Once again, thanks for all the reviews! This story is coming to an end now, I think there will only be one more chapter, but I'm still not sure exactly how it will end! Anyway, enough of my blab! Read and enjoy!
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Chapter 4
Never
As Dib slowly came to, he felt something wrapped tightly round his middle, and a warm body next to him.
"AAAAGGGGGHHHHHHHH!" he screamed, jumping on top of the sofa as he realised that it was Zim who had been lying next to him. "Zim? What are you doing in my bed? Huh..." he looked round. This certainly wasn't his room. Then all the events of the previous day came flooding back into him.
Zim sat up, groggily rubbing his eyes. In the commotion he had been harshly knocked off the sofa. That was the best sleep he had had since...ever! Dib slumped back onto the sofa, recovering from his moment of confusion and insanity.
"What happened?" Zim mumbled through a yawn.
"Errr... nothing! I... just woke up!" he used Zim's drowsiness to his advantage. Dib didn't need to ask why Zim had been sleeping next to him now that he remembered what had happened yesterday.
He recalled how being near to him seemed to comfort Zim greatly, although it was a rather disturbing wake-up call finding your arch nemesis sleeping next to you, hugging you tightly.
"Hey! You're finally awake!" GIR screeched as he walked in, a can of poop cola in his hand. "Big head kid? Can I have the sofa back now? I wanna watch the scary monkey show!"
Dib sighed as he slid off the sofa. "Sure."
"YEEEEEEEEEHOOOOOOOO!" he sprung onto the couch and grabbed the remote. Zim groaned as 'the scary monkey' came up on the screen. 'That...horrible monkey!'
He turned away, and looked over at Dib, who was now unpacking some unusual box. "What's that?" he questioned. Was it some sort of camera? A weapon? Was he going to suddenly turn against him after all this?
"It's cereal." Dib had anticipated Zim not having anything suitable for a human breakfast. "It's what humans eat for breakfast."
A sigh of relief washed over Zim reassuringly. He had panicked unnecessarily in his delicate state. Humans were odd things.
"Are you going to Skool today?" Dib asked as he started on his cornflakes. He had thought about this for a while now.
"I guess so, if you're going." Unlike Dib, he hadn't thought about it. He was just thinking along the lines of staying near Dib no matter what.
"Well, then I guess I'd better say this now." Dib wasn't sure if this was the best idea or not, but it had to be done. "You can't be going round in public hugging me, and you have to sit in your normal seat at Skool. You can sit with me at lunch, but I don't want you stuck to me all the time."
Zim felt rejected. Why had Dib suddenly set these rules? Dib didn't feel good about saying this, but he had decided that he couldn't have people at Skool thinking that Zim and him were a couple. It was just too weird, and the other kids would have even more reasons to skit and tease him.
"Do you understand?" Dib said harshly.
"Yes." Zim couldn't even look Dib in the eye. He went into his lift, and down into his lab to cry, away from the suddenly cold eyes of Dib.
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Later that day, Zim sat at his cold seat, wondering hopelessly whether Dib really had changed, or whether it had been a trick all along. He seemed to have changed attitude to Zim so abruptly that morning, it was like the previous day had been a dream.
Dib had been torturing himself about the way that he had acted towards Zim that morning. He hated that he had had to have been that harsh and cold towards to him, but he just kept telling himself that it was all for the best. He couldn't love the alien, it was wrong enough him being his arch nemesis, but being a different species as well- he just couldn't let it happen.
Part of him though, thought about how much he really would like to give in, and be with Zim all the time, setting aside all that had ever happened between them, setting aside his quest to reveal Zim to the rest of the world, setting aside the thought them being an impossible couple.
But because he was lost in the sea of his feelings, he fell back on the most confident one- the one that shouted no. He could feel that deep down he was going to regret his choice, and it was eating away at him inside. Something bad was going to happen- he could just feel it.
Zim couldn't handle it anymore. He could not cope being alone with the loneliness again, not after he had felt such comfort and happiness in being near Dib. Zim knew he couldn't sleep at his house every day, and that he couldn't always be with him, but it had been all right when he had thought at least Dib cared, and at least he would be there for me. But now that thought had gone as well.
He was in despair. He suddenly realised that Dib was the one he had needed all along, that Dib was the one that could turn his life around- that Dib, was the one he loved. Zim decided that if he could not be with Dib, only misery and pain would follow in his pathetic future. He had to stop that future from ever coming to him.
Dib sat down at his usual table next to Gaz. She didn't even twitch as he joined her- she was deep in the realm of the vampire piggies.
"So, I took your advice." He said, needing to confide in someone about his terrible feeling of doom that seemed to loom ever closer. She grunted and turned her back to him.
He sighed. There was no point in trying to talk to Gaz. If only he could talk to Zim, apologise and pretend he'd never said those things. As he dwelled on his regrets of the conversation that morning, he remembered that he promised Zim he could sit with them.
No doubt it would probably make him feel worse, Zim might not want to speak to him ever again. He recalled having to walk to Skool alone because Zim would not come up from his base after being rejected.
But it didn't look like he would have to worry about that anyway. Zim was nowhere in sight. Dib felt a little nervous that Zim wasn't there, but also relieved that he would not have to face him.
Little did Dib know, that Zim had silently sneaked out of Skool, and run home fast as his skinny legs would allow, to pick out the sharpest item in his base...
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heehee, this is getting angsty! Well, just one more chapter should do it, please review!
