A. N. This was written a while back, but I just decided to put it up. I
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It had been a year since the war with Red Cell, but Nikita could not get it out of her mind. When she slept she would wake up screaming from the nightmares of that night. But the nightmares changed from night to night. One night she would see the rats biting her face. Another time she would see Michael's face as he was brought back from being tortured. She felt as though her heart had been ripped out seeing Michael with blood coming from his nose and ears. She also remembered what he said to her that night. She wanted so much to believe that his words were the truth. But it was all one big manipulation. She would dream about his words and then she would see where he told her it was a setup. And as they walked further she felt the burning hot pain as the bullet entered her side. But when she looked up she noticed something. It was not a member of Red Cell that shot her it was Michael. Then he leaned over and said, "You deserve to die. You gave up the location of the substation without a care. Well now its time to pay." Then she would wake up screaming.
She would sit for most of the morning before going into Section. It was not remembering what happened that hurts her it was the dream where Michael shoots her. She knew that did not happen. And she did not understand where it came from. Not only did it not happen but Michael had been the one that saved her. He shot the gunman and he turned his attention to her. He picked her up and whispered softly as he carried her to the van. "It's o.k. 'Kita. I won't let anything happen to you." And as he sat her down in the van she saw a small tear run down his cheek as the darkness claimed her.
She also dreamed that he had said that it wasn't all a lie. But she really did not know if that was a dream or not. It seemed so real. Still she wondered why these night marred were evading her sleep. It had been too long to still have nightmares about it.
She did not do much in Section. She wondered around Walters' station and talked with him for a while.
"Do you have nightmares Walter?" He looked at her for a second and then decided to answer her.
"I have not had nightmares in many years. I stopped having them about Section after 15 years on this job. But I started having them again about a year ago." Nikita looked at him with her eyes full of concern.
"What started them back up?"
Walter let a small smile come across his face as he said, "You did. I started having them the night of the suicide mission. I could not believe that you were gone. But you know I was not the only one. Birkoff was out of sync for a while and he would always come and talk to me about you when he got some extra time. We were still so mad with Michael that we could not see straight. It was after about a month that I realized that Michael was taking it worse than any of us. I finally knew without him even saying anything to me about it. He had tried to save you. But he thought that you were killed anyway and since he had given to order to blow that place up he felt as though he had murdered you. He was to the point that Operations was actually talking about cancellation."
Nikita lifted up her head at this. She did not know that it went so far. She had not idea that her absence would bother him that bad. She thought that if she did not respond to the PDA that no one could hurt her again. But in the process of doing that she nearly caused the death of the man that she loved.
"I had no idea Walter. I thought that he could make it through anything."
"He can take anything Nikita, except losing you. He loves you even though he does not admit it to you or himself. I saw his pain when Simone died both times and I saw his pain when he thought you died. What he feels for you is stronger that anything that he has ever experienced before. And it scares him. He needs you. And I do believe that you need him. Am I right?" Walter then walked away with a look on his face saying think about it.
All Nikita wanted to know about was nightmares, and look at what she found out. But it was something that she really needed to hear. Maybe now she could dream about her and Michael together instead of these nightmares that really scared her. She knew that Michael would never do anything like that, but where are these dreams coming from. She decided to go and see Michael.
====================================== IN OPERATIONS OFFICE
"So did you have Tim change the CD's at Nikita's house?" Operations said as he sat and looked at Madeline. She answered him without the smile that she that she usually wore.
"He did it about a month ago. What do you think that those subliminal messages are going to accomplish?"
Operations looked at her for a minute then concluded. "Michael and Nikita are just getting to close lately. That cannot be allowed. You know that as well as I do, something has to be done about it." Then he turned and left the room.
Madeline was not a bit happy about what he was making her do. Even though Nikita was bothersome at times Madeline still liked the tall blond. For one she kept her heart and she tried to help anyone who was having problems. She was always there for Michael. And she was even there when Madeline had faced her past. But she also knew that Nikita was the only reason that Michael is still around. He had just but given up until Nikita came into his life. She gave him a reason to want to live. She also knew if Nikita was no longer around that they would lose Michael and the light that shined over Section.
She had to think of something to do to help both Michael and Nikita For the sake of Section.
==================================== BACK AT MICHAEL'S OFFICE
Nikita walked up to the door and stared at Michael for a second. He had not even heard her walk up. She took advantage of this. She loved looking at him. After a few minutes she walked back a little and made a noisy entrance. Michael immediately looked up and gave her a genuine smile. He had missed her. She was given two days off after their last assignment. So was Michael but he stayed to finish up reports that were due.
Nikita went and dropped into the chair opposite him. She smiled. "Do you have to always stay when you are given the day off? I am beginning to think that you do not have a home." She joked with him.
