The loop they never showed us

Season: Four (window of opportunity)

Spoilers: AU episodes, Solitudes

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Confession of a Guilty Conscience

Trusting him with her heart as she would entrust him with her life while off-world, she let him lead her back to the mountain, although they appeared to walk close together there was a metaphorical distance between them, you could see it in their eyes. The distance would have been literal were it not for the fact that being in close proximity to the other brought a comfort and protection that neither had truly embraced until today. Behind them walked their stoic chaperone, it was as if he was some teacher who had caught them auguring and now insisted they go back into the mountain for a quiet chat to sort out their problems.

Once in the elevator they headed down to sub-level 18 and stepped off, leaving Teal'c still inside.

'I must see Daniel Jackson.' He said as the doors closed.

The teacher was gone; the rest was up to them.

Once inside Jack's quarters they separated; Jack took up residence on the chair near the small table, while Sam sat on the edge of his bed bringing her knees up beneath her chin.

'Jack.' She said with more confidence than she felt. The 'relationship' had only been going for a few hours and yet it felt like they had everything to conquer in those few hours, now here was the confession of a guilty conscience.

'I've got something to tell you Sam. It might take a minute and it will defiantly be a lot to take in, but I need you to listen Sam.'

He paused to draw breath; he then proceeded to explain the situation to Sam; P4X-639, the device and the loops in an emotionless voice.

Once finished he tentatively sat next to her on the bed afraid she would move away, but she did no such thing. He looked to the to the floor waiting apprehensively for her reaction.

'So you're going to remember all this and I'm not?' she asked no hint of emotion in her voice.

He nodded in reply.

'You're one selfish bastard, O'Neill.' Her tone of voice resolved.

'I know I'm sorry, but I wanted to know.'

'Jack,' she said her voice softening, 'how could you not. I love you.' Taking his face gently in her hands, making him look into her soul as he had done to her before.

'I love you too, and I really am sorry it's just...'he paused taking in every feature of the face before him, ' ... your just so beautiful. I wanted...'his hand caressing her cheek as his voice disappeared, he found he could no longer look upon her and suddenly the floor became interesting again.

'I know Jack.' She said enveloping him in a hug. 'I will always be yours, I wish... I wish we could have this.' Burring her face in the crook of his neck, eyes burning with the threat of tears because of the happiness she found and the fact she would soon lose it.

'I know, I wish we had this as well but one day Sam' he said smiling, ' but not now.'

'But this is so perfect.' Almost not wanting to believe that it would have to end.

Jack lay down puling Sam with him so they lay face-to-face centimetres apart.

'Well if we wanted this now, the only way we could do it is if one or both of us left the SGC. We'd be happy, hell I'd be ecstatic but it could be taken away from us at anytime Sam, the next goa'uld attack, when one of those god-damned snake-heads decides to take a shot at us. That's what happened in the other realities and look how their Jack and Sam ended up. We can't let that happen here Sam where it matters, the SGC needs us; SG-1 as it is, together we're the luckiest son's of bitches out there and we need that to keep doing what we do, we need to...to...' he looked wildly round the room as if it would have the answer for him. Sam ever the intelligent one provided it for him.

'We need to protect the world to protect our future.' She said completely understanding him.

A look of utter admiration passed over his face.

'Exactly.' He said smiling a sad smile. Then taking her lips with his own in a loving kiss.

'So' she smiled, 'you've been learning Latin.'

'Yeah, Daniel is such a crap teacher otherwise we'd be back to normal by now.' He grinned from ear to ear.

'I love you' said Sam again.

It just felt so natural now compared with the awkwardness that came with it just an hour or so ago.

'I love you too.'

Inching forward he took her lips again, now kissing her more passionately than ever before.

She giggled slightly as they separated, though only by millimetres.

'The guy's in the security room are getting a hell of a good show.'

'Not like their gonna remember.' He said grinning wildly and kissing her again, with just as much passion as before, his hands now joining in the onslaught on her curves.

'I could get used to this.' He said.

'You better not or we'll never get back to normal.'

'Yeah about that, do you want me to tell... you,' his eyebrows went up and back down, 'about this.'

'Well yes and no.' she looked in deep thought.

'Which is it? Yes?' he said kissing her, ' Or no?' he kissed her again making each option seem equally good.

' I don't know.' She looked confused. As usual when the Carter mind couldn't figure something out Jack, by his simple ways, always came up with an idea.

'Why don't you tell me something only you know then I'll relay it back and leave you work it out.'

She smiled the dazzler she possessed, Jack (thankful he was already lying down) then he kissed her again.

'That is if you can keep your hands off me.' She said noting her own hands where far from innocent in their present endeavour of exploring Jack's body.

'So come on tell me something. You got some wild fantasy you'd like to share.' He said wagging his eyebrows.

'I'm not going to tell you anytime soon.' She grinned, ' You'd probably get too embarrassed trying to tell me about it.'

'That good, huh?'

'Oh yeah. Anyway what about my idea of a perfect date?'

'That'll do, you don't mind if I keep this for future reference do you?' he said getting comfy on his back while she settled her head under his chin, her hand placed lovingly over his heart.

'Not at all.' She smiled. 'It would be us Jack, just us. It would start in the middle of the afternoon, we'd go to some little secluded spot that looks over the springs, then sitting on the tail of your truck we'd eat some donuts, a very typical you food, and drink coffee, then as a surprise you'd pull out some jell-o, blue of course and we'd wait 'til the sun went down. Lying back we'd watch the stars appear one by one and you'd point out the constellations for me, I've never really learnt them and I don't want to unless you teach me.'

'Sounds, amazing Sam. You think it'll work?'

'Yeah, I think I'll be intrigued if not a little confused.'

'Confusing you sounds like fun.' He said as he began to slip his fingers expertly beneath her t- shirt playfully tickling her stomach.

'Jack!' she exclaimed trying to roll away from him, but instead ending up on the floor with Jack landing ungracefully on top of her. He could feel her shaking beneath him. Lifting his upper body he looked down on her to see she was having a hysterical giggling fit, much to his relief.

'No giggling major.' This caused her to laugh out loud.

Leaning forward he whispered in her ear, 'It's my side arm, I swear.' He grinned, knowing that it was those exact words which had started the 'no giggling' catchphrase.

Kissing her deeply the giggling soon stopped, tugging playfully at each others clothes they both knew it would never go any further but it was fun to pretend.

After a while and much rolling about the floor, the squeaking of the camera moving in the corner could be heard. Someone was watching them. At this they fell off each other and laughed out loud, doubling over with it.

'Yeah one hell of a show.' Said Jack.

Standing he held out his hand to Sam still on the floor, ' Come on let's go and see Daniel or something.'

Bare-foot and jacket-less they headed down to Daniels's office. Sam giggling and

Jack with a permanent grin, the practically ran down the hall hand in hand.

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