Aww.. Thanks for the suggestions!!!! And for all the patient readers, arigato!! Still, I'm not hardworking enough to continue this fic that's why I have my friend to type this... I do hope that you have the time and lots of patience to continue!! Thanks again, and I'm really sorry for the wrong grammar or spelling errors, I'm not good at using English, that's why.

Again, anyone who have MP3 of 'Anti-nostalgic' of Gravitation? Please and thank you!!
AVIDITY Chapter four
That night at Sakuragi's residence.

He was thoroughly rage that he banged his head on the walls and on everything that he sees. He drank almost a drum of water just to ease and calm himself down. Though its no use, he couldn't help himself but to sit down at the corner and stay not agitated.

He glanced at the phone then back to the floor. He wanted to call him, apologize for the words he said but his pride wont let him. He let those words come out from his mouth wherein once again, let his suspicious side overpower his emotion. He stood up finally deciding to call Kaede.

Whatever happens, it happens.

He just wanted him back

He just wanted to say he's sorry, even if he notices that Katoe is close - too close to him.

He picked up the phone but before he dialed the number, the doorbell rang.

He sighed then went downstairs and opened the door.

" Kaede" he mumbled, not believing his eyes. He's right in front of him, right now.

" You're alone?" Kaede asked, still looking pale

Sakuragi nodded and let him in, but Kaede refused. He took a deep breath and said. " It's not my business how if you want to break of with me." He said in a serious manner, but smirking as if it's a nuisance they shared a relationship for the past seven months.

Sakuragi frowned again. " Just what do you mean huh? You're ready to give me up so easily?!" he glared angrily grabbing his shirt.

Kaede grinned. " Exactly. What do I get from a stupid guy like you who knows nothing in bed?" he teased rudely which REALLY angered Sakuragi more than ever.

Kaede once again spoke. " But then, I did have feelings for you Hana - Kun." Was that his irresistible voice had said, leaning to him.

Sakuragi let his hand loose itself from Kaede's shirt.

As Kaede gave him nasty pecks from his neck and to his cheeks.
" Cut it out." Sakuragi told him. He just said he doesn't care if they broke up and now.
He's not stupid to fall for his techniques like a toy.

He's not

He wouldn't.

Kaede suddenly stopped. " You want me to stop this? Oh c'mon, you need me more than everyone else. You want me. You desire me." he replied, enclosing his body in his arms and kissed him once again

With that kind of temptation, Sakuragi tried to control his feelings and his longing.
Unfortunately, he couldn't and fell for it. He responded, caressing his lips with great passion and now had the moment he craved for. He didn't care less if someone sees them even read an article in the school paper about both well known basketball players. sharing forbidden love?! its now that happens to be what he practically doesn't care about. He admitted to himself he's envious, but what Katoe gives to Kaede, is just too obvious to be noticed. Just like the time when he caught Katoe staring lustfully at his twin for about a 100 times in less than two weeks! Unfortunately, when it comes to those matters, he's not stupid enough.
" So lame." Kaede said, breaking their long kiss. He removes himself from Sakuragi's arms and wiped his lips with his sleeves, carrying a disgusted look on his face.
Sakuragi glanced at his cruel narrow eyes. What's happening to him suddenly.
He's turning so cold.

So evil.

He hurts so much, he couldn't bear it.

He threw himself to Kaede and his tears keep falling though he tried to control it. " I'm sorry Kaede. I just couldn't bear his looks. I admit, I was selfish but I ." he apologized. But Kaede hushed him.
" I love you." Sakuragi continued. Still his eyes welling up with tears. He's embracing him and now tighter. He refused to let him go, for he might not come back ever again.

" Stop your nonsense & get off me, will ya?" was his reply. His voice still seems cold, it's not cool, and it's extremely freezing.
He shove Sakuragi's arms off him and smirked. " Fool. I don't need you. More or less, HE doesn't need you at all." He told him. Seeing him still clueless he burst out laughing - in fact, caught in a loud guffaw.

