I was bad and wrote myself a fluffy one-shot fic for Dawson's Creek...Lol...So if you happen to watch Dawson's Creek and like Pacey/Joey fics (or you just wanna be REALLY nice *cough* shameless plug *cough*), it's called "If You Could Only See." I haven't written fluff in ages...Or...I think it's fluff. It's been so long I can't even remember if it classifies as fluff! But yeah...It's just a one-shot, so it won't interfere with this story's updates at all. ^_^ And just in case anyone wanted to know, I made an accounts on FictionPress.com...My pen name is "spazzychick96," and I posted a poem if you were just DYING to read it. *winks* Soph, it isn't the one I sent you, but I may post that one later.

Katie- Ooh, it's your favoritest? *squeaks happily* That gives me the warm fuzzies. ^_^ Yeah...If he were to get a clue, this would be short story. *winks* Ooh, I own your sanity? *evil smile*...Lol, I'm just kidding. I personally don't know where my sanity is...I think Sophie might have it...Yeah, Sophie and kelcb26 have it locked away with their stories...^_~ They taunt me...So I taunt you! ^_^ I hope you enjoy the chapter.

Hotashell99- oh, I am SO terrified, you just don't even know. ^_~ I tend to try and surprise y'all, so yeah. Um...yeah. Lol...I'm okay, really. o.O...Hehehe. Well, I'm glad you found something funny, even if it's kinda serious. Every now and then I have a tendency to add slight humor so you don't all kill over and die from angst-overdose or something. Aww, don't cry! I'll update, I'll update! See? I did! ^_~

French Chipmunk- I'm glad to know you've been following it, and that you decided to tell me you like the story! ^_~ I'm so glad you're enjoying the story, and I hope this chapter is up to par. ^_~

Brnnttebabe12- Thanks for the review, and I hope you like the chapter! *winks*

Banksiesbabe99- *beams* Aw, thanks for the sweet song! *feels special* I'm glad you liked that part; even if Fult and Charlie had a blowout. Charlie's just having issues. *winks* I'm glad you liked the chapter!

Nebula- Yeah, they did get off pretty easy. Oh well. Shush. ^_~ I actually was shooting for Adam and Fulton looking for Julie while she was talking with the dean; they had left by the time she was cleaning the halls. Lol. Yeah, it is a bit ironic that she misses Charlie's return to reality in all it...glory? Aww...my poor Charlie's isn't evil...He's just...misunderstood. Lol. ^_~ You'll just have to see what happens with Julie, now won't you? ^_^ Yes, I know, I know. "One Way Ticket" needs to be worked on. It's being neglected, and will be attended to eventually. Lol. I'm sorting out my thoughts because I realized my original plan was a pile of badness so I'm reforming my ideas. You'll thank me. ^_~ I'm glad you liked the chapter anyway! ^_^

MDSWitter26- I'm so honored to hear that! *squeaks happily* Thanks so much! ^_^ I totally agree with you about Charlie and Josh; Charlie's my favorite too (naw, ya think? ^_^), and I'm in love with Josh. Lol. Not that you could have GUESSED that or anything. ^_~ Thanks for taking time to review; it made me feel loved! And I'm guessing you like Dawson's Creek by your penname? Dawson's Creek is awesome. ^_^

