I Hate Everything About You

Chapter Six: Slipping Through My Fingers

By: Nora Wall

Lyrics: Slipped Away

Artist: Avril Lavigne

The battle against Kagome was probably the hardest thing that InuYasha has ever done in his life. It was like a stab to the chest every time their swords hit against each other. It seem to last forever. He couldn't wait for it to be over but at the same time he never wanted it to end because he wasn't sure when the next time he would see her would be.

He didn't understand what happened to her. It was like she was there but at the same time she wasn't. It was his Kagome's body, but it wasn't his Kagome's heart. It was in there somewhere he just had to find it. It had to be. The only evidence was that she went out of her way to make sure that Shippo and the others wouldn't get hurt. When Shippo finally got out of Sango's arms he sprinted his ways towards Kagome. Kagome and InuYasha were right in the middle of battle and of course this was easier. Shippo jumped towards Kagome just as she was about to attack InuYasha again. Kagome quickly stopped the attack and used her new powers to block the attack from him and push him back to Sango. She then set up a wall of water around them so none of them would get out. Because of that act InuYasha knew she was in there and he was going to get her back!

Na na, na nanana, na na

I miss you, miss you so bad

I don't forget you, oh its so sad

InuYasha adjusted himself against the outside wall of Keade's hut. He looked up at the clear sky, the stars starring back at him. He sighed as he subconsciously rubbed his right arm. Kagome had gotten a really some really good hits on him and for some reason he kept getting the feeling that she was holding back. He winced as his hand hit the tender spot. He wouldn't let anyone tend to his wounds unless it was a life or death situation and even then he was grumpy about it. He didn't want anyone to think that they could take Kagome's place.

He missed her so badly. Sometimes when he and Shippo would get in a fight and Shippo would start crying his body would tense up in anticipation of the 'Sit' command. It never came though. He wouldn't tell anyone this, but he missed it. He always loved to get Kagome mad. When she was it she always gave off this spicy scent that tickled his nose. He would give anything just to hear her say that one word one more time.

All he wanted was to hold her one more time.

I hope you can hear me

I remember it clearly

He knew it was his entire fault that she died. He could of done something! Anything! He never got to tell her that he was sorry. Didn't she know that that day haunts his dreams? Every time he closes his eyes he real lives that moment. He can still hear the sounds of her body slamming in to that metal cart (he means the car). He can still smell her blood and if he tried hard enough he can still hear her last breath escape her lungs.

Tears started to weld up in his eyes and he quickly wiped them away. He couldn't let the others see him like this. He was their pack leaders and the pack leaders have to stay strong in front of the other members. It was hard to control it though. Everything seemed to be related to Kagome or remind him of Kagome. He knew that nothing would ever be the same even if they did get the real Kagome back. There would always be that day standing in the way.

The day that you slipped away

Was the day I found

It won't be the same, oh

Na na

Na nana na na

All he wanted was for her to know how much she loved him. He should of told her or done something to make her see if that he didn't hate her. He never got to kiss her again. He never got to relive the feel of her lips against his. He leaned his head against the wall with his face towards the sky. He closed his amber eyes, trying to recall the some happy moment he had with her.

'The lighting blinded her for a second and then it was to late. She turned to see car lights in her eyes. She screamed as the car it her full on. InuYasha watched helplessly as he saw her bloody body flew and hit the back windshield of a parked car on the side of the road.'

His body jumped as the memory came back to him without warning. He shook his head to rid it from his mind. Why did his mind have to be so cruel to him as to not even relive a second of a happy memory with her?

I didn't get around to kiss you

Goodbye in the hand

I wish that I could see you again,

I know that I can't

He let a tear fall and he glared up at the sky as though blaming it all on it. Why did everything in his life have to turn out for the worst? Were the fates playing some kind of cruel game with his life? Every time he found happiness it was ripped from him. He learned his lesson! He should have been more careful with her! He shouldn't have taken the fact that he knew she was always going to be around for granted.

I have had my wake up

Won't you wake up

I keep asking why?

I can't take it

It wasn't fake

It happened, you passed by

Now you're gone

Now you're gone

There you go

There go

Somewhere I can't bring you back

Now you're gone

Now you're gone

There you go

There you go

Somewhere you're not coming back

Was it ever going to be like it was? Would he ever get to hold her again or would she be unreachable forever? He felt his heart stop as a thought ran across his mind. What....what would happen if she choose Naraku? What happens if she falls for the sick bastard?? He would never get her back! He heard the patter of footstep and sniffed the air. It was Shippo. He turned and looked at the small demon child.

Shippo dragged the large stuffed animal over to InuYasha. He surprised him by climbing into his lap and snuggling into his stomach. InuYasha looked down at the young child, not sure what to do. He carefully put his arms around him.

"We'll get mama back, right?" Shippo asked quietly.

"You bet runt." He replied.

"When we do everything will be the same." He said with a yawn.

"I hope so, Shippo. I hope so." He muttered. He knew though...it would never be the same.

The day, you, slipped away

Was the day I found

It won't be the same

No

The day you slipped away

Was the day I found it won't be the same, oh.

"I miss her." The young cub muttered as he fell asleep. InuYasha looked down at the cub then back up at the sky.

Na na, na nana, na na

I miss you...

a/n: Well here it is! Chapter six! Sorry for not putting in a battle scene but I can't write those well and I couldn't think of what to put there. I'm so sorry! Anyway I hope that you enjoyed it! Don't forget to read and review!

Nora Wall