"There is not much to do at home. I find that I do more things at Section. I love the visits that I get when I am here."
Nikita started to get a little jealous that someone else had been coming to see Michael when she was not there.
"She is very beautiful. I see her a lot but not as much as I would like to. I wish that she would come around more often." Nikita felt as though someone had stabbed a knife into her heart.
"Well I guess I will leave you alone in case she shows up." Nikita said as she got up to leave. Michael walked up and grabbed her hand and kissed the palm of it.
"To late she is already here." And then he leaned over and kissed her right on the lips.
Nikita felt her heart skip a beat. She was surprised that Michael had just said what he did. She hoped that this was not another manipulation. But at this moment and time she really did not care. He began to move his hands down her back and along her hips. He was not kissing her at the moment instead he was moving his mouth around on her neck. The only part that was touching her neck was his warm breath. He whispered in her ear.
"Would you like to go to dinner tonight?" Nikita simply nodded her head. She would have done anything for him at that moment.
He pulled away. "I will see you at eight then."
Nikita nodded and Michael gave her a soft kiss on the cheek as he walked to his desk and sat down. "I'll be back in a little while; I need to go talk to Madeline."
As Nikita walked into Madeline's office she sensed that something was wrong. Madeline had a look on her face that she had never seen on it before. She looked as though there was a problem that she did not know how to solve. Nikita was not sure, but the looked worried her.
"Hello Nikita."
"Is anything wrong Madeline?" Nikita asked with sincere concern. "Would you like me come back later?"
Madeline just smiled "What can I help you with today?"
"It is really nothing that you can do anything about but I was wondering if you knew how to stop them."
Madeline knew what Nikita was talking about but acted as though she didn't. "And what would that be?"
Nikita just looked at her. "Nightmares, terrible nightmares, Things would not happen in real life but I cannot seem to shake this uneasiness. I feel so out of control with them. It is honestly scaring me."
Madeline looked at Nikita. She wanted to tell her what Operations had been doing. But she knew that if she did that he would cancel Nikita on the spot. So she decided to try something else. "Have you tried talking to Michael? You know that he has experience with them. He might know what to do that will help."
Nikita smiled. "Thank you Madeline. I think I will do just that." As Nikita walked out of the room she put her head in her hands and let out a deep sigh. She for once had no idea what to do.
===================================== NIKITA'S APARTMENT
When Nikita came home and decided to try to sleep again. She had not had any 'real' sleep in days. As she finally dosed off she dreamed of Michael and him holding her in his arms. He decided to take her to a restaurant and while she was there she must have passed out and when she came to she was in the same place that she was during the war. Michael was in the cage next to her. He had been beaten and was nearly unconscious. When here come two men up the stairs. They had smiled on their faces. They went directly to her cage. "We had fun with your boyfriend and now it is time we have some fun with you." As Nikita heard this a chill went over her body.
Michael decided to come a little early. He could not wait to see her. As he was about to knock on the door he heard something inside. At first it sounded like a cat. He thought to himself that Nikita still had not gotten rid of that cat. He let a smile cross his face. But it did not stay there long. He discovered that the sound was a cry. It was Nikita's cry. He reached into his pocket to remove the key to apartment and then he heard her scream, "Michael, help me!!!!" He dropped the key and slammed into the door with his foot. He ran in with his gun drawn.
He heard another cry from Nikita's bedroom. He was up the stairs in a matter of seconds. What he saw was Nikita drenched in sweat. The bed was all pulled apart from the battle in her dream. Once again she screamed for Michael to help her. Michael ran to her and lifted her to him and made her open her eyes. When she finally did she was sobbing uncontrollably. Michael began to rock her and tried his best to sooth her. Finally she began to calm down. She then looked up at him and he pulled her even closer.
"Thank you Michael."
They sat that way for about an hour before getting up. "How long have you been having them?"
Nikita looked at him for a moment. "About four weeks. It is about the war with Red Cell. I have had nightmares before but these are so real. And it keeps getting more intense."
Michael looked at her face that was full of so much pain. He wished that he could do something to help her. She was too precious to him. And she did not deserve these dreams. He stayed with her that night and held her all night. She cried out several times in her sleep. Michael rarely slept anyway. And he stayed up to calm her when the demons invaded her sleep once again. It just seems to happen over and over. He made up his mind that he was going to find some way to help her. He did not care what it took.
Nikita looked so tired the next morning. She was not in the mood to deal with Section and was thankful that she had another day off. But just as Michael was about to sit down next to her his cell phone started ringing.
Michael stood silent for a moment. "We will arrive in about half an hour."