Sakuragi tried to laugh, if that was a joke, but it was not. He, kept his naïve looks painted on his face.

All of the sudden, Kaede stopped and returned back to his stern looks. " Still don't get it? I'll give you a clue: I'm not who you think I am." He mentioned pointing his finger right in front of his face.
It took several seconds for him to realize his stupidity. How could he be this stupid? That was bizarrely absurd. His heart was full of intensely hot, enraged emotion. Where in all he could see is Rukawa. Everything turned black, and both two persons were on the spotlight.
He strike Katoe's face with his enclosed fist and continued punching him until he's down on the floor, helplessly cannot fight back.

Katoe, under Sakuragi's control, kept his arms as defense but Sakuragi was so terrifying that he couldn't protect his body from his hard blows.

" So you like fooling me? You're having fun, huh? Well, this is what you get for messing up with me!" Sakuragi screamed, terribly showering him with continuous punches.

Despite an aching body and constant pain received, an eerie smile came right across His lips, which made Sakuragi halt. What is this? Is he insulting me?
Katoe clumsily stood up, feeling gawky and a bit dizzy. Sakuragi stared at his physical condition, and it was obvious he's hurt. Totally.
Meanwhile, the real Kaede Rukawa was at home, preparing dinner fro himself. Mrs. Rukawa is out for a very urgent conference meeting and leaves the house at her twin's responsibility, not knowing of the mischief done by Katoe.

Kaede stared at the ceiling, thinking where Katoe could possibly be. " That darn guy, he must be out having a date. He didn't even told mom about it." He thought, taking a sip on his hot chocolate. His eyes blinked as a memory came in his mind reminding him of someone he truly cares for. " Hana - kun." he murmured, gazing at the mug where he drank his hot chocolate. Why is he drinking this hot chocolate? He doesn't even like this. Sakuragi does. And this mug. they - he & his Hana - Kun] bought this together. Upon this constant time, he didn't notice his selfishness. To be honest, this is partially his fault. If Katoe hadn't affected him, if he had acted normal, Sakuragi shouldn't have been in deep jealousy I but no is not the time to regret it, I have to make it up for him.
He left his meal and took his coat and decided to talk to Sakuragi - if [!] he could gather his guts and do what his heart tells him to.
The night was cold and he was walking alone on the road. Melancholy thoughts have entered the gap of his mind and its as if he's the only one existing.
" I am having an affair with another guy. true its not allowed in this cruel society but," Kaede thought " if I cant get him now, when will I? Wait until one of us turn into a woman? Nah, I like him the way he is right now and I wont allow anyone to break our affair - even if he's my brother." He thought.
He finally reached Sakuragi's house, but to his surprise, an unpleasant welcome greeted him.
He quickly entered the gate and interrupted the fight between his twin & his lover. " What are you two doing?! Stop this already!" Kaede yelled looking at Sakuragi.
" I apologized because he was jealous of me. I came here with good intention, but he doesn't want to he explanation, so now, look at what he did to me." Katoe lied.
" Liar! Look Kaede, he's just lying." Sakuragi said but Kaede's looks were pity on his twin and anger towards him.
So you expect me to believe you EVEN IF I saw you treating my twin like a punching bag from afar?" Kaede asked starring at Sakuragi with an impassive look.
Sakuragi hold on to him broad shoulders & told him. " You don't think I'm lying do you? Believing this idiot would be your worst mistake Kaede."
Kaede kept his blank less face to stir up the situation and took Sakuragi's hand off him and helped Katoe stand up, " Let's go home." He told his brother and decided to leave the place.
" Where are you going, Kaede? Don't leave things like this." Sakuragi said running towards them. He tried to stop the two from leaving by blocking the way, but it seems that Kaede won't be stopped from doing that."

He looked so serious carrying his brother full of bruises and wounds all over his body. He just passed Sakuragi with words that say, " I thought I could finish things this night. Let's talk, but not now."

