Sesshomaru

She is an enigma. A mystery, a secret, a riddle, a question. One that I cannot unravel, divulge, guess, or answer. And day by day, it grows and grows, just as she does. She spoke of the sky today, wheedling on my ears as I suspect human children are prone to doing. She said that she saw me in one of the clouds, and asked if that's where I came from. I suspect she thinks me an angel of some sort. I was loathe to tell her that I did not come from the clouds, and so said nothing; instead asking her where she came up with such ideas. She simply smiled at me, and said nothing.

I do not understand why I keep her. I told myself that it was for the extra power of the Tensaiga, but I have questioned it time and again. She is a far more comforting presence than Jaken, who squawks any time I do anything unexpected to him. Obnoxious toad. She asks few questions, and obeys me well. Perhaps when she is older, she will be less conforming. What I will do then, I do not know. It is obvious, if disgraceful, that I have allowed myself to grow fond of her. Perhaps I should distance myself, find a place for her to stay. Perhaps not. She may yet be of use.

Of course, I could never allow my half-brother and that chit that he loves to know about her. They would automatically assume that I had done something horrible to her, hurt her in some way. Despite common belief, I do try not to kill the completely innocent, and I do repay my debts. She risked her life to care for me, as I recovered from the Tetsuaiga's wind scar, even if I did not receive it well. She unlocked the powers of the Tensaiga. In return, I saved her life, and am caring for her.

Ah well. Inuyasha would hardly understand about the delicacies of repaying debts. He is too stupid, and too base to know such things. And that girl that he travels with, Kagome, she might understand, but even her kind heart would not see the connection that keeps me from harming her. Even I do not quite understand it; how could she?

Humans. Rin is the only one that I have met that I did not despise completely on sight. She disturbed my sleep, only to offer me food. I pushed her away, and it only made her come back. She did not speak until I showed her. And then she stayed, never wavering, never frightened, always obedient. Did her village treat her so badly that my cool treatment of her is a blessing?

And they call me the demon. I at least have my reasons for torment and death. Humans, feh, what utterly useless beings. They are weak in body and mind, have little self control, foul the very things that they live upon and kill each other upon an order. I cannot stand them. I do not know how my brother can travel with them. Then again, he is half human. I suppose his mother's blood allows him to ignore their stench. I cannot do such a thing.

Jaken asks me how I can ignore Rin's smell. I do not ignore it; I simply know that it is not as rancid as the other's, thus it is tolerable. Perhaps it is the debt I feel I owe her, that life owes her; but perhaps not. It is possible that she simply does not stink as much as the adults of her kind do. She is a child. She has a while yet before she can shoulder the burdens, and thus the acrid smell of her elders.

Aie, I am rambling. A child, and a human child, no less, should not give me half the troubling thoughts that she has. I will think of this no more.

Allow me just to say that typing as Sesshomaru is HARD. But I love him as a character. Next up, Shippo. Please review, I promise to review back! I'll keep going regardless (Saving best for last: Inu/Kag) but it would make me feel loved!