Chapter 3 – Loving From a Distance

He sat there, back pressed against the firm and unyielding wood of the chair that rose up to meet him. His legs were propped up on a nearby wooden table, which was no less worn and used as the chair.

Ankles crossed and lean muscles in his legs and body relaxed he almost seemed contented. As his dark green eyes focused on the simple book that was held in his hands. He looked immersed in its text.

And this was how she found him, lounged in a chair reading, what she couldn't tell. The gesture itself made her heart feel heavy, but also happy to see that he found some kind of solace even if she hadn't.

Her transparent form stepped fully into the room, or what passed for one. Its wall bare and with little more furniture than was required. It was always the bare minimum with him, even when they had been together in that old Victorian Manor, he never took anymore than he needed.

She felt a knot of warmth fill her chest, happy that at least something's hadn't change. Happy that the man before her, though no longer hers in life was still the man she had loved.

Feet moved silently and unseen against the cold wooden floor. She moved away from the wall in which she had arrived through and moved closer towards him to get a better look at him.

He looked healthy enough, well as healthy as he could. His skin was still tanned lightly like she remembered. Her blue eyes swept over his form, and found it to be just as tight and lean as she fondly remembered. The only change of note was the fact that he had allowed his dark hair to grow out.

Honestly it gave him a shaggy look which only helped to make him even more 'shagible' then normal. Not that she could in that sense, but that didn't stop the idea from coming to mind and making her grin despite herself.

As she studied him and let the past pass before her minds eye, she almost failed to notice when his body went rigid and his eyes lifted from his book to where she projected image stood.

Her breath caught in her throat for a moment, and her heart would have probably stop beating if it hadn't already so long ago. She watched him watch yet not see her, it made her dead heart clench in sadness.

Though after a moment she let out a breath she wasn't aware she had been holding and gazed at the man before her with a sad smile. Wishing, praying to whatever god that would listen that she honestly wish he could see her not simply feel her eyes on him.

His face wrinkled slightly as he frowned and his eyes narrowed. In the process his dark green eyes took on swirls of black and seem to swim in his iris. It was a sight enough to unnerve anyone, especially those who didn't know what to expect. She did though...she knew that gaze all too well.

Though he saw nothing before him but an empty space, in the back of his mind there was a distant recognition of what ever it was that was there. It was hard not to come to recognize something that seemed to frequently visit you.

When the visits had initially began he had been nervous and cautious, though rightly so, but after a time that faded into mild indifference. Whatever it was did nothing to him, and didn't seem to want anything of him it was just...there.

Though he hated the thought of his privacy being invaded like so, he found that this...thing gave him a feeling of ease and something he couldn't quite put his finger on.

It was long before he gave up on trying figuring who or what it was and what it wanted. For the time, as long as it did nothing more than it was...which was merely being present it could stay. Company was nice, well its company was pleasant at least, because it unlike others were nagging him or pressing him to move up in rank and complete jobs in a 'timely' fashion.

The look on his face was thoughtful for a moment as he stared in her direction before it faded as did what little interest he might have had as he turned back to his book and dismissed her presence once again.

Lith in turn sighed heavily and stared at the man, before shaking her head, "I swear you'll understand soon...you'll know what we had before..."

Her eyes narrowed slowly, as the softness of her voice was lost and replaced by a low venomous hiss that would have sent a cobra slithering back into his den, "And they will pay for what they did too us...those bastard will scream for the sun before I finish,"

She was a slight tint of madness beneath her hazy blue eyes for a moment as a twisted smile crossed her lips as she turned from the man that was her world and her floating started towards the wall again.

The images of the carnage and torture she would inflict flashed in her mind as she calculate with a deathly intent who would suffer what and for how long and then the best way to end their lives. One thing was certain, none of them would have the mercy of a stake or the sun...oh no the days of mercy had dead the day they tainted their lives.

Lith paused a moment before she reached the wall, all the hatred and sadistically thoughts were suddenly gone and replaced with an equally great grief as she took one last look back at the body of the one person who ever really meant anything too her.

When it is all said and done...when I've finally freed us from this nightmare, will you still love me when the Quistis you loved has faded into the shadow of this bloodthirsty woman known as Lith?

If there was one thing in this world that saddened her to no end, to the point where she almost questioned that she planned to set in motion it was that. Would he love her when he saw what she had become?


Quistis: Geez I've come along while since Dark Knightz..
Lith: Yep, fell for a Assamite got made Prince AGAIN..then got a hit put on your head AGAIN by Mord..
Q: Hey it isnt my fault that guys got a Ankh suck up his ass..
L-nods-: True..but you have to admit you were a bloody sissy...even for a Venture
Q-whines-: hey..
L-shrugs-: Truth hurts...and because of you sissiness I have to keep us alive and find a way to get Abdar back glares at Quistis Give me one good reason why I shouldnt gut you Q?
Quistis-looks around nervously-: Ah...because...that's be like killing yourself! cause were the same person!
L: ....Damn technicalities...

Riiight...anyways while my alterego's argue amongst themselves.. eyes shift

What did you think? Ya like it? Hate it? I'm open for all and anykind of feedback..yes even flamers grinz dont worry I wont bite your heads off regardless of what you send me, BUT SEND ME SOMETHING! please? pouts Its lonely over here..

Q&L: HEY! what about us?
Me: ....what about you?
Q: Meanie..
L: Bitch..
Me: Keep it up and Abdar will STAY gone..
Q&L: whimpers
Me-nods-: Better..

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