Wherever You Will Go

Rakuen

So lately,

Been wondering,

Who will be there to take my place?

"I love you." She tells him. "I love you too." He replies.

She's still crying, though.

And it's my fault. I can't say how much I hate myself for it. There is sand in my throat as I swallow it back, swallowing back all I want to scream out at her, (tell her everything… all she needs and wants to know) pushing back anything that would make her upset. Ha. How pathetic. Who am I to say? I'm the one who hurt her.

He's smiling, only lightly.

Can you believe it? (Yuna, don't cry) Smiling as the feeling in my hands starts to ebb away. All of a sudden I feel unreal, like I am what I know I am. A dream. How do dreams end, again? When you wake up? The fayths are awake, just dreaming a little bit more.

How will I end?

What kind of story will I leave for them to tell?

Would there be any story at all?

If a great wave shall fall, and fall upon us all

Then between the sand and stone,

Could you make it all alone?

He walks, swinging his legs with certainty and a smile stoned into his face. One last embrace, just one last thing for her to remember him by. And he walks away.

I can hear someone, something, (two voices… calling out to each other) in the back of my mind screaming, crying. (Go back) I want to go back. But something (fayths be damned) pulls my feet along, forward, through her (every fiber in my soul) . I can't help but cry. I was literally being torn alive (shredded apart).

Walking right past her, his form a shimmering rainbow as the tears fall from her face and his—though they will never know

I should have known not to love her—at least not to show it—I have fooled her into thinking we would be together; one way or another where's that side of me that's supposed to laugh? . We were both fooled.

I do not need to be told.

(we'll find another way… right?)

I am the bigger fool.

(we can stay together)

He wonders silently, if ever he will be able to stop crying

If I could, then I would

I'd go wherever you will go

Way up high, or down low, I'll go wherever you will go.

Her tears keep falling, (nobody knows) his are too. Both part of something unreal.

I still wish she would come after me or something (just whistle… and I'll come running). Call my name, scream, fall down sobbing. Anything (can't stand the silence). Really, just knowing she is crying is awful (kill me). I can't believe myself.

I am not even turning back. Nor is she doing anything. I guess I have been thinking we would still be trying to cling to this dream. She is wiser than I think she has become over time. She knows I am not real (knows she's loving a dream), it is all fake, and she is ready to let go.

I am not.

(save me?)

He doesn't turn back. She doesn't call him back.

(no more dreaming). fade

And maybe, I'll find out,

A way to make it back someday

To watch you, to guide you, through the darkest of your fears.

I am not ready to let go (not ready to die). Wishing I knew she would follow me had the circumstances been different. She would stay with me if things were different; come hell or high water. (won't she?)

He can't tell her how much he wants to stay. Her? She's mute. Stoned, like a gold statue, planted in place. This once, he can't melt her and mold her anew.

(don't doubt) Second by second as my senses disappear, it aches even more. Between where I am going and where I want to be. (you can't fight it anymore) I can't stay longer. Can't even turn back.

But I know she is crying.

He's still smiling.

If a great wave shall fall, and fall upon us all

Then between the sand and stone,

Could you make it all alone?

If I could, then I would

I'd go wherever you will go

Way up high, or down low, I'll go wherever you will go.

(I keep questioning myself)

How to say goodbye, how to tell her everything in the fleeting seconds I have left (all I have is silence). Perhaps I can't even say anything anymore, every part of my body is leaden. (I can feel it now) I am reminded of living. (breathe in, breathe out)All I have to do to stay alive (beating one, two, three, one…)

(am I alive?

Still smiling. Still crying.

Run away with my heart

Run away with my hope

Run away with my love

I know now, just quite how

My life—my love might still go on

In your heart, in your mind, I'll stay with you, for all of time.

Would she remember me… years on, after everything has changed? (dig myself a grave in her heart) Think of me perhaps, when the sky turns red and rains just as the sun sets? (reminded of her tears in the setting of my existence) I continue to fade, and she is not answering.

I'm not asking anything.

(urgency)

He was still dying. She was still watching. Just watching.

If I could, then I would

I'd go wherever you will go

Way up high, or down low, I'll go wherever you will go.

If I could turn back time

I'll go wherever you will go

If I could make you mine

I'll go wherever you will go.

(wishing I could stay with her)

Don't ask why I intentionally walked through her (let her know what's inside of me). Perhaps she would remember me as the guy who possessed her for a moment. Weak, I know. (leave a part of me with her) That too. (and a lot more)

I am falling, suddenly loving the gravity as it pulls me away (from what I don't want to remember). I can't hear anything. Can't see anything. (can't remember anything) . Only knowing I do not want to be here (follow her wherever) . I want to stay with her. (however unreal I may be)

if I could, then I would

Yuna.

I'll go wherever you will go.

I'll go wherever you will go.