Allie- I'm glad I was able to recover the chapter too. ^_~ Hey...My computer used to randomly shut off to! It was some virus or something, so I got my brother to fix it. It used to annoy me when I would type up massive reviews and then my computer would randomly restart before I could submit them. The people always got rants at the beginning of their reviews. ^_~ Lucky them, huh? Happy Early Birthday! *blows a horn gleefully* And as for the angst, I am awaiting it's arrival. I won't rush ya though. ^_~ To be PERFECTLY honest, I tend to work ahead with the stories I'm writing too. I have this planned out to chapter sixty. Lol. So yeah...not that you care or anything. ^_~ Beginning of April...alrighty. I'll remember that. An...an...Adam-luster? *is shocked and appalled* You've got to be kidding me...Say it isn't so! What kind of PSYCHO is this girl?! Even my friends are Charlie-lusters! Sure, I tell them that Charlie is MINE so they're STUCK with ADAM, but at least they WISH they had Charlie! Lol...I'm cruel that way. I don't like to share. *winks* Good! Hold her off until she sees the light! She MUST see Charlie's hotness! How can she not? Seriously, he is one fine male specimen for crying out loud! Is she BLIND?! Meh...I'll never understand...Heeheehee. Yeah, I could never kill Charlie in all seriousness. I love him way too much. And that would make it kind of difficult for him to date Julie, now wouldn't it? *winks* Lol...*cough*...As for Blockbuster and "Ronnie and Julie," I checked about three in my area and they don't carry them. The only way I got one was ordering it off of Amazon.com and receiving it in the mail. Yes! I read your new fluff fic! ^_^ Uber-cuteness. Yes, the "Hey Julie" bit was pretty cool, yo. Lol...^_~ Heheheheh...Yeah, our little Charliekins woked up. ^_~ Heh. Yeah, my English teacher would be killing me right now...Bad grammar is just SO MUCH more fun, though! *winks*...*Charlie smiles real big and accepts yummy cookie* You just made a very happy Charlie. *Charlie grins ear to ear and gobbles down yummyful pink-frosted cookie* He told me it was yummyful, and thank you. Yeah, Fulton is pretty sweet. *Fulton looks up from video game in the corner* Nothing, Fulton. Just go back to your game. *Fulton nods, and Charlie pouts because he feels left out* Aww, Charlie! I love you! *squeezes Charlie*...*Charlie chokes and coughs, but doesn't feel unloved anymore*...*Charlie winces and sticks out tongue at Allie when he is whacked with a rolled-up newspaper* He says you should take that paper and use it to burn something. He claims that would be far more productive than whacking him. But he just went over to sit and play video games with Fulton until I start the story, so I guess that's okay. Aww, you're so sweet! I'm glad you think I write inner-turmoil well. Makes me feel sufficiently loved. *winks* I always love your reviews, and I hope you like the chapter!

Angel Spirit- Yeah, the dean was evil...and it should have been Julie...and Charlie was being a dolt...and Fulton wasn't ANY help...Lol...Yeah, as for the saving stuff on disks, I don't think I have enough disks. ^_^ And I'm always at home. Lol. But I do wish computers were perfect...That would just be lovely...Thanks for the happy birthday AND the review! *is really happy* I hope you enjoy the chapter!

Hockey_Luvva- Hehe...Yeah, they're a little slow on the uptake. ^_~ It's like "Naw, there's not a problem. He only tried to kill himself; no problem at all!"...o.O Meh, oh well. Lol...^_^ Aww...Are you okay? Getting your shoulder slammed in the door is never fun...how would you go about doing that anyway? o.O It's like "Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't see your shoulder in the door there, buddy." *rolls eyes* We're surrounded by idiots. Eek, so it be the violent one? That's not cool......"Wasn't"? Hehe...You really called her Spazway? Sweet. Lol...Maybe I'm just weird, but I wouldn't mind being called Spazway. I know I'm a spaz, and it would be an HONOR to be associated with Charlie! Lol...but that's just me. Way to go! o.O She punched you? Yikes. I would cry if I got punched. Lol...^_^ I'm a wimp. WOW! You got two periods off? That's awesome! I wish I could get to periods off for being 'upset'...I would cry them all a river! Lol. I'm glad you liked the chapter though. ^_~ And you like Texan accents? ^_^ Cool. I can't hear my accent either...*pouts* I wanna know what I sound like! ^_~ Hehehe...And we don't ride to school on horses. *winks* Lol...We had an exchange student from Australia one time...He was cool and we always made him talk so we could listen to his accent; it was amusing. He thought we were all psychos. Not that he was WRONG or anything. ^_~ Anyway...Thanks for the review! ^_^ I love hearing from you.

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Rachel- Aw, Fanfiction.net is being mean to you? How sad. For once it's working for me. Shocking, I know. I'm glad you're happy about Charlie being back. ^_^ You always make me feel so LOVED! *grins* I am always floored with your compliments! I NEVER fell unloved! Lol...Thanks for emailing me; I love hearing your comments. ^_^

Ashley- *squees* ASHLEY! You reviewed! Yay! And no prob about reading your fic. ^_^ Hehehe, my poor fans will be infected with multiple stories to read because of you! ^_~ Thanks again for reviewing! Uber-coolness. And thanks for not letting the mass amounts of chapters scare you away! ^_~ I'll have you obsessed with the Mighty Ducks yet! Or at least well informed of all that is Charlie.

