To
love...
by oinkers.
SUMMARY: AJ
Madison and Sirius Black had been best of friends at Hogwarts, but on
the last day after AJ confessed her love to him, and he rejected her,
they lost contact. Tonight they meet on Lily and James wedding...
what happens next?
(SBOC)(LJ)(one SHOT.)
(fluffiness?)
DISCLAIMER: I only own the plot and AJ
Madison. Oh and a bit of Sirius' speech came from the movie "when
the sky is falling". ONLY the beginning before the addiction
part. All the rest is mine! Muahaha.
(
1979; The potters wedding...)
AJ Madison stepped into
the church sighing to herself; this was the day her best friend Lily
Evans had been waiting for. The day Lily Evans becomes Lily Evans
Potter. Sure, she was happy for her friend, but she dreaded this day.
For she was going to see Sirius Black again.
He... had hurt her
deeply. She could still remember that day like
yesterday.
flashback (1977)
"This is it, Antz, our last day! I want to stay here, where I can
se my friends every morning... be with them every night, prank people
every day, hex snivilleous..." His arm was slung over her shoulder
as the two of them were watching the sun rise for the last time at
Hogwarts.
"You cant always get what you want, but if you
try, you might get what you really need" she stated
matter-of-factly. He grinned at her, as she snuggled closer enjoying
his warmth.
"Sirius," she whispered after a moment of
silence, "I think... I think I love you."
His hand slid
down from her shoulders. "Antz... I... I love you too, but only as
a friend." He paused, "Nothing more, Nothing
less."
flashback (/1977)
And
that was the last time she saw him; But of course he was going to be
here. He is the best man for Christ's sake! Maybe that's why she
rejected to be bridesmaid and anything else.
'Okay,
calm down. He's not going to kill you or anything... he probably
has a girlfriend anyway...' she thought miserably.
"Antoinette!" she spun around and saw Remus Lupin looking as pale
as ever. Remus grinned at her and bowed. Rolling her eyes, she gave
a little curtsey careful not to crease her black halter dress.
"For the last time Remy-boy. ANTYHING, but Antoinette!"
"Of course AJ, how have you been?"
"Great! Spiffing!
Just wonderful" she covered it up with a forced smile before
changing the topic, "and you? It's that time of the month isn't
it?"
"AJ! Honestly, you make me sound like a bloody
women!" Remus hissed before gliding her towards the benchs. She sat
herself next to peter who looked so happy he could wet himself.
"Can you believe it? Married!! Prongs and Lily... MARRIED!!"
She
grinned at Peter despite the fact that his words reminded her so much
of-
"SIRIUS! Padfoot! There you are! You're late; Lily's
going to kill you!!" Remus hissed to someone behind her. She tilted
her head backwards and felt her cheeks grow hot. He's here!
He, meanwhile, stood frozen in his steps, staring wide eyed at her.
She managed a weak grin before turning back to Peter who was blabbing
about Voldemort.
"Pete? Shut up! Look Lily's coming
now!!" she hissed glad for the interruption.
x-x-x-x-x
Through
out the whole ceremony she wasn't concentrating on Lily and James.
Her eyes, instead, were stuck on the entrancing gray eyes which
opposed her honey brown ones. His floppy black hair which her fingers
yearned to touch. Deep down, she was whishing he'd talk to her, say
her name and -
"Antz?" A dark haired man grinned at her
fixing his bowtie gently, "what are you doing here? I mean...
everyone else is at the back... enjoying the party."
She
smiled back at the now married and happ7y man, "Sorry James... I
guess I just dozed off."
"About?" James prompted
gently.
"things... us at school.. marauders...
sir-iously old stuff... that's all..." she barely had time to
change her words.
"Sirius?"
"yeah... I'm
serious mate. Anyway go enjoy yourself James. Join Lily... dances you
know!" she pushed james out into the party before following
slowly.
x-x-x-x-x
Two hours and half a bottle of
firewhisky later, a loud dinging noise rang through the room. She
turned towards the front of the room and waited for the speeches. A
dark haired man stepped onto the stage and flashed a
a-million-galleon grin at everyone.
