Disclaimer: Blah, Blah Blah, the usual, I don't own anything that isn't mine, for the whole spiel look at the very first disclaimer, that one goes on, as I am a rambler.
Quick Note: Sorry, to those who said it was a shame that I killed Marissa, I know shes one of of my fave characters too, but I couldn't bring my self to kill Seth or Summer, and I really didn't want to go into all the depression that would have followed if I killed Ryan, so she was the obvious choice. But don't worry, there will be flashbacks, with her. And I am looking forward to kind of bringing back her character in Charli, but I'm not sure yet if I want to do that.
Ok, does anyone know the eye colours of the characters. I am not sure, for this chapter or until I find out, I am saying that Marissa's eyes are brown and Ryan's are blue.
Also this is kinda like self-promotion but can you please read my other story that I posted recently, Plastic Knives, I just don't know if it is good, but can someone read and tell me what they think, cuz so far only two people have reviewed so I am not sure whether it is good or not.
!?!?!?!?!JUST HAD MY B-DAY!?!?!?!?!
(it was on Friday)
Here we go
Chapter Two
Memories
He couldn't get the memories of her out of his head.
Her big innocent looking eyes, her silky hair, her smooth skin, her flat belly, her voice, all the thing she had said to him over the last 17 years, their wedding and most of all those last few minutes he had had with her. He loved her, he truly loved her, and she had been one of the first people he ever trusted. And she had been the only one to try to prove that she wouldn't give up on him.
It was really hard and he felt guilty, the one person he loved more than anything in the world had gone and he couldn't even look at his daughter, he felt guilty because it hurt him to look at her. She just reminded Ryan of Marissa to much.
He slowly lay his tired and worn out body down on the familiar bed, hoping that maybe, just maybe sleep could take over his body and the images would go away.
He closed his eyes and slept for what seemed the first time in days. It had been a whole 2 and a half hours before he had started dreaming about her again. At least that was an improvement.
He knew from previous experience that he wouldn't be able to go to sleep again so he grudgingly stood up and walked out of the pool house into the main house and the kitchen.
"Couldn't Sleep?' Kirsten asked him as he walked in.
"Huh, I mean yeah" She had shocked him, he wasn't expecting anyone.
"Sorry, I didn't think any one else was up"
"yeah, well you know my father, the slave driver, no emotions, you would think... but no" Kirsten replied starting to look fed up.
"Yeah" replied Ryan, somewhat distantly.
"Honey, its going to be Ok" Kirsten said sypathenticly as she came over to hug him.
"Oh, Kirsten was always a big hugger" Sandy announced as he walked in on the scene.
"You really know how to ruin a moment don't you?" Kirsten pulled out of her 'moment'.
"What can I say, it's a Cohen family trait" Sandy said shrugging his shoulders as he walked over to the coffee pot.
"Whatever, I'm going to go to bed" Kirsten muttered and padded away in her slippers.
"Ryan" Sandy asked noticing Ryan's half there look.
"You miss her don't you" He said leaning back against the opposite counter,
"Yeah"
"Again with the one word answers, I though you were out of that"
"I guess it was her"
"Yeah I guess it was. Look Ryan, you've got three really great kids and they really need you right now, especially Charli. I know she must be the hardest to face but she needs you."
"Yeah, I know" Ryan looked at his feet.
"Look I know you miss her, but you gotta pull yourself together, for them and for you." Sandy sighed putting his arm around Ryan's shoulders.
"I know, I just wish I didn't have to happen to me, to us" He stammered.
"I know, its just one of the hardships in life. Now lets have some of that fresh coffee."
"It's a not that fresh"
"Well lets have a some not so fresh coffee" Sandy declared.
"Ok" Ryan smiled slightly.
"Well look at that, I got a smile. Kirsten I got a smile" He yelled out into the dark house"
"I definitely see Seth in you, I mean you in Seth"
"I thought you would have learnt that many years ago" Sandy says as he grabs a mug of the not so fresh coffee and walks to the table. He looked over at his 'son'. He knew that the young, troubled man standing there and a long road of recovery in front of him and he planned to be there every step of the way.
E/N: So whaddya think. Loved it, hated it? Tell me what you like, what you don't, I'm a big girl, I can take it. In fact I'm a whole year older than I was last time I posted. Sorry its so short, I have a lot of work due this week but I want to post at least once a week.
Holidays in 4 days!!!!! YAY!!!!!! And for all you jews out there, hope you have a sweet new year, and fast well.
Once again Ally and Em if you are reading this email me.
I also need some ideas, so if you have any email me at:
welcometotheoc17 (this one is at gmail )
welcometotheoc (this one is at hotmail) Both are dot com
I want ideas for this story and I maybe someone can give me an idea that doesn't involve killing a character.
OMG as I was writing this chapter I was watching The Proposal, god Ryan and Marissa are candy cute, makes me want to vomit sometimes, they are too sweet.
Anyways I'll post again soon and I look forward to your reviews (hint, hint nudge, nudge)
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Lots of Love
Beckie
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