day

The birds won't seem to sing their songs

Not today

Maybe tomorrow

But with my memories I can smile back

And push forward

Until I'll find we can smile truly to today

Tomarrow

Not only to the yesterday

On today

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