Someone posted a review suggesting that I explain how Riku went from trying to kill Ansem to kissing him, so I decided that Riku would explain it better himself.

Disclaimer: The two belong to Squaresoft and each other

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So get this, right?

Boy likes best friend, best friend likes new girl. Crazy stuff happens, all get split apart and boy gives self to Darkness to help best friend and new girl. Dark Lord uses boy to do evil work, boy stays because he wants to help beloved best friend, who likes new girl.

Best friend defeats Dark Lord, boy feels extremely stupid in having only managed to make things worse, so decides to lock himself on the other side of the freakin door. Boy becomes blind, runs, finds Dark Lord and finally realizes something so blatantly obvious that boy is still feeling stupid to this moment.

That he loved him all along.

And bam. Boy wakes up, snuggled in Dark Lord's coat, sleeping in his arms.

If you haven't figured it out yet, that moronic boy is me, Riku, presently locked inside Kingdom Hearts. And you know what? I don't actually care one bit.

Ok, so it seems strange that one moment I want to knock this guy's lights out (and did try by the way) and the next I go to kiss him, but then again it really wasn't a spur of the moment thing. Like I said, I've loved him all along.

I'd always stupidly thought that all I wanted was to protect Sora because he is just a child, but realistically, I am the child and the one needing protection. I've always been a stubborn jerk, and I kept convincing myself 'If I can just protect Sora that'll be enough.' But it wasn't. I knew it wasn't but I made myself believe that anyway. Stupid, aren't I?

I go give myself to the Darkness, thinking that if I became powerful enough, I could help Sora and maybe win his affections. Only now do I realize that I had it all along, just not in the way I demanded. He did love, as a best friend, as a brother even but I refused to accept this just as I refused to accept the fact that he loved Kairi.

I don't blame Kairi of course. I mean, she fell for Sora straightaway, and if you knew Sora you'd probably fall for him too. Naïve and bouncy, always grinning that goofy grin of his, and caring so much about you that you'd feel embarrassed. No, it wasn't Kairi's fault Sora didn't love me. It's mine.

I wanted him so much that I ended up pushing him away. My whole life is one big irony. I mean, come on, I'm in love with the guy that tried to kill Sora.

Ansem. Ah yes. When I first came to him, I really didn't notice anything about him other than 'Oh. He's some powerful guy that can help me be powerful too as long as I help him.' But he's so much more than that 'some guy' I pictured him as. He has this certain charisma that sweeps you off your feet, and he certainly swept me off my feet. I just hit the floor so hard I didn't notice until I woke up.

And let me tell you, waking up being held has got to be the best feeling in the world. I felt like grinning a massive Sora grin. I felt all giddy and naïve inside. There must've been so much 'light' in my heart that the Heartless millions of kilometres away wouldn't have wanted to come near us.

No I did not have sex with Ansem. Sure I like the guy but gimme a break here.

After I kissed him, we sort of just wandered aimlessly around (everything looks the same. Seriously I felt like we were walking on some treadmill with a moving repetitive background), holding hands like some cheesy high-school couple with me trying so hard to burst into a goofy smile. We wandered around for hours getting absolutely nowhere until I was so exhausted I felt like collapsing. I sort of did, cuz when he paused to try to make sense of this psychotic place, I leaned against him and fell asleep. Heh. Just like that. Next thing I know I'm waking up covered in his coat, wrapped in his arms. Grinning like an idiot.

But what about Sora? I hear you ask. Well, I love him. I always will but I've moved on. I don't want to waste away pining for his love when I've already got it. And he's happy with Kairi, meaning his back to grinning that goofy grin of his. (That's a good thing.)

Reality slapped me real hard in the face. One moment I was some stubborn jerk forcing myself to believe in a lie, next I realized that

Sora is never going to be my boyfriend

Sora loved me all along, just not in the way I want

No one needs me to protect them, and I suck at protecting anyway

I'd been so focused on Sora that I didn't realize that someone had been wanting my love just like I had wanted Sora's

I love Ansem

So here I am, walking aimlessly around once again and suppressing the massive urge to throw my arms around him and kiss him. And damn that urge is hard to suppress.

Ansem stops walking and pauses to look around him again. He looks at me and gives a little smile. Ok there goes my weak hold on self-control as I throw my arms around him and kiss him.

I can safely say that if I died right this very second I wouldn't give a damn, because I've got everything I need right here in this charming man (who's a very good kisser by the way), the very same guy who was once my best friend's enemy and now my lover.

Ironic, isn't it?

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Hope that explains it a little bit better! ;

I really love this pairing and will remain probably the only writer of Ansem/Riku romance fics but who cares! XD

R&R please!