The night was cold and he was walking alone on the road. Melancholy thoughts have entered the gap of his mind and its as if he's the only one existing.
Kaede, from afar could hear his soft cries but what he did to his brother is unforgivable. He's not mad to Sakuragi, to his 'Hana-kun', he was just. confused

Physically hurt, but inside is another eerie smirk, happy enough of the results.

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" Itte! Stop it already!" Katoe complained as his wounds were treated one by one by Kaede.

" Shut up! Who do you think you are anyway? You have no match with Hana - Kun - I mean, Sakuragi. He's an expert when it comes to these darn riots." Kaede told him, placing a bandage at Katoe's right shoulder.
Katoe gave grumpy faces and stood up. " Yeah, I'm fine already.."
Kaede gazed fixedly at him. " Stay still!" he said, pushing him back to his seat. He continued aiding his injuries, and that delighted Katoe.
I'm all-alone now with my brother whom I truly adore and idolize ever since. No ones going to be on our way. I'll make him love me, just the same as he loved Sakuragi, no way more than him. I want my brother's obsession to surpass mine and together, we'll live alternate to he and that red head's senseless affair.
" ah, Kaede," Katoe started.

Kaede stared up at him. " What?" he replied coldly.

" Well, how'd you like if we'll both go out this weekend?" he said, obviously asking for a date.
Kaede stood up, and looked at him with a look that seems to turn down his offer. For what and where? Things nowadays aren't surprising and exciting. I'll get bored with those." He refused, now looking at the meal he left a while a ago. Kaede went to the sink to wash the dishes as Katoe watches him with a determined face.

He smiled walking to Kaede. "Aww, c'mon now! It's going to be great! Dad bought me a car for my 16th birthday and I guess we could stroll away from the city to enjoy ourselves! Y' know. The idea you gave me when we were 8 years old." he insisted leaning to the door with folded arms.

His cold twin paused., then looked at Katoe with an unbelievable look. " You still remember that?"

Katoe quickly nodded.

Kaede looked up at the ceiling then started to giggle softly. " My idea? The thing that, I said when dad threw our toy car?" he asked.

Katoe smiled. " Yeah. You also said that we'll go for an adventure and find mom another husband." He said, slowly losing the excitement in his voice. He looked down on the floor, realizing the fact HE left with 'dad' on his own will.
"Tss, that's okay." Kaede said stepping closer and raffled his twin's raven hair. " So where's your car?"

Katoe blinked in surprise then gave a large smile. Which made Kaede smile too.
Next day..
Kaede looked up at the large hotel Katoe was supposed to be staying in. he was left outside for Katoe went in to get his car keys and to check - out from the hotel. He sighed. " Why didn't he stay here for good?" he asked.
" Well, it's because I want to see you, Kaede." Katoe said.

Kaede looked and one cool car caught his eye. And it was his twin driving the car. Kaede hopped in and looked interested on the scene he got. " So where are we driving to?" he asked, putting on a blue shades.
" Anywhere!" he replied, stepping on the wheels and strolled on the road with a high speed. He provided a CD w/c Kaede really loves and played it on the car's disc man on the highest volume. So much to Kaede Rukawa's pleasure.
For the whole day, they were in the car listening & singing along the music at the top of their about - to burst lungs.
" Hey, Katoe!" Kaede shouted.

"Whaat?" he replied in a shouting voice too.
" We didn't have a permission from mom!!"

" What?"

" We have no permit from mom."

" [?] That's okay!! She won't kill us for that!' Kaede shrugged.

" Whatever you say." he said silently at his seat.
Uhh. That's all for now. The last chapter's got a long way to go before it can finally reach its long awaited [?] ending. Got anything to say? Read and review please!! Feel free to give suggestions; I need them for a better ending. Anyway, the next chapter is the last chapter. and I'm working on it. Again, domo arigato gozaimasu to the persons who gave their side of mind for this story.

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