I know, I know, WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN!
I know I haven't updated in a week, I know I left you guys at a major cliffhanger, I know and I'm soooooooo sorry! But a lot of things came up, and they're kinda embarrassing, so just take my word for it, okay? (Crowd of angry fans gives menacing looks) Look, you wouldn't believe me anyway! (Each fan pulls out large, blunt object) Okay, okay! I'll tell you!
See, my boyfriend, Austin (Sorry Taiba) came over on Monday night to replace a light bulb in my room (I can't fix things). He told me to watch what he did, so I could learn to do it myself. But I kinda watched too intently and fell out of my chair. (This is sooooo embarrassing) My computer room is in the basement, y'know, stone floor, so I practically cracked my head open! I got blood all over my carpet, which didn't help my impact much, and Austin took me to the hospital. So, I spent two days in the hospital with a minor concussion (It was very minor, don't worry) and when I finally got back home, hurricane Ivan hit! Geez, my power was out for, like, two more days! Ivan also took out two trees in my front yard and blew up two power transformers! But school wasn't out, oh no, school was still in session! And I can't wait to make up all the work I missed! Not.
Well, that was a long story. Anyway, I'm back with a new chapter, so hold on to your hats!
This might be the last chapter. If it isn't, then there will be one other one. Maybe an epilogue, I don't know.
I want to give all of you loyal fans big thanks for being there throughout this entire story. I know that the plot has jumped around a lot, sheesh, this fic was practically two different stories! But you guys stayed with it, so, thanks.
It's not goodbye, it just 'I'll see you again', okay? I'll probably take a little vacation for a week or two, and then be back with a brand new story! So be looking forward to that! Everything comes to an end eventually. Nothing gold can stay (I read 'the outsiders' waaaaaaaay too much).
Enjoy the remainder of the story, because, it's not over yet!
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You said you would give it all
You said that he was right
You would sacrifice your emotions
So that I would live to fight
But if you couldn't feel
How would I live again?
Until I make you smile
A new life can't begin
You would hold a silver dagger
Let your freedom drip as blood
And I can only watch
Like only an idiot would
If you didn't look so sure
If you didn't seem so strong
I would tell you that the choice you made
Seemed so utterly wrong
But who could argue with you now
Your eyes burning with untold strength
An amethyst inferno
Of unknown lengths
I have no choice but to watch
As you ruin all my dreams
You drain your emotions
And to me it seems
So unfair
You must
You have to feel....again.
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So he watched. He watched as she drove the dagger through her arm, following the black lines that were slowly fading from her skin. Her face was twisted in pain, but she didn't shed any tears. To him, the moment felt suspended in time. Like it wasn't happening, like he was too into a movie, and soon he would wake up from his daze. He would look over and see his friends on the couch, Robin complaining about the cheap effects, Star asking strange questions that only she would ask, Cyborg practically inhaling popcorn, and Raven... Raven.
She would be reading a book, or meditating, or probably wouldn't be there at all, but she was there now. This was his fantasy, and she would always be in his fantasies.
She would turn her head towards him, give him a questioning look.
"What are you looking at?"
And he would answer, answer without thinking, because now it seemed so simple. Everything was so much simpler, now. Now that he knew how he felt, how she felt. And he would answer. A simple answer
"You, I'm lookin' at you."
And she would raise an eyebrow, and his friends would laugh, and they would go back to watching the movie. They weren't going to mock him in his fantasy. This was his little dream world.
He would motion to the door, she would follow him up from the couch. They would go into the hall, she would wrap her arms around him, he would kiss her, and she would kiss back. The lamp in the hallway would remain in one piece, because this was his fantasy.
And then he would wake up.
"I always have to wake up." He moaned. "Why can't I just stay there? Why do I have to come back? Whose fantasy am I supposed to live in? Why can't I live in mine? I always...I always wake up."
Beast Boy came back to the real world. The world where he was full of pain, full of guilt, full of other feelings that had long words to describe them that he could never remember. But suddenly, the pain was drifting off of him. Drifting, like a fog, fading into the air from his body. He knew what was happening. He was being healed. She had done it, she had really done it.
Beast Boy sat up and looked around. Dust billowed in the wind around him. Raven knelt at his side, healing the rest of him as her hands shined an eerie black, but he couldn't see Trigon.
"Are you okay?" Raven asked, concerned.
"Super." He responded, facing the ground. He didn't want her to see him cry, and boy, was he crying. Silent tears fell from his face. She had done it, she had really done it. She had done it for him, she had finally had her hearts desire, and she gave it up. She... Raven couldn't feel, anymore.
Beast Boy tilted his head back up at her. She didn't look concerned, or scared, or sad, but she did look like she was concentrating. Raven was concentrating very hard on something. Her eyes were glowing white, and her body shook with effort. It didn't take him long to see why. She had Trigon pinned to the sand with her powers, but he was struggling.
Trigon tore from her grip like tissue paper and lumbered towards them.
"So, you have your powers back, I do hope that it hurt." Trigon laughed maniacally.
Raven stood up from his side, her hands glowing. "It was worth it."
Beast Boy looked up at her, so sure and confident. If she thought that it was worth it, then dammit, he did too! He shouldn't be guilty that she couldn't feel, because it wasn't his fault! He would have done the same thing for her, and he knew that she didn't have any second thoughts.
"You're getting' your ass kicked." Beast Boy added, rising to Raven's side.
