Author's Note:- this time, the words in italics are Scully's. None of the songs quoted are mine and have been used without the permission.

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Okay Dana, in the car. Don't think about the fact that Mulder was so repulsed by what you almost told him that he had to go get drunk...okay! Start the car, pull out...God, I have to face him in about fifteen minutes, what if he says something, what if he's told the whole bar and they all know...I shouldn't be doing this, I won't be able to face him...I shouldn't have even thought about telling him. Okay, gotta stop thinking about this Dana, turn on the radio. That'll keep your mind off him and the fact that your friendship, never mind your partnership, is probably ruined...radio, NOW!

I know something about love, you've gotta want it bad.
If that fool's got into your blood, go out and get him.
If you want him to be the very part of you That makes you want to breath, here's the thing to do.
Tell him that you're never gonna leave him,
Tell him that you're always gonna love him,
Tell him, tell him, tell him tell him right now.

Yeah well, I tried to tell him and he didn't want to know. I could almost see the huge sigh of relief he tried to hide when that damn phone rang. Saved by the bell he said...well I guess we both were. This way I didn't actually say the words and he doesn't actually know. I mean God, he practically shoved me out of the door so that I wouldn't tell him and now he's gone and got himself too drunk to get home.

I know something about love, you've gotta show it and
Make him see the moon up above, reach out and get it.
If you want him to make your heart sing out,
And if you want him to only think of you...

Yeah sure. Like Mulder would ever only think of me - he probably has never thought of me that way at all, why would he? ...His drinking has probably got nothing to do with me at all. He was probably just trying to pick up some chick tonight and started drinking because she turned him down - God knows why she would though. He's never going to think of me as anything more than a friend.

Tell him that you're never gonna leave him,

I could never leave him, no matter what he does. Even if he doesn't love me I could never turn my back on him.

Tell him that you're always gonna love him,

Yeah...guess that one's true as well. Damn him because I'm never going to be able to get him out of my mind. Everyone I ever meet will always be compared to him and I know no one will ever measure up. How could they?

Tell him, tell him, tell him, tell him right now.

Alright, alright - enough already. Goddamn radio. Must change the station - that's better.

Why does the sun go on shining?
Why does the sea rush to shore?
Don't they know it's the end of the world,
'cause you don't love me anymore.

He never loved me in the first place but...I guess it's the end of my world. Now I know I'll never have that normal life - for that to happen I would need a husband and I know I'll never marry anyone but Mulder. ...Marry? Where the hell did that come from? I don't want to MARRY Mulder, I just wanted to...do I? Damn It! I do want to marry him and we haven't even kissed...how stupid is that!

Don't they know it's the end of the world?
It ended when I lost your love

"I got it already thank you. You don't need to keep reminding me"

...for God's sake now I'm talking to the radio. See what you've done to me Mulder...who am I kidding, I've done this to myself. How dumb am I falling in love with my partner? Not just my partner though - my best friend. Now that's stupid. ...Okay, just change the radio station again and think about something else.

I'd rather walk on glass than see teardrops in your eyes.
And I'd fall to pieces just to hold you, the best thing in my life.

He is the best thing in my life...I just hope I haven't ruined it. I hope he doesn't know what I was going to say...but then why would he be glad to get rid of me? He's never done that before...well apart from that time when he had to go meet his source and didn't want to tell me.

It's just luck I get to love you, you're the one thing that's right.
You're the light in my hell's darkness.

"God, what the hell is wrong with the radio tonight?!"

I'm doing it again...I'm talking to inanimate objects. Maybe I'm going insane...maybe I can tell Mulder that I wasn't in my right mind earlier; that it was a singular moment of madness... NO. I can't do that...I can't lie to him. Not only because I'd feel bad but he'd see right through me. He always does.

All by myself, don't wanna be All by myself anymore

Aaaggghhh. It's a conspiracy; it's got to be. My God, now I'm starting to think like Mulder...okay, classical station. I can't go wrong with that.

I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life I've only been pretending
Without me,
His world would go on turning
A world that's full of happiness that I have never known.
I love him,
I love him,
I love him but only on my own.

Right that's it. The radio is going off. ...Where the hell is this bar, I should be there by now. Aha, there it is. You had better be able to walk Mulder, because I am definitely not going to be able to carry you and I don't want to have to explain our little 'situation' to anyone if I have to ask for help.