Sorry this has taken so long. I've been having some writer's block issues lately. I've started this a few times, and then deleted it all, as it was complete crap. I've gotten some really great ideas from my wonderful friend, Annikask8s2005, and I hope I can implement them properly.
I'd just like to say that I'm really sorry if this sucks, very, very sorry. Please feel free to tell me if it sucks, because I need to know what I'm doing wrong. If I do a bad job (which, considering what I've been writing lately is entirely possible), please tell me. Maybe some good (constructive) criticism will bring my brain over the current road block. I've attempted to fill my brain blocks with song, please tell me if it works!
And I haven't watched some of the episodes she's supposed to be thinking about in awhile. So if it's sketchy, and a bit off, I'm sorry, my mind works in mysterious ways.
The song is hit the floor by Linkin Park from their newest cd Meteora (which is very good)... I don't own Linkin Park- which is a shame, really, it'd be fun to be a millionaire.
Rogue sat in her room with her headphones on. She heard Jean's voice downstairs, and tuned them out by turning up the volume.
"Times that people
Have tried to look inside of me
Wondering what I think of you
And I protect you out of courtesy"
Rogue thought over her first thoughts about Jean. Over all the times they had been together since Rogue joined the X-Men. Even the times before that...
"Too many times that I've
Held on when I needed to push away
Afraid to say what was on my mind,
Afraid to say what I need to say"
She had saved Jean's life when Blob had kidnapped her, but did Jean show much courtesy? No, she was only surprised that Rogue had saved her. Rogue knew even then that Jean would've chosen Rogue as the last person to save her. Yet, Rogue had still respected Jean. Rogue still wanted to be accepted by Jean.
"Too many
Things that you've said about me
When I'm not around
You think having the upper hand
Means you've got to keep putting me downBut I've had too many stand-offs with you
It's just about as much as I can stand
Just wait until the upper hand
Is mine"
Everyone loved Jean. 'And why not'? Rogue thought bitterly to herself 'she's perfect in every way... except that she isn't.' A tiny voice in the back of Rogue's head whispered.
"So many people like me
Put so much trust in all your lies
So concerned with what you think
To just say what we feel inside"
A few scattered images from Scott's memory entered her head. Pictures of Jean looking wonderful, and beautiful, and so sickeningly perfect. Rogue shook her head, trying to push out those thoughts. Since Rogue found out that Scott had no feelings for her she had been desperately trying to rid her brain of his memories.
"So many people like me
Walk on eggshells all day long
All I know is that all I want
Is to feel like I'm not stepped on
There are so many things you say
That make me feel like you've crossed the line"
A small part of Rogue wondered how Jean had managed to stay so popular. Wondered how someone so fake had managed to trick an entire school into worshipping her.
"What goes up will surely fall
And I'm counting down the time
'Cause I've had so many stand-offs with you
It's about as much as I can stand
So I'm waiting until the upper hand
Is mine"
Rogue pulled herself out of her thoughts and turned more of her attention to the song. She loved this song, because she had always felt it was herself speaking.
"One minute you're on top
The next you're not
Watch it drop
Making your heart stop
Just before you hit the floor
One minute you're on top
The next you're not
Missed your shot
Making your heart stop
You think you won."
Rogue sat up, thinking about what she would say to Jean if she could. What she would say if she had the courage. Rogue took off her headphones, leaving the cd playing. She stood and walked out of the room, a determined look on her face.
"And then it's all gone
I know I'll never trust a single thing you say
You knew your lies would divide us
But you lied anyway
And all the lies have got you floating
Up above us all
But what goes up has got to fall"
Rogue stormed downstairs into the kitchen where Scott and Jean were talking. No one else was there, but Rogue didn't really care at this point. She looked straight at Jean, anger at the way that she had treated Rogue boiling inside her. "What's your problem wit' me?"
Jean arched an eyebrow, "excuse me?"
"You know what ah mean. Ya've treated me like shit since ah got here. Ah jus' wanna' know what your problem is."
"I don't have a problem." Jean said, indignant.
"Dontcha', Jean? They wha do ya' pretend?"
"Pretend?"
"Wha do ya' act all the time? Wha' do ya' pretend ta' be all perfect?"
"I don't pretend-"
"Sorry, that's right, ya are perfect! What dontcha' stop pretending, Jean?!" Scott shot Rogue a surprised, and almost hurt look, Rogue ignored him and stayed focused on Jean. "Jus' tell me ya' don' like me! Stop pretending to be all nice, and sweet. Tell me how ya' feel to mah face. But, Jean, don't go behind mah back, and trah ta' ruin mah life! Don' pretend ta' like me, while ya're talkin' trash abou' me!"
"I would never-!"
"Wouldn' ya? Come clean, Jean!"
"I have nothing to confess."
"Fahne,(fine) it's your life. But stay away from mahne!" She turned to Scott, "and you- ya' idiot! Wake up! Jean will never let ya' close! She's only happy when people are pinin' for her. She'll never let ya' close, she'll always keep you three feet away. Open ya're eyes, Scott! Look around ya'! If ya' take ya're eyes away from Jean for a second ya' might see something real!" Jean and Scott sat there with their mouths open. Rogue looked back at them expectantly for about 30 seconds, then she turned and walked out.
Okay, whew, done. It wasn't as bad as I thought it might be. I'm not sure if I stayed in character -bites finger nails- so please tell me. And now for replies
raniatlw—you don't think Jean is evil, and you still read it? That's amazing, and it also means that I haven't overdone it on the Jean bashing.... Okay make that hadn't, as this chapter is almost entirely Jean-bashing
Spunky-Rooney-Fan— I do? Thank you!! Did I keep in character this time too? And now you can breath again! looks down at unconscious body ... oops
FrickinEvilPoptart— Thanks! I hope I'm original, being another cookie-cutter writer wouldn't be as fun! Ah, yes, the weird symbols, stupid macs!
And, here's another chapter, to keep the spork at bay!! hides and proceeds to start next chapter
Sevish— I can't resist puppy eyes! So here it is! In all it's... er- well something.
Dark Jaded Rose— well then I'm making you happier by continuing to make you wait! I'm really doing you a favor, right? hehe
Hutchy— Cheese award, huh? I like cheese, and I have no problem with bribes! So here it is! Lol
Alex is annoying, so no one writes about him. Plus they only stick him in randomly when they're low on Scott episodes. He's kinda' like Forge, actually (remember him?) they only use him randomly when they need him. There's no character development, so people have no idea what kind of person he actually is. He could be a rabid crack addict pimp for all we know.... Think about it ;-)