Liz- Yep; the Charlie-meister is back in action! Lol...have fun watching the game, and I hope your writer's block is cured soon! And thanks so much for the second review! ^_~ And I will be sure to review "The College Years" for ya. Thanks for reviewing "If You Could Only See" too! ^_^ And I'm REALLY excited about Friday! ^_^ Wow...New Years was so long ago...and trust me, you will hear about New York. ^_~ Thanks again!

Sarah- Wow. That's quite a bit of reading, huh? ^_^ I'm honored that you enjoyed it that much. ^_~ Too bad your siblings are mad now...Lol. Oh well. *winks* I'm just so flattered that you enjoy the story!!! ^_^ I hope you deem this chapter worthy as well! ^_~

Disclaimer- I don't own the Mighty Ducks.

-Chapter 47-

"How long has it been?" Adam asked Fulton lazily as he leaned back in the uncomfortable hospital chair.

"About an hour," Fulton replied with a yawn.

"Do you think he's cooled down?" Adam asked the other teenager.

"Probably," he said.

Adam Banks nodded and stretched. "I think I'm going to go and see him."

"Good luck," Fulton said skeptically as he patted Adam's shoulders. "You'll need it, Banks."

Adam gave him a grim smile before walking down the hall to Charlie's room. He hadn't spoken with Charlie since their discussion before class regarding the razor. The same object that nearly took the life of his best friend.

Or, at least what used to be his best friend.

Adam was still trying to cling on, though it was growing increasingly difficult. He wasn't even sure if he knew Charlie anymore. Adam could easily remember the upbeat, charismatic personality that their captain departed with, but now...now Adam wasn't so sure.

Julie seemed convinced that Charlie would return to normal; it seemed everyone was struggling to believe that maybe, just maybe Charlie would wake up one morning and return to normal. They would all flock together in their little group and face Eden Hall together. Pranks would ensue, street hockey would resume, and they would spend every waking, breathing moment of their summer together...as a team...as the Ducks.

But no matter how hard he tried, this delusion seemed to be slipping from Adam. Charlie seemed to be slipping from Adam...from everyone.

Charlie represented leadership and unity to all the Ducks. He represented the idea that no matter what, the Ducks would always stick together. That no matter how bad things got, they would always be a team. A group of friends. That nothing could take that away from them. But once Charlie had fallen apart, many of the Ducks didn't understand. Some were angry that Charlie was so detached from them, some were confused without his leadership, some were scared at the simple fact that if Charlie could lose it, so could they. Charlie had been a constant in their lives; anytime a problem arose with the Ducks, he would do everything in his power to keep them together. He would fight to keep them as a team. Now he refused to have any conversation at all with anybody. It went without saying that something was wrong, but anytime it was brought up, it only got worse.

However, Adam was convinced that this time might be different. This time Charlie would realize that he's pushing everyone away, and that he needs help. That he still needs them...

As Adam approached the door, a nurse stopped him.

"Charlie said he didn't want any visitors," she said.

"What do you mean?" Adam asked.

"He requested that we don't let anyone in. He said that he wanted to be alone," The nurse replied softly.

"But...but I want to see him," Adam said with confusion. Charlie wasn't accepting visitors?

"I guess we can let you in...but he may be upset about it," The nurse said.

The blonde boy simply nodded as she allowed him entrance. He was nervous about Charlie's reaction.

Adam closed the door behind himself and realized this was the first time he had even seen Charlie since 'the incident.' The guy looked horrible...

"Charlie?" Adam said quietly, breaking the numbing silence and quiet beeping of the machines.

The curly-haired boy's body twitched slightly from where he lay sideways on the hospital bed. He seemed frozen in the same position and didn't look up when his name was said.

"What are you doing in here?" Charlie asked with an edge to his voice; it cracked slightly as he tightened his grip on the pillow.

"I came to see how you're doing," Adam replied.

"I said I don't want any visitors," Charlie snapped in a low voice. His posture was closed off, as usual, and he remained facing away from Adam.

Adam frowned slightly and crossed his arms, leaning against the wall.

They both just remained still; quiet as the air thickened around them.

"You see, this is the part where you are supposed to go away," Charlie said coldly, earning a sigh from Adam.