"Well, I expect
a lot of you know me... If you don't, I'm Sirius Black. And one
of James Potter's best friends." He glanced at the room stopping
at Lily who was tapping her watch impatiently, "Well, according to
the lucky lady I'm so stalling. So yeah. Here goes nothing:
Someone very important to me once told me 'you can't always
get what you want, but if you try you might get what you really
need.' Is there something in the world that everyone
wants... and needs? L – O – V – E, love? -"he paused
briefly and searched the crowd until his eyes met the honey brown
pair he was finding, "- love can be like a drug, once you taste it
you're addicted. Yet you can take it for granted, not realizing you
had it, until it's gone... until it's too late. I've finally
come to my conclusion, after two years of thinking. Only brave people
can admit their love and enjoy the rest of their lives with the true
ones. TO LOVE! To Lily and James, the true Gryffindors - may their
love last forever."
He grinned as the crowd cheered and
clapped but his eyes never left the blond haired honey he loved.
Walking of the stage he sat himself onto a chair as Remus started his
speech. "Well... we never really expected Sirius to give... such a
serious speech. That's why I was asked to speak. Today we witnessed
the marriage of Lily Evans and James Potter. But they weren't
always suched loved ones..." He snapped out of the werewolf's
speech as his eyes drowned into hers.
As Remus stepped of the
stage, the band striked. He got off his seat and ran his hands
through his hair, copying James typical move, before heading towards
her.
"Antz... may I have this dance?" his voice croaked
slightly as he held out his hand.
Her eyes grew as she stared
at him, "def- defiantly"
Her soft petite hands fit in his
slightly rough ones as they headed towards the dance floor, when they
reached it his remaning hand wrapped snuggly around her waist as her
body seemed to fit into his: her head resting perfecting on his chest
and her arms finding the way to his neck as the two swayed to the
music.
"Antz..." her murmured softly into her hair after
a while.
"hmm?" Her voice was muffled into his chest but
neither cared, both were enjoying their place in each others arms too
much.
"I meant everything I said up there... you're very
important to me... I- I love you Antoinette Justine Madison."
Her
reaction however was not as he expected. She jumped from his grip,
nearly crashing into Lily and James. She shook her head and gave a
bitter laugh before pushing her way from the crowd.
x-x-x-x-x
"ANTZ" he screamed after her retreating figure, "Antz! Listen...
please?"
Lily glanced at him sympathetically, "go..."
she pointed gingerly at the door as he scurried away. He pushed the
doors open and the cool spring breeze blew gently against his face.
He looked at the girl in front of him, even with her back to him, he
could tell she was sobbing.
"Antz..." he croaked softly,
moving closer step by step.
"Go away! It's not funny
Sirius. This is a sick joke!" she inhaled a quick breathe. "IT'S
NOT FUNNY!" she whirled around and found herself face to face with
him, his long black mane gently tickling her forehead, as her
strawberry blonde sheets hung loosely against her sides. "Sirius
it's not funny..." she mumbled again.
He sighed and
looked down into her eyes which were brimming with tears and looks of
hurt, confusion and... love.
"Antz... don't cry, please..."
he rubbed hs thumb lightly against her rosy cheeks as another tear
trickled down, "I meant it... every word I said. You mean the world
to me, and I KNOW I cant always get what I want, but I need you...
and I'm trying. I never realized how much you meant to me, until...
after Hogwarts when I woke up and you weren't around. When we were
high on butterbeers and you weren't there to stop us. When we joked
and I couldn't hear your laugh. Even when the kitchen was a tip and
you weren't there to scream at us... but you know, that's when I
realized you are more to me than just a friend, and then I realized I
loved you.-"
She opened her mouth to protest but he put his
finger on her lips bring her to a halt, "- I didn't have the
nerve to come to you Antz, I was scared you would reject me... the
way I did to you." He continued and held her trembling hand in his.
"Antz, give me a chance to prove to you that I love you. Give me a
chance to know that I still have the 'gryffindor pride' in
me? Give me a chance?"
He stared deep into her eyes, hoping
that he would not get rejected and could almost feel his heart jump
when she slowly nodded. "I love you Sirius Black. Always have and
always will..." Although her voice was barely audible he knew what
she meant. And she knew he knew.
x-x-x-x-x
later that night, the two people left together, their fingers
entwined in the others. These two people had entered separately each
unhappy with part of them missing.
But now, they were full
again...
to Antoinette Justine Madison and Sirius Black –
may their love... last forever.
after all, this might be
their happily ever after.
