Years ago, when I was running much more, I heard that program called Seraph say that you do not truly know a person until you fight them. I believe this. It is something I understand- I can see the wisdom in it. However, I think that if a person like you were to fight me, you would not learn more about me. I think that you would only learn what heaven looks like. Nay, I cannot give you more of myself like that, so I will give it in my own way. I will tell you the story and conflict of my life, the struggles I have faced, the losses I have had, and the strength and peace that I have found within myself. Perhaps if I do this, then you will also learn the state of my mind.