"I'm not leaving," Adam replied with equal authority. "I refuse to leave this room until we talk this out," He said, though he knew it was a gamble.

"I'm not talking to you," Charlie said forcefully.

"Actually, you are talking to me right now. It's rather difficult to have a one-way conversation," Adam pointed out.

"Wanna know what? Shuttup..." Charlie said, groaning into the pillow. "This doesn't count."

"Well if this isn't talking-" Adam started.

"Leave me alone. I. Don't. Want. To. Talk. To. You!" Charlie snapped angrily.

"Why not?" Adam questioned.

"You're...being annoying." Charlie replied weakly, before resorting to glaring.

"But you didn't want to talk to me even before I had the chance to be annoying. Charlie, you need to talk to us about what ever is bothering you. This obviously isn't something you can handle by yourself," Adam said, getting more serious.

Charlie finally turned over to face Adam, looking him dead in the face. "I do not want, nor do I need, your help. No one cared before, so why do you all of a sudden care now? Huh? Now that it's CONVENIENT for you to help, you decide to 'grace' me with your time? You decide that you will bestow your wisdom and comfort now that it is in your best interest and benefit? I don't think so. It doesn't work that way. You can't just expect me to conform like some little lapdog whenever something isn't as perfect as you want it to be. The world doesn't work that way. Not everyone has a Perfect Family, Perfect Grades, Perfect Future, and freaking Perfect Life! Not everyone is YOU, Adam!" Charlie practically growled, venom lacing his words.

Adam's face hardened. "You have no right to say that in such a condescending way. My life isn't perfect."

"Who would've guessed? Especially with the self-righteous attitude you seem to have," Charlie snarled.

"That's not self-righteousness, Charlie. It's called caring."

"Caring? Caring?! Caring is being there for someone when the fact that you CARE still MEANS something. Maybe when they are, say, alone in another state, separated from their life for the first time. Trying to deal with unresolved and building issues, but having no one to talk to. Feeling like there isn't a single person left that CARES enough about them to, say, call. Maybe just see how they're doing. Check and see what their PSYCHOPATHIC FATHER decided to do that week. Even to just say hello. Every single one of you is a hypocrite. You say you care, but you really don't. So you can just take those CARING words and shove it!" Charlie said, his anger building as the words left his mouth without his consent.

Adam didn't have time to be shocked at Charlie's harsh tone before he retorted. "We're just trying to HELP, Charlie! The world does not revolve around you, and other people have lives and problems of their own, so you can't blame this on us! And you have no right to decide if we care or not!"

"Oh, yes, God forbid I take from your time. You are, after all, a very busy person. You all are, so there really is no point in this conversation, is there? By all means, Banks, go home. I wouldn't want to WASTE any more of your precious time," Charlie snapped, his voice chilling even more.

"You've been nothing but mean to everyone on the team, and we've been doing nothing but trying to help! Everyone has been doing their best to help!" Adam replied, his voice rising as well.

"Oh yes, and that's why they're all here for support, right? That's why everyone went out of their way to stay in contact when I was gone? To help me through THAT, apparently inconvenient, struggle in my life? Oh yeah! That's right. They didn't," he said coldly.

"You have no right to judge them, Conway. How can you expect them to shower you with affection when you throw it back in their faces?" Adam said angrily.

"I DON'T! That's the thing, Adam. I don't expect it, nor do I want it. That's what I've been trying to say this whole time, if you didn't catch that," Charlie said with a heated glare.

"Fine, I guess I'll go then. If that's what you want, I'll go," Adam said with a cold glare of his own as he stormed over to the door.

"Good riddance," Charlie said, rolling over to face the opposite direction again.