"By who?" Trigon chuckled, his laugh hissing through the thin air.
"By the little green guy, and his hot girlfriend."
Beast Boy transformed into a lurose and flew towards Trigon, knocking him to the ground with a loud thud. He swooped and did a flip in the air, coming in for a second attack. And as he did, Knight glided over to his side.
Knight glanced over to him, as if he was trying to tell him something, and gave a small grunt when he got no response. He gave a strange, roaring sound as a huge horn sprung from his forehead. It pulled out like a cat's claw, springing from its retracted position in his skull. And Knight glanced back over.
"Awesome, big guy!" He thought-spoke, doing the same.
They flew towards Trigon together and stabbed him with flying force, knocking him to the ground again. They continued to swoop in and attack again and again, while Raven blasted him with her powers. They did it relentlessly, until Trigon didn't get back up.
"Is he finished?" Beast Boy asked, landing next to Raven and resuming human form.
"I doubt it." Raven responded, in her monotone voice.
"Why are you always so negative," Beast Boy joked, "what happened to 'just keep on laughing' huh?"
"Once Trigon dies he, kinda, he self-destructs." She answered.
"What!?" Beast Boy yelled. "Then we gotta get outta here! C'mon, we gotta go!"
"He'll destroy the whole planet! We can't just leave!" She yelled back at him.
"Then what are we gonna do, huh? Unplug him?" Beast Boy retorted. "C'mon, there's nothing we can do, let's go!"
"There is something we can do, something I can do." Raven said, turning to face him. He didn't have to see her face to know hat she was feeling, it didn't help anyway.
The ground started to shake beneath their feet as Trigon glowed a blinding yellow, his energy building up inside of him. The wind gusted around them, picking up dust and starting a small sandstorm around them.
"My powers can restrain his energy, but he will break through. It will make the blast smaller, but won't stop it." Raven explained, turning away from him as tears fell silently from her violet eyes.
"You-"Beast Boy gasped.
"I will be caught in the blast."
"But why," Beast Boy asked, shuddering as tears fell down his face. "Why does this always happen? Why do I always get everything how I want it, and then, I just destroy all of it! Why!?"
"Beast Boy, you're screaming." Raven said quietly.
"I have every right to scream!" He shouted back at her. "You're not staying here! But you have to! I don't want you to, but you have to! And it's just... not... fair!"
"Life isn't fair." Raven admitted, putting her arm around his shoulder.
"But, then why isn't love fair?" He said, his voice declining to a miserable whisper.
The ground shook even more violently beneath them as Trigon shined even brighter, threatening to blow. The wind became a maelstrom, tossing Raven's hair across her face. Beast Boy gently pushed it behind her ears as he drew his face closer.
As they kissed the stones around them shined black and flew in every direction. Anything that wasn't attached to the ground was picked up and thrown around by Raven's sudden emotions. Rocks, trees, sand, twigs, weapons, everything flew in all directions. And as Beast Boy pulled his lips away, they fell back to the ground, motionless.
Beast Boy gave her one last look. A look that was like a thousand words, it shone in his emerald eyes, his fragile face, his crystal tears, and the look never faded as he turned into an eagle and flew away. Away to the space ship that had taken him there, away from her.
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Beast Boy had been flying through space on autopilot for a few days now, reflecting on his life as he grew closer to home. He thought about the strange things that had happened, about what they had been through together, and now, she was gone.
Just like that, she had slipped away from him, forever.
"She's gone, and she's never coming back." He whispered to himself in realization.
Knight whimpered from the corner, having tagged along. He was really the only thing Beast Boy had left of Raven now, the little ball of fuzz. He could almost feel the air crackle around him, as if it sensed his sadness. But, somehow, it was crackling. The air was full of electrical energy, surging through the hull of the ship. A bright light burned his eyes, and then faded.
Beast Boy's eyes came back to focus to see a large, black void in front of him. It had blue electricity shining around it, surrounding it in power. And a familiar girl stepped out, and collapsed on the floor.
"Raven?" Beast Boy yelled, running over to her. "I can't believe that it's really you! This isn't one of my little fantasies! How did you survive!? How did you get here!?"
"You think I'm a telepath," She answered weakly, putting her arms around him in a hug, "and I don't know how to teleport?"
"Shoulda figured that." He chuckled, squeezing her tightly.
"Trigon's dead. He doesn't control me. I can feel." She said, shedding tears of joy as she looked him in the eye.
"I love you, Rae."
"I love you too."
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Things were quite normal for the Titans after that. Raven could show her emotions, her powers now controlled by thought, thanks to the death of her father. And Beast Boy and all of his friends lived normal lives, well, as normal as the Titans usually are.
So, tonight they were all gathered in the living room, watching a movie. Beast Boy was engrossed in the plot, almost as if he was the star, but soon the action died down to a love scene, and he took in his surroundings.
He would looked over to his friends beside him on the couch, Robin was complaining about the cheap effects, Star was asking strange questions that only she would ask, Cyborg was practically inhaling popcorn, and Raven, she was watching the movie, though, obviously not impressed with the sudden drop of action. She turned to him and gave him a questioning stare.
"What are you looking at?"
And Beast Boy realized that he was finally there. He was in his fantasy world, and he didn't have to wake up.
"You, I'm lookin' at you."
THE END
Well, it's 3:12 Am, time for bed.
I hope you guys liked the fic. Review anytime, I'll still read them.
Peace out!
