^^'Yes....I am still alive people. Just thought this afternoon I would sit down for two hours and ACTUALLY WRITE chapter 14...... Also *points behind her where Sesshoumaru has his whip drawn* ^^' yeah..Mr Fluffy'ims tells me that I have spent tooo much time stalling. SO here is that longer chapter........and I want to thank everyone who reviews..I got pass 50 which I thought would NEVER happen. Hope you people enjoy....^^'


Disclaimer: See past chapters......


Last chapter: Lovely snake demon came and frighten the girls....is that Sesshoumaru who saved them? ^^"

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Sesshoumaru silently made his way to his castle, night placing itself in place of day as he did so. Soon he would be able to see them both, the only ones he felt something for..if it was something he felt. He didn't know what was right anymore. After his true nature broke out, making him almost do something horrible to Milika, he was hesitant of seeing them again. Did they want to see him again? After seeing the terror in Milika's eyes...she would never forgive him.


Then again......could she?


"If I am to remain this way, every time I feel something for either Milika and Rin, having almost no control over desire and want...they can't be near me any longer. This Sesshoumaru, will not be overcome by these emotions...I shall have no emotions, toward either of them. Like I ever had shown anything."


This would be goodbye, this is the last night he would see them here, the next morning, he would dispose of them somewhere else.


"No," he thought, " they have to leave NOW, I cannot let them be a nuisance here any longer."


Instead of his usually nightly watch from the perch of the outside of Rin and Milika's sleeping quarters, he made his way through the front doors of the castle. He rid his face of any feeling to make sure they would leave.


He waited for them to come greet him, to be overjoyed to see him, he wanted to see them before they left, but he reminded himself, he must be emotionless, to get the point straight across. Again, nothing came to greet him.


"Sesshouamaru-sama!!!!" A little toad answered. Excited his master had returned, and even more happy to tell what absence there was at the castle now. "Master Sesshoumaru, they left. The humans left!!! You not have to worry about them any longer." Jaken slightly grinned at the remark he had just made to his master.



Sesshoumaru turned around and face toward the doors he just came through. "Where are they now, Jaken?" The foolish girls had left without saying a word to him.


"I do not know Sesshoumaru-sama, they took off early in the morning and took Ah-Un. Good riddance I say." Jaken thanked the gods it would just be he and his master once more.


It became deathly silent after that, neither Jaken or Sesshoumaru spoke. Sesshoumaru finally broke through, " I am leaving again Jaken, I have some affairs to attend to." With that, the great demon lord made his way out through the doors. He had to find them, before they could find themselves some danger like they always like to do.

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Rin watched as her hero before her, stood in between Milika and herself and the snake. Rin almost was overcame by happiness. He was here! Her Sesshoumaru was here! Rin jumped down from Milika's hold and hugged her savior from behind.


Milika could barely make out his silver hair and the dark, but she knew it had to be he. Saving her and Rin, like he always would. She watched as Rin hugged him tight and Milika couldn't hold in her excitement any longer.


"Sessshoumaru !", she cried and flung herself as Rin did to his back. Milika began to though, notice something quite different about him. He was wearing red, and he wasn't quite as tall as usual.


Inuyasha was quite surprised one the two girls he was trying to save from this, snake of a demon flung themselves to him. "What in the..." He turn to face the two girls that attached themselves to him. "Why in the seven hells did you call me Sesshoumaru?"


Milika looked at Inuyasha in surprise. "You ...you aren't him" Her voice had a tint of sadness to it. Then quickly realized she had her arms wrapped around a half-demon that tried to kill her before. That is when she screamed, " Leave us ALONE!" She grabbed Rin and made a dash to away from the snake demon and Inuyasha.


"Hey ! Wait a sec..you aren't suppose to !" Inuyasha was cut off when the snake demon made a lunge for the two girls. He brought down his mighty Tetsuigia upon the creature's skull , making a diversion so the girls would not be harmed.



