Hi this is Chizuko I changed this around a bit. I just am adding a
disclaimer. *Oops* I forgot to put one in the first time.
Disclaimer:I don't own Dragonball Z and/or the song "Behind blue eyes" by
Limp biscut nothing at all. I own a computer and this hentai mind of mine
that puts out these fics you people (probably mostly girls) read that is
all enjoy ^-^.
Sitting on the balcony railing Vegeta looked out into the distance. Pondering why he was still here. What kept him from leaving this planet? He didn't fit in at all. He was a monster to them, the one always upset. Behind it all he felt sad, unhappy, and left out. It's my fault they hate me because I pushed them away but, ..doesn't everyone make mistakes? Didn't they forgive? .. and forget? The things I've done, choices I made. They hated me for them. They still hate me. Do they know what it's like to be hated, looked at for the rest of time as a beast? No, they didn't. I was a liar. That's all.
No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be fated to telling only lies
I have no regrets to what I've done. My mistakes make me what I am. I will become as great as Kakarrot some day. Though never in strength. I wish that his friends and family would stop looking down on me like trash. They treat there enemies better than this. When I dream I'm normal just like them. They talk to me with out fear. They like me for me. And though it's crazy I'm not so lonely in my dreams because he's there. Kakarrot. When he smiles at me it feels like it's just for me. I'm special to him.. in my own mind. He's married and has plenty of friends already. He doesn't need, nor want some one like me. Who would? Without him I'm so lonely. I always am. He's so much better and they all like him. How can I compete with that? I cannot. I hate him for that, being better. But the one I love with all my heart is the one I hate so deeply. I bet they don't even think I have a heart. My secret nor my soul will never be unlocked. Because no one cares.
But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free
They'll never know what it's like, to be me. I'll never tell them. Never. I keep myself locked inside to keep the 'me' they don't see safe. If they knew my secrets they'd cry for me. The things I've gone through. Things I was forced to do. They would not have survived them. I've been to hell and back and they don't even know how bad it can be. When they see some one die or experience it from an evil villain about to take over the world they act like it's the worst thing ever. It's not. I know. I've been raped, beaten, abused, humiliated, and the list goes on forever. I accuse him for all my horrific fate. Kakarrot is not to blame. No one is but those who put it upon me. No one knows that. Any of it. I keep it hidden behind vengeance for then. My anger will not show through. My sorrow is my own to keep masked.
No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like I do, and I blame you!
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain woe
Can show through
Landing on the balcony he walks over to me. I'm still unaware of his presence until he is so near we're almost touching. My head is turned to the sky away from him. As I'm sure he thinks me to be ignoring him. I just wish to hide my tears and pain that shows in my eyes for sure. "Hey Vegeta!" His voice calms me. It's like a lullaby to a baby, sweet, innocent, and loving. If I want him to like me I'll have to show him the truth I can't stand hiding everything behind a hard stare. I turn to him saying nothing, just looking into his eyes. I drop all my barriers leaving my whole being open to every last inch. My heart beats freely taking in every detail of life. Alas I am finally in truth. Whether I am disgruntled or not I will not tell lies any more. He holds my fate.
He stares back at me. I can see he is shocked but...curious. Yes. He wonders. What would make me like this? But he can tell, feel that this is how it has always been. Though he ponders why he never saw it before. He leans in running his palms over the plains of my face. He reaches for it. What is he grasping for? The truth? "I love you." I smile at him. That's what he wanted. Truth. So I told him. I gave it to him. All of it. Whether he returns my feeling I don't care. I love him. I'll give him all my heart because I love him and no one else. If he doesn't love me back I'll die. No. I'll not kill myself but I know without his love I will die..for sure. But I..don't want to. Not without him.
But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free
He is amazed at my declaration, and curious. As to why I close my eyes; I bathing in the feeling of his hands on my skin. It's more than you can imagine. "Vegeta." He removes his hands. I smile at him. " I don't care if you don't like me Kakarrot but I love you. I always will for ever until I die. Hmph..Maybe even longer."
I tilt my head away from him. He does not return my feelings. Fuck. Crystal emotion runs slowly down my face. !? I didn't hear it fall. I look down. His hand. On it is one, a wet spot amongst his unsaturated smooth flesh. He looks up at me. Staring into my ebony eyes clouded with crystalline. Reaching towards my face he brushes the unshed tears from my eyes. I open my mouth as he leans forward. Unsure of what I was going to say I close it.
He wraps his arms around me. They're so warm and caring. More than I thought they would be. His lips come to my ear and whisper softly to me things I never would have thought to his lips. "Vegeta-sama.I love you too"
I envelop him in my arms to keep myself from collapsing. Tears fall from my eyes again. Though they're for a completely different reason. He kisses my neck playfully nibbling here and there. "I love you Vegeta" Like a bomb to a field it rearranges and corrupts me, dramatically. I pull away from him and see his eyes. Burning with love and forever growing affection. Tipping my head slightly I invade his mouth with my questioning tongue. And the answer I receive is pure bliss. Pushing me down on to the floor of the balcony he slips his own tongue past my lips. Leaning into his body I kiss him deeply, moaning in ecstasy. And to think this is only a kiss. But it's more, to both of us.
