Finally! I think this chapters gonna be the last...hope you like it!


The sound of a howl from outside woke Lily up in a start. She blinked a few times and the Girl's dormitory came into a groggy focus. It was still dark outside, and as she glanced at her watch, only 4:03. Mentaly cursing herself for being a light sleeper, she stretched, knowing she wouldn't fall back asleep. Lily looked over at Ruth's bed, and of course, she was asleep, but something suddently jogged her memory. She gave a gasp and realized she had forgotten it was Christmas!

Laughing, she peered over the foot of her bed and saw a heep of wrapped presents sitting there. She lept off her bed, and knelt down on the cold wooden ground, feeling like a little girl again. Reaching out, she grabbed the nearest present, with a metallic green bow, and looked at the label (it was from her grand-mum). She wasn't going to open any presents until Ruth woke up, they always opened them together.

Lily then looked over at her best friends bed, and thought of the promise they had made eachother the night before, the first to wake up was to wake up the other. But Lily knew that if she woke Ruth up this early, she would not be in a very peachy mood. A mental battle began in Lily's head, and finally she decided not to wake up Ruth until it was at least 7:00.

So Lily began to sort through her presents, looking at the cards and trying to guess what they were. When she got to the bottom of the pile she smiled, and picked up a single red rose and a note that lay on top of it. Puzzled, she read the message;

Evans-

I hope you like the rose, I enchanted it to shimmer and change colors. (Lily looked down and saw that she was now holding a bright purple rose)I'll be down in the common room around 9:00 waiting if you want to join me for breakfast. See you soon

Your's truly,

James

When Lily glanced at the name scrawled at the bottom, she threw the letter aside with the rose in disgust. What would make him think that she would even want to be near him? Doesn't he ever give up, she obiously hates him. She snorted, and pushed the rose and card under the bed, not wanting to look at it. She was going to have a good Christmas, nothing was going to ruin it.

Lily sighed and picked up the last present. It was badly wrapped in brown paper, a bit of the gift was sticking out, and the edges were torn. She picked up the card and read,

Please just look at it. Merry Christmas,

-Sirius

She squinted suspiciously at the brown package over the note. Sirius would defenetly find it funny to send her a cursed item, and he had never sent her a gift before, but curiosity had got the better of her. Forgetting her and Ruth's tradition, she ripped off the paper.

Underneath was a black book with silver lining around the edges. The cover was blank, and so was the back. Cautiously, knowing what her dad would say if he knew she was opening an unknown magical book, Lily flipped open the cover. To her surprise she found little pictures of snitches all over the first page, and as she leaned closer she realized with a shock that her initials were inside the sniches.

Intrigued, Lily turned the page and saw a diary entry, labeled January 25.

Dear Diary,

Mum sent this for Christmas, reckons its good for me to write stuff down, and I promised her I would use it. If Sirius saw this, he would laugh, so I hid it under my bed, underneath my invisibility cloak. Hopefully nobody will find it.

I'm at my fifth year at Hogwarts, and nothings really changed since last year, cept we have to take OWLS. Me, Padfoot, Moony, and Wormtail are taking our monthly visits around the school grounds, which are always fun, though probably not for Moony. Snivillius is still a slimy git, and Lily still won't go out with me. I really don't know why, I've never done anything to hurt her, but it seems like she hates me. Sirius keeps on telling me to let it go, but I can't. I don't know why, but I can't. She's driving me crazy. God, I would never say this outloud, but I think I'm in love. She has the most georgeous green eyes I've ever seen. Lately, I've been finding myself staring at her from across the classroom, or the common room when she's doing her homework with Ruth. I really do hope things will get better...

James

Lily took her eyes away from the page. She felt so revulted at James for writing about her in his diary, but another feeling was tugging at Lily's heart too. She soon found that it was guilt. Guilt for being that mean to him. As soon as that thought crossed her mind, Lily felt like punching herself. How could she even think that?! James had deserved what he's gotten! But then the guilt came back, and another thought came with it too. Why does he deserve it? He has never really done anything bad to her.

She rubbed her temples and remembered Ruth asking her that question a few days ago.

"I don't get why you hate James so much. I mean, I dont like him either, but you've hated him since you first saw him"

Lily remembered her answer to, "Oh, um... it's a long story,"

But that was a lie. In fact, she didn't know what the answer was. Why did Lily hate him so much?

The guilt took over fully now, there was no reason for her actions. She felt a last pang of anger towards Sirius for making her realize this, and thought if James knew that Sirius had given her his diary.

Lily took her hands off her temple, and leafed through the rest of the pages. She would stop and skim the text when she saw her name, which was almost on each page. The last one was dated about one week ago, and it sounded really depressed. Was it her making him depressed? James told her that he liked ever chance he got, and she replied by ignoring and yelling at him. God, she felt horrible. Lily put her head in her hands and stared at the diary for a long time.


I had a lot of fun writing the journal entry lol. Theres one more to go, and that'll be it. I hope it doesn't sound too cheesy, I really don't like stories like that. Please review!