Milika was trying to keep Rin in her grasp as she sprinted into the forest once again. "Why? Why couldn't have Sesshoumaru save us? Not him." A friendly grunt was heard up ahead. Rin smiled wide and shouted, " Look Milika! It is Ah-un, he is okay!" Milika looked and saw the two headed dragon ahead of them, but he wasn't alone. Next to him stood a girl dressed in battle armor with a huge cat looking thing next to her. On the other side of the cat stood a young monk.


Milika then recognized another member of the party, with a little fox looking thing perched on her shoulder. She couldn't believe it! It was Kagome! Thank goodness for a friendly face! "Kagome!!!!!" Milika ran towards her in amazement.


Kagome was shocked to see Milika running towards her, all well, her clothes were a little wet and with a very happy Rin in her arms. " Milika! You are okay!" Inuyasha came running back behind them , looking a little disheveled after making a little snake demon parfait. " Now, I have one question for you girl...."


Milika looked back at Inuyasha, her eyes narrowed at the sight of him. "I still don't like him, he saved our lives, okay. BUT..he hurt Sesshoumaru. That cannot be forgiven."

"What do you want ?" Milika sounded a little ticked off.


Inuyasha glared at the girl in front of his sight, her curly hair still wet , clinging to her shoulders, and she was wearing a outfit he could of sworn once use to be one of Sesshoumaru's shirts. "Why did YOU think I was SESSHOUMARU!?!"


Rin blurted out in an honest answer, "You hair, it silverishy color like Sesshoumaru-sama's."

Milika added at the end, " Well, now I can clearly see you are nothing like him now."


Inuyasha's temper began to rise form the backtalk this girl was giving him. "What do you mean be that?!??!?!"


Kagome shouted at Inuyasha " Just leave her be, Inuyasha! She has had a rough day! Can't you see that?!"


Miroku sighed and looked at Sango. " This is going to be a long night. Sango can you please hitch up this , dragon. " He then directed his attention to Shippou. " And Shippou, you can get the firewood." Shippou looked at Miroku , " What are you going to do ?"


Miroku smiled slightly. " I am needed of conversing with this, Lady Milika."


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Milika, Rin, Sango and Kagome all intently stared into the fire as the talked of all that had happen with Milika and Rin.


Kagome looked into the fire and smiled, " You know Milika, if I didn't know any better I think you have a thing for Sessshoumaru."


Milika jerked out of her own thoughts and pondered. "Should I tell them the other stuff. I told them the whole truth, except for all the things that happened between Sesshoumaru and me."


Sango with Kirara in her lap then said also, " You know, maybe Sesshoumaru is just as confused as some of us are. He seems almost as human as us."


Milika rested her head on her knees. She wanted to believe so much so. That Sesshoumaru was no different than Rin and herself. Sometimes it seems that way, but other times, when he was fighting, or when that other darker side of him came out of him, he was so unlike them.


She then remembered, she didn't care if he was a youkai or not! She loved him for who he was, not what he was. Wait, ......loved?


" Yes I do.." She said softly to herself. Sango and Kagome looked at her in surprised. " What do you mean?" Milika smiled at them both , slightly with tears in her eyes. She quickly lifted her sleeve to wipe them and said, "Care about him." She smiled at Rin and said, " He is like family to me, like Rin is. We all together, we are one big family."


Kagome looked a bit shocked and said slowly, " Milika, do you, love him?" Milika looked down at her bare feet and wiggled her toes slightly, trying all to avoid answering this question. "Yes. I love him. Even though he....he .." Milika couldn't finish telling about how Sesshoumaru, how he changed, and how it scared her so.


Inuyasha, Miroku and Shippou had just walked back from keeping watch, hearing all of Milika's confessions of the heart. Miroku rubbed his slightly red face and smirked, " No wonder she refused my question." Inuyasha clenched his fists and shouted, " You have been brainwashed! No one could love a killing machine like him! He can't even love! He doesn't love you back! You just satisfy his wants! "


Milika's face cringe and she began to feel great anger and sadness at the same time. " No, he does care for me and Rin. He doesn't just want me for his sick pleasures does he? Is Inuyasha right?"Milika felt the tears freely fall from her saddened eyes. She stared hard at Inuyasha and screamed " I DON'T CARE IF YOU ARE RIGHT, I LOVE HIM THAT IS ALL THAT MATTERS!!!" Her voice echoed throughout the great forest and everyone looked at her in surprised. Rin looked as shocked as well. Milika was really angry and sad at the same time.