~ And this is how it began and I'm glad. Even late love is better to be found. This is our story of life no one else's. Just Kakarrot and. me. *Smiles* I wouldn't have it any other way~
Discover l.i.m.p. say it
No one knows what its like
To be mistreated, to be defeated
Behind blue eyes
No one know how to say
That they're sorry and don't worry
I'm not telling lies
Sitting on the balcony railing Vegeta looked out into the distance. Pondering why he was still here. What kept him from leaving this planet? He didn't fit in at all. He was a monster to them, the one always upset. Behind it all he felt sad, unhappy, and left out. It's my fault they hate me because I pushed them away but, ..doesn't everyone make mistakes? Didn't they forgive? .. and forget? The things I've done, choices I made. They hated me for them. They still hate me. Do they know what it's like to be hated, looked at for the rest of time as a beast? No, they didn't. I was a liar. That's all.
No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be fated to telling only lies
I have no regrets to what I've done. My mistakes make me what I am. I will become as great as Kakarrot some day. Though never in strength. I wish that his friends and family would stop looking down on me like trash. They treat there enemies better than this. When I dream I'm normal just like them. They talk to me with out fear. They like me for me. And though it's crazy I'm not so lonely in my dreams because he's there. Kakarrot. When he smiles at me it feels like it's just for me. I'm special to him.. in my own mind. He's married and has plenty of friends already. He doesn't need, nor want some one like me. Who would? Without him I'm so lonely. I always am. He's so much better and they all like him. How can I compete with that? I cannot. I hate him for that, being better. But the one I love with all my heart is the one I hate so deeply. I bet they don't even think I have a heart. My secret nor my soul will never be unlocked. Because no one cares.
But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free
They'll never know what it's like, to be me. I'll never tell them. Never. I keep myself locked inside to keep the 'me' they don't see safe. If they knew my secrets they'd cry for me. The things I've gone through. Things I was forced to do. They would not have survived them. I've been to hell and back and they don't even know how bad it can be. When they see some one die or experience it from an evil villain about to take over the world they act like it's the worst thing ever. It's not. I know. I've been raped, beaten, abused, humiliated, and the list goes on forever. I accuse him for all my horrific fate. Kakarrot is not to blame. No one is but those who put it upon me. No one knows that. Any of it. I keep it hidden behind vengeance for then. My anger will not show through. My sorrow is my own to keep masked.
No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like I do, and I blame you!
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain woe
Can show through
Landing on the balcony he walks over to me. I'm still unaware of his presence until he is so near we're almost touching. My head is turned to the sky away from him. As I'm sure he thinks me to be ignoring him. I just wish to hide my tears and pain that shows in my eyes for sure. "Hey Vegeta!" His voice calms me. It's like a lullaby to a baby, sweet, innocent, and loving. If I want him to like me I'll have to show him the truth I can't stand hiding everything behind a hard stare. I turn to him saying nothing, just looking into his eyes. I drop all my barriers leaving my whole being open to every last inch. My heart beats freely taking in every detail of life. Alas I am finally in truth. Whether I am disgruntled or not I will not tell lies any more. He holds my fate.
He stares back at me. I can see he is shocked but...curious. Yes. He wonders. What would make me like this? But he can tell, feel that this is how it has always been. Though he ponders why he never saw it before. He leans in running his palms over the plains of my face. He reaches for it. What is he grasping for? The truth? "I love you." I smile at him. That's what he wanted. Truth. So I told him. I gave it to him. All of it. Whether he returns my feeling I don't care. I love him. I'll give him all my heart because I love him and no one else. If he doesn't love me back I'll die. No. I'll not kill myself but I know without his love I will die..for sure. But I..don't want to. Not without him.
But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free
He is amazed at my declaration, and curious. As to why I close my eyes; I bathing in the feeling of his hands on my skin. It's more than you can imagine. "Vegeta." He removes his hands. I smile at him. " I don't care if you don't like me Kakarrot but I love you. I always will for ever until I die. Hmph..Maybe even longer."
I tilt my head away from him. He does not return my feelings. Fuck. Crystal emotion runs slowly down my face. !? I didn't hear it fall. I look down. His hand. On it is one, a wet spot amongst his unsaturated smooth flesh. He looks up at me. Staring into my ebony eyes clouded with crystalline. Reaching towards my face he brushes the unshed tears from my eyes. I open my mouth as he leans forward. Unsure of what I was going to say I close it.
He wraps his arms around me. They're so warm and caring. More than I thought they would be. His lips come to my ear and whisper softly to me things I never would have thought to his lips. "Vegeta-sama.I love you too"
I envelop him in my arms to keep myself from collapsing. Tears fall from my eyes again. Though they're for a completely different reason. He kisses my neck playfully nibbling here and there. "I love you Vegeta" Like a bomb to a field it rearranges and corrupts me, dramatically. I pull away from him and see his eyes. Burning with love and forever growing affection. Tipping my head slightly I invade his mouth with my questioning tongue. And the answer I receive is pure bliss. Pushing me down on to the floor of the balcony he slips his own tongue past my lips. Leaning into his body I kiss him deeply, moaning in ecstasy. And to think this is only a kiss. But it's more, to both of us.
~ And this is how it began and I'm glad. Even late love is better to be found. This is our story of life no one else's. Just Kakarrot and. me. *Smiles* I wouldn't have it any other way~
Discover l.i.m.p. say it
No one knows what its like
To be mistreated, to be defeated
Behind blue eyes
No one know how to say
That they're sorry and don't worry
I'm not telling lies
