A/N: Yay an update from our favorite author...ME! this chapter is short but full of happenings, so many happenings, so many sad happenings. I cried as I wrote it and I've read it six times since then and I cried each time, don't worry I'll make it up to our dear sweet Kyou. And this is still not a Yukiru fic I promise.

I have some news that you'll all enjoy, first Monday, August 2nd is my birthday! I'll be 19 then wohoo! But I unfortunately have jury duty that same day, what a bummer the first time I get jury duty and it's on my birthday, so I'll be expecting e-cards from all of you for my birthday or "congrats on your jury duty" Cards.

Shouts of joy I have surpassed myself I have 80 reviews so far and my other fic's only got 71! (Edited 08/07/05)


Tohru walked slowly, she didn't have to hurry, she had an hour before Yuki would be leaving the house to get her. She thought about the letters, and Yuki. /Maybe he had Momiji bring it to me. Why else would Momiji have come in without saying a word? I've been friends with Yuki for so long now, I've never noticed his feelings before, but now I can see it sometimes when he looks at me. I don't want to be more than friends with Yuki, but when I read his letters, he's bolder and his words are so beautiful./ "Yuki...may be my first love!" She realized. Unfortunately this was before she realized that Yuki was coming up the path towards her. She blushed.

Yuki turned crimson, the words he'd always wanted her to say, could she really have said them. "Uh...um...ah what did you say, M-miss Honda?" he stammered.

"I...uh...I s-said" /Just tell him Tohru, he needs to know how you feel before he can tell you how he feels. I wish I wasn't the one who had to say it though./ "I said you might be m-my first love." She whispered the last word, blushing, and staring at her feet.

"Miss Honda..." Yuki intoned softly "That's wonderful!" He smiled genuinely, his heart bursting. "I've been waiting for you to say that for so long"

"I know how you feel, I've felt it for so long it seems." Her heart beat faster as she realized what she had said, and that he had accepted it. They started to walk again.

"Miss Honda, may I hold your hand?" Yuki asked, slowly gaining confidence.

"Sure!" She blushed, presenting her hand to him.

He grabbed onto it, not tightly, but he made it clear that he never wanted to let go. They walked slowly, in silence a bit longer. "Should we go on a date now?" He asked.

"Hmm...I suppose that is what we're supposed to do." Tohru said, still awkwardly aware of his hand in hers. They walked silently for another short while.

Yuki stopped and turned to face her. "Miss Honda, will you go to dinner with me?" He asked holding her hand in both of his.

/His hands, are the ones that wrote the notes. When I look at him I feel nothing. How can I fall in love with the notes, and not the man that wrote them? His hands.../ Tohru closed her eyes and concentrated on the hands enveloping her own, an unseen tear formed at the corner of her eye as she recalled the beautiful words they'd written "Okay. I-I'd love to." so said just above a whisper, and smiled lightly.
He smiled back at her and kissed her delicate hand. They had stopped a little ways from the house, had they looked up they would have noticed Kyou. He had heard the whole thing. He sighed to himself /I should have told her when I had the chance, should have just said what I needed to say./ He wiped at the moisture forming at the edge of his eye. /I'll let her alone now, if she wants to be with him then I don't want to burden her with having to chose./(She might not chose me.)/ He soon found himself covered in cats. "I don't care if it's out of character, for the first time in my life I'm not angry," He said picking up a small gray cat, "I'm just really...really...sad." He hugged the cat close to him, wiping his tears into the cats warm coat.


A/N: I have so many wonderful new reviewers but where did my old ones go? Don't you guys love me any more? B-chan 77 still loves me now I have new ones like AnimeFreakVee52 Waves fervently Thanx for reviewing! have we seen each other somewhere before? Kitsunedemon that's a cute name :) riceball I see you everywhere you should get an account. the invisible fan - I see you. everyone else must have fallen ill or lost computer privileges I'd hate to think they just don't like the story...or me. :( please review it'll make the starving children in china happy.