Milika stood up and said softly, " I need to go think about this. I think ...you might be right Inuyasha." She quickly ran to a nearby stream and follow it for a while.


Kagome started to get up and go after her , but Inuyasha raised a hand, " Let her go Kagome. She needs to think. And there isn't any creatures that can do her harm. Just let her be." Kagome looked up into Inuyasha eyes, they seemed to be serious. Rin watched quietly from the fire as Milika ran away. "My family, is all leaving me now. Rin will not let that happen to her again!" She slowly got up and ran after Milika. No one tried to even stop her. Except for Ah-un who followed her of course.


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Sesshoumaru was walking the dark forest, night surrounded him completely. He had been following the scents of Milika and Rin for awhile now. Still he didn't find them yet. He stopped by a small stream pausing to see if any scent was carried by it. Instead, he heard a screamed voice of a girl, " ....I LOVE HIM THAT IS ALL THAT MATTERS". It was a distance away, but his sensitive ears picked it up as clear as day.



Milika knelt by the stream and cupped her hands into the cool cold water and splashed it over her face, letting the water and tears intermingle together. She looked at her reflection in the stream, her eyes red from crying so hard. The last time she cried this hard was when she first cried in front of Sesshoumaru.


"Sesshoumaru..." She sighed softly. " Why did you leave us? Me and Rin? Why did you leave me?" A figure appeared behind her , calm and cool voice came with it, " I wanted to ."


Milika turned her head quickly and Sesshoumaru looked back at her emotionless as ever. She slowly got up, walked slowly toward him, her bare feet making the leaves crushed below. She came to a stop right in front of him. She looked up with pained eyes and asked, " You wanted to?"


Sesshoumaru looked down at her, no emotion painted on his face, he couldn't let anything show through. He had to be straight forward with her. " Yes. I wanted to. I wanted to be left alone. I didn't want you two bothering me anymore. So I left."


Milika felt the tears come again. Sesshoumaru said sternly at her , " Stop that. There is no need to cry." As he said this, the words she screamed echoed through his mind. " I LOVE HIM...THAT IS ALL THAT MATTERS!"


Milika sniffed back the tears and looked him straight into his eyes. Sesshoumaru was surprised to find such strong emotion she had for him in her eyes. Those blue eyes which held so much for him.


Sesshoumaru sighed inwardly and looked at Milika, " You need to go home, back to where you suppose to go. Rin can go with you. You are quite like a mother to her." Milika stared at him and whispered slightly, " ..but you are like a father to her...she would miss you."


Milika then collected herself. She needed to show Sesshoumaru how strong she was, maybe if she did that, he wouldn't leave her and Rin. " I guess this is goodbye then." She looked at the ground and back up towards him. She held out her hand to him. " Well goodbye." She waited for him to shake her hand back but it never came.


Milika looked at Sesshoumaru with questionable eyes. He looked back at her and said stately, " I know what you want to do, and you certainly aren't wanting to shake my hand." Milika was taken aback. Did he see how badly she wanted to kiss him right now? Just to feel her lips against his one last time.


Milika sadly shook her head and said, " You are right....I ...wanted to." She leaned up her head to his, and softly put her lips upon his. She just stood there, not wanting them to say goodby forever, trying to make this moment last.


Then a clawed hand drew her in closer to him. Milika wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him closer also. As Sesshoumaru rubbed his lips against her's in response. He broke the kiss for a moment looking into her eyes, softly he gazed into them. He whispered into her ear, " I am sorry..I couldn't help it." Slowly he kissed the rim of her ear, making Milika shiver. All she could do was to cling closer to him, not wanting to let him go, afraid if she might let go , he would leave her again.

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