Chapter 17: Realization
Author's Note: I'm so sorry for the late update. I've been working on another story (not a FanFic) and been on vacation. Not to mention I haven't really known what to write for this one. Well, enjoy this chapter! I'll have the next one soon, I promise!
Disclaimer: I don't own Hamtaro or the Ham-Hams.
The rest of the day was full of fun and laughs. While playing croquet, the Ham-Hams would bring up some humorous situations they had been in when they were little and how stupid they acted compared to now.
Bijou went home in a very good mood after that wonderful afternoon. She let out a yawn. Believe it or not, spending a couple hours playing a simple game like croquet was exhausting. She frowned a bit, looking over at her cage. Maria had forgotten to feed her again.
It was no problem really; seeing she was hardly ever fed by her owner. Her owner was very forgetful...at least she was now, with her boyfriend always hanging around. Nothing seems to matter when you're in love...
The white hamster layed down, looking out the bedroom window once again. A single star was visible, as she closed her eyes and recited a poem that went with it.
"Starlight, star bright; First star I see tonight; I wish I may, I wish I might; Have the wish I wish tonight...." She said, barely above a whisper. She silently made a single wish to herself, before she went to bed. She fell asleep with no debate; only to find her dream was another flashback of the past.
Life was good. Life was great. The young white hamster happily spun around, humming a cheerful tune to herself. Nothing in the world seemed to matter; nothing in the world would bring her down.
She looked between her many ribbons, trying to figure out which two to wear. Which ones would Hamtaro notice most?
She giggled to herself, drawing two glittering red ones from the pile. Red was a color of love; romance. A red rose meant true love...
She let out a dreamy sigh. But wasn't what she and Hamtaro had that? In her point of view, their relationship was going to last forever; nothing would bring them apart. They were an inseparable duo. Everyone in the Clubhouse had clearly made that observation. They were worse then Sandy and Maxwell. No matter what they did; no matter what they'd say they'd always end up talking (or thinking) about each other. They'd hold hands, giggle and blush; just like every other couple would do.
They'd have picnics; sit under the stars; laugh a little more; give each other a little peck on the cheek. They'd cuddle; hug; kiss; everything known to the world of love. Well, almost everything. There were some things they hadn't done. Things they weren't exactly comfortable with.
They would wait to do one thing in particular...unlike the other Ham-Ham couple in the Clubhouse. They had both decided from day 1 of their relationship to wait until they got married to do anything more then kiss. But was there any doubt they wouldn't get married?
None at all, in Bijou's point of view. She was so happy; it was as if everything bad was shaded out of her life. Her life was full of eternal sunshine...never to be blocked with clouds or rain. Life was perfect. Everything was right. Nothing could go wrong.
And nothing would. The white hamster waited patiently at the door of her cage. Hamtaro would be here soon. He always came to pick her up in the mornings.
And she always eagerly awaited his arrival. She thought and dreamed about it. Every new day was more romantic then the last...she sighed. How could things work out so perfectly?
There was a soft knock at her cage door. "Hamtaro!?" she greeting the orange and white hamster with a big smile.
"I got here as fast as I could, Bijou!" Hamtaro smiled a bit, offering her a bouquet of roses. "I like your red ribbons. They look really pretty on you."
Bijou blushed a bit. "You look rather handsome yourself," she said, with a mischievous smirk, as she opened her cage door and the two departed.
Where were they going today? Only time would tell. They'd go anywhere, as long as it was together. It didn't really matter at all to them what the others thought. No, not when they were in love.
"Oh Hamtaro," she said, resting her head peacefully on his shoulders. "Isn't everything so perfect?"
The orange and white hamster smiled. "I couldn't have asked for a more perfect day. I'm here with the most beautiful hamster in the world and the sun is shining! There's not a cloud in the sky, Bijou..."
"And it's like there's no worries in our lives..." the white hamster smiled a bit more. She playfully tackled Hamtaro, as they layed flat on top of a hill. She giggled a bit and started tickling him. "I know you're ticklish Hamtaro," she said, smiling a bit more.
He laughed. "Stop it Bijou," he said, playfully as well. "You know how much I can't stand being tickled."
The white hamster tickled him for a minute more and then stopped, becoming a bit serious. "Hamtaro," she said, with a slight frown. "Do you think we'll be together forever?"
"Of course Bijou..." He wrapped his arms around her. "As long as there's a sun in the sky we'll stay by each other's side..."
Bijou never forgot those words. They always haunted her mind. The sun never shined as brightly since the duo broke up; there were always clouds in the sky to block it.
But the white hamster would never let herself believe that that occurred because they broke up. No, not at all. Love defiantly did not control the weather. The weatherman did that...
Bijou sat up in her cage; looking around. The sun hadn't even risen yet. The stars twinkled in the night sky.
But she didn't want to go back to sleep. She didn't want to have another one of those dreams; another one of those horrible flashbacks. Love was a complete lie. Love was not eternal. No, it was not at all.
It was only something to draw you away from reality. It was only something to make you hurt in the end. It was only a distraction; there was no such thing as 'true love'.
And what she and Hamtaro had defiantly wasn't it.
Deep down, she really didn't care to patch things up with the orange and white hamster. Deep down, she was actually still mad at him. The heartbreak; the upset...she had never truly forgave him for what he did.
He gave her one of life's most precious gifts...and then just taken it away!
It was a crime. It was wrong. She had no intention of ever getting back together with that back-stabber. He, unlike anyone else, had hurt her in the one place that hurt the most. He had broken her heart; he had shattered her dreams. Just when she thought she had finally figured things out; just when she thought she knew the meaning to life everything was proven wrong!
Facts were proven fiction; the truth turned into a big lie. Life could seem so pointless to her at times...but it wasn't.
Through it all, she had kept herself together; she had kept a smile. Things would get better...she knew they would...and they were. Friendships were coming back together; happiness was being found...
Or was it?
What was happiness? Bijou now had no idea what true happiness was. Was it that warm, careless feeling she had felt when she was madly in love? Or was it something else? What was a true friend? What was the truth?
She had no clue. She had no clue at all. She was helpless; she was scared. She didn't want to love again; she didn't want to forgive. She wanted to forget. She wanted to run away from all her problems. She wanted a fresh start. She wanted something new. She didn't want to face her fears; she wanted to forget they even existed.
She sighed to herself. But she couldn't do that. She had to be better than that; she had to be stronger. Thoughts crossed through her mind that she thought she would never think of.
She wouldn't give up...she'd hold on. She promised she would! And a friend never broke their promise. She'd never break her promise to herself!
Time flew by and soon morning came. With new motivation, the white hamster hopped out of her cage, and rushed off to the one place she dreaded most: Hamtaro's house.
Final Notes: Well, another chapter. It's pretty simular to the others though. More flashbacks, more thoughts, more delays. But as for you Hamtaro/Bijou fans, I'm sure you enjoyed the flashback/dream part of this chapter. I promise next chapter Bijou WILL talk to Hamtaro. She won't back away! As for now, you'll just have to wait. Thanks for reading this chapter and sorry if there are any grammer or spelling mistakes. I read it over once and it looked pretty good to me...but looks can decieve....
