Chapter 5

The song that this is to is called "Over it" by Anneliese van der Pol. If you need a version of it. Email me at and I will be sure to send you my copy. The stuff in the quotation marks and italics is the lyrics of the song.

Star closed her eyes. The crying had stopped, at least on the outside. She gazed up at the stars, but only found clouds. The dark threatening look of them made her shiver. Then, water started to fall from them. Like the heavens themselves were crying because of the loss they would experience.

"How could you know?"

How could she know that anything bad would happen. This was not her fault!

"That behind my eyes a sad girl cried"

Everything seemed to play back for her. Star outside was tough, but inside she was as weak as a kitten. She wished she could make sense of her decisions!

"And how could you know?"

Star was getting drenched by the rain, but she didn't care. The same question rang through her mind. How could she know?

"That I hurt so much inside"

She wrapped her arms around her and leaned back against the tree she was next to. Everything hurt, her body and her soul.

"How could you know?"

She could know, because she knew Vlad. She knew he would stoop to something this low. When she realized this. She winced. Internally she knew this would happen.

"That Im not the average girl"

But she wasn't like them. They didn't know her. They are mostly average. Unlike her. She had to make the hardest choice and they should have been more careful. Her mind was arguing constantly.

"Im carrying the weight of the world"

This was a big deal, she was carrying everything on her shoulders, and she would have to suffer the loss of them more than they will. Because she did the right thing. But if she did the right thing...

"Yeah (Yeah)"

Then why did she feel so miserable?

"So can you get me out of here?"

She looked up at the raining clouds and wished with all her might that they would just take her soul now. So she had no feeling at what she did. But all it did was continue to rain water on and around her.

"Take me away!"

"What am I suppose to do? Please tell me! Or at least take me with you!" Star yelled into the heavens. The answer she got was the terrifying rumble of thunder and the crash and bright light of lightning.

"Well jump in the car

Drive till the gas runs out

And we walk so far that we cant see this place anymore!"

Star jumped and pushed herself against the tree. Then she became infuriated and flew up to the clouds. "Stop it!"

"Take a day off

Give it a rest

So I can forget about this mess"

Star was nearly hit with lightning and she flew into the tree. She curled up and shivered. She wished she was anywhere but here. She wished she could forget about this. All of this. She never wanted this! It was all her stupid parents fault! Whoever they are. They made her. She closed her eyes and cried once more. She hated them! They made her do this! More lightning flashed. She cringed.

"If I lighten up a little bit, than I will be"

She tried to bring up good memories. Any good memories, she couldn't delve into depression or anything similar. She smiled at one memory. Of her and her best friend eating ice cream at the ice cream parlor. She smiled slightly, letting the good feeling wash over her.

"Over it"

Lightning flashed again, knocking her from that vision. She once was back in reality. She began to think again.

"Im playing the role of the happy girl but no one knows"

She remembered how everyone feared her, and how she thought she loved it.

"Inside Im alone"

But really, she felt so alone and hollow. She always had.

"But I would never let it show"

But for her to be who she had to be, she had to stay this way. No one could get into her emotions. Or else they would die too, or worse.

"I dread every day

Too much work and not enough play

Over and over its always the same"

She hated sometimes getting up the morning. Even before she arrived at Amity Park. Another foster home, another family to reject her. She remembered one family made her clean. They thought she needed declipline. They didn't last long. Two weeks. She was glad all they did was give her more work. But it continued. Another foster family, another rejection. She started to realize that no one really loved her.

"Yeah"

Another flash of lightning. She gasped as it hit the tree. She fell to the ground, hard. She managed to stand up and saw the tree burning in front of her eyes.

"But you can make everything okay"

She glared up hatefully at the angry and depressed sky. Rain started to flood up to her ankles. "Stop it! You can stop it" She screamed. Why wont they stop it. Why wont they stop Vlad? She was sick and tired of having to do everything.

"Take me away"

"You do it....please! and take me away from this place! I don't want to be here!" She yelled to the sky again. It simply answered with a rumble and a flash of angry lightning near her.

"Well jump in the car

Drive till the gas runs out

And then walk so far that we cant see this place anymore"

At that, Star couldn't take it. She started to fly and never looked back at the storm. She continued to fly, trying to escape the storm, but it seemed to follow her.

"Take a day off

Give it a rest

So I can forget about this mess"

Exhausted, she landed on a rock and sat down on it as the rain started to hit her rapidly. She wanted to just leave everything behind. But she knew now that she could no longer run from her past.

"If I lighten up a little bit than I will be"

She closed her eyes and saw images of Rosa and Danny. Both caring people. Instantly her anger took over and she threw those thoughts away.

"Over it"

Another streak of lightning. "No!" Star shouted.

"Over it"

Another streak. "No! I wont save them!" She shouted. That was madness. She had to wait. They should have done something about it! Not her!

"And when the world is closing in"

At that instant, the storm was at its peek. Star looked around in horror, wondering if this was the end of her. She closed her eyes tightly and wished with all her might for her mind to find an answer before she would be killed by the storm. She didn't want to die. She wanted to be emotionless... Wait.. did she? Now she was confused again. What did she want?!

"I can leave it all and just walk away"

She opened her eyes in an instant. "I know.." She whispered.

"I can always start all over again

I am closer to a better day"

In an instant the sound stopped. She looked around. She smiled. The storm had stopped, everything was clearing. She jumped into the air.

"Take me away"

This time the breeze around her listened. She wanted to be taken. Taken to save her friends. What had gone on in her head still was fresh.

"Jump in the car

Drive till the gas runs out

Then walk so far we cant see this place anymore"

An image. That's all it took. Of Rosa, showing her secret to Star. Her eye. Star then realized that maybe alone she couldn't take Vlad on, but maybe with more than one person.

"Take a day off

Give it a rest

So I can forget about this mess"

With speed she never thought she had, she flew towards where Danny and Rosa were. She hoped she wasn't too late.

"If I lighten up a little bit, than I will be"

She smiled.

"(take me away) Take me away

Jump in the car

Drive till the gas runs out

And then walk so far that we cant see this place anymore"

It was time for her to move on from the dark place she had been encased in for so long. Trust had to finally be let out. She had to embrace it. That's what the storm wanted from her. To embrace the life she was given.

"Take a day off

Give it a rest

So I can forget about this mess"

She was going to win this fight. She narrowed her eyes as she neared Vlad's castle. This mess was her fault. Now it was time for her to let it all go.

"If I lighten up a little bit than I will be

If I lighten up a little bit than I will be"

After so many long years.. she was finally...

"Over it

Over it"

Ready to...

"I am over it...."

Let it go...