Adam slammed the door behind himself as he searched for the quickest way out of the hospital.

~~~*~~~

Gordon Bombay and Fulton Reed looked up as they saw Adam storming through the waiting room from one side and Julie dashing in through the other.

Julie looked at the angry boy storm past her with confusion. She hadn't seen Adam angry in...well...a long time.

She turned her gaze to the two men sitting in chairs in the waiting room. "Sorry I'm late...What was up with him?" she asked, referring to Adam's flurried state.

"We're not...sure," Fulton replied, his face etched with confusion.

Julie sat down next to them and continued looking at the door. "He seemed really upset."

"He was talking with Charlie...apparently things didn't go over too well..." Fulton said, wincing at the thought of what they could have possibly said that would get Adam so angry. He was usually the more level- headed of the two, so Fulton could only imagine what Charlie was like at the moment...

"Talking...to Charlie?" Julie said with confusion.

It took a few seconds for it to hit. "Wait, you don't know, do you?" Bombay said.

"Know what?" she asked with growing anticipation.

"Charlie's up," Fulton replied. "He woke up roughly an hour ago, but seemed pretty easily-agitated. We would've wanted you to go first, but you weren't here...And now may not be the best time, seeing as Adam's stormed out. There's no telling how mad Charlie is," Fulton said with regret.

Julie's face fell when she realized she couldn't go in and see him. However, she nodded.

"Speaking of you being late, where were you?" Bombay asked, wanting to change the subject. He could tell Julie was crushed.

She swallowed and gave them a half-smile. "I was serving my punishment for the whole 'fighting' thing yesterday...Apparently school officials aren't big on that sort of thing."

"What did you get into a fight for anyway?" Fulton asked, the curiosity getting the best of him.

Julie shrugged and smiled again. "It isn't that big of a deal. Carrie Longfield was just being stupid and saying stuff she shouldn't have been saying. I got really upset and had an out-of-body experience."

Bombay and Fulton nodded in confirmation.

"What was she saying?" Fulton asked.

"She was spreading rumors about Charlie and just being a little wench in general. It was a long time coming, anyway," Julie told them as she leaned back in the chair and flipped through a magazine.

The two males nodded their head in understanding.

"You shouldn't listen to her; she's just looking for trouble. I'm glad I wasn't there, or I would have gotten angry too," Fulton admitted.

"Yeah...it was pretty bad. I don't think I've been that angry in awhile. I just couldn't believe she would say some of that stuff," Julie said with a sigh.

~~~*~~~

Thirty minutes had passed before Julie sighed and put the magazine she had been reading back where she had gotten it.

"I'm going in. This is driving me crazy and I can't take it anymore," Julie declared with a groan as she stood up.

"But what if he's still upset? It might be disappointing," Gordon Bombay pointed out.

"Then let him be angry. I won't be disappointed either way; I just want to see him. Besides, as long as I avoid the Forbidden Subject, I'll still be okay," Julie said with a smile.

Both of her companions sighed.

"If that's what you want, then go ahead," Gordon said, deciding not to try and talk her out of it.

"Alright. See you guys later!" Julie said before darting down the hall, running to Charlie's hospital room.

She opened the door to his room, smiling brightly. "Hey Spaz."

The brown-haired boy rolled over to face the doorway. "Hey," he replied.

She walked around the bed and sat at the chair next to him. "How are you doing?" she asked with a light smile.

Charlie rolled over to face her again. His face grimmed slightly. "Okay, I guess."

She smiled.

He gave her a half smile in return. He wasn't sure why, but he felt less threatened with Julie. She didn't make him feel like he was constantly doing something wrong. Besides, it was pretty hard to be mad when the person talking is happy...

"The last day of school is tomorrow," Julie said with excitement.

He nodded. "Lucky you. I still have to take my finals. Not too fun," He said dryly.

"Yuck. That's no fun at all. Do you need to study?" she asked with a frown.

He shrugged. "Nah. Wouldn't make a huge difference anyway."

Julie grinned back at him. "Well, since I'm you designated study buddy, I could help," She said, trying to keep the mood as light as humanly possible.

"I wouldn't want to bother you..." he started.

"No, no! Not a bother at all. I insist," she replied. "Do you have your backpack?"

"I think they confiscated it," He said with an almost-laugh. "We may never see it again."

Julie smiled. "Well then I guess mine will have to do. Most of our classes are the same, so it should work."

Charlie nodded. "Sounds exciting," He said with a hint of sarcasm in his voice.

"Hush, you," Julie said with a playful grin, earning a genuine smile in return. "Stay RIGHT where you are; I'll be RIGHT back. I just gotta get my stuff."

"I'm not going anywhere," He replied simply. "Considering I'm kind of hooked up to all this junk, leaving the room would prove to be rather difficult."

"Smart alec," She said with grin.

"I try." He replied with eyebrows raised in cockiness.

She smiled and rolled her eyes, leaving the room to get her books and backpack from the waiting room.