"We, we both have to come in?" Nikita said as she got up off the couch. She went and pulled on some blue jeans and a baby blue t-shirt. She then slipped on some shoes and walked out the door after Michael.
"We are wanted on a mission. We need to go straight to briefing." Michael said as they walked into Section.
"We have very little Intel. We just need to get a disk that contains some top secret material about the government programs, including us. So you see that this is important. And that it cannot fall into the wrong hands. We will have two teams. Nikita will lead team one and Michael will lead backup if needed. Only if I specify will you leave the van. Is that understood? Be ready to leave in one hour, Dismissed."
Nikita walked on out of the briefing room. She wanted to go see Walter.
Michael wanted to talk to Madeline. "I do not think that Nikita is mentally able to go on this mission. She is going through some problems and has not had a good night sleep in days. I think that you should keep her out of this mission."
Madeline nodded her head and was about to agree when Operations spoke up. "Nikita will be going and that is all there is to it." Madeline looked down and then looked Michael and mouthed the words.
"Watch over Nikita." Then she walked out of the room.
This made a chill go down Michael's spine.
It had been a year since the war with Red Cell, but Nikita could not get it out of her mind. When she slept she would wake up screaming from the nightmares of that night. But the nightmares changed from night to night. One night she would see the rats biting her face. Another time she would see Michael's face as he was brought back from being tortured. She felt as though her heart had been ripped out seeing Michael with blood coming from his nose and ears. She also remembered what he said to her that night. She wanted so much to believe that his words were the truth. But it was all one big manipulation. She would dream about his words and then she would see where he told her it was a setup. And as they walked further she felt the burning hot pain as the bullet entered her side. But when she looked up she noticed something. It was not a member of Red Cell that shot her it was Michael. Then he leaned over and said, "You deserve to die. You gave up the location of the substation without a care. Well now its time to pay." Then she would wake up screaming.
She would sit for most of the morning before going into Section. It was not remembering what happened that hurts her it was the dream where Michael shoots her. She knew that did not happen. And she did not understand where it came from. Not only did it not happen but Michael had been the one that saved her. He shot the gunman and he turned his attention to her. He picked her up and whispered softly as he carried her to the van. "It's o.k. 'Kita. I won't let anything happen to you." And as he sat her down in the van she saw a small tear run down his cheek as the darkness claimed her.
She also dreamed that he had said that it wasn't all a lie. But she really did not know if that was a dream or not. It seemed so real. Still she wondered why these night marred were evading her sleep. It had been too long to still have nightmares about it.
She did not do much in Section. She wondered around Walters' station and talked with him for a while.
"Do you have nightmares Walter?" He looked at her for a second and then decided to answer her.
"I have not had nightmares in many years. I stopped having them about Section after 15 years on this job. But I started having them again about a year ago." Nikita looked at him with her eyes full of concern.
"What started them back up?"
Walter let a small smile come across his face as he said, "You did. I started having them the night of the suicide mission. I could not believe that you were gone. But you know I was not the only one. Birkoff was out of sync for a while and he would always come and talk to me about you when he got some extra time. We were still so mad with Michael that we could not see straight. It was after about a month that I realized that Michael was taking it worse than any of us. I finally knew without him even saying anything to me about it. He had tried to save you. But he thought that you were killed anyway and since he had given to order to blow that place up he felt as though he had murdered you. He was to the point that Operations was actually talking about cancellation."
Nikita lifted up her head at this. She did not know that it went so far. She had not idea that her absence would bother him that bad. She thought that if she did not respond to the PDA that no one could hurt her again. But in the process of doing that she nearly caused the death of the man that she loved.
"I had no idea Walter. I thought that he could make it through anything."
"He can take anything Nikita, except losing you. He loves you even though he does not admit it to you or himself. I saw his pain when Simone died both times and I saw his pain when he thought you died. What he feels for you is stronger that anything that he has ever experienced before. And it scares him. He needs you. And I do believe that you need him. Am I right?" Walter then walked away with a look on his face saying think about it.
All Nikita wanted to know about was nightmares, and look at what she found out. But it was something that she really needed to hear. Maybe now she could dream about her and Michael together instead of these nightmares that really scared her. She knew that Michael would never do anything like that, but where are these dreams coming from. She decided to go and see Michael.
====================================== IN OPERATIONS OFFICE
"So did you have Tim change the CD's at Nikita's house?" Operations said as he sat and looked at Madeline. She answered him without the smile that she that she usually wore.
"He did it about a month ago. What do you think that those subliminal messages are going to accomplish?"
Operations looked at her for a minute then concluded. "Michael and Nikita are just getting to close lately. That cannot be allowed. You know that as well as I do, something has to be done about it." Then he turned and left the room.
Madeline was not a bit happy about what he was making her do. Even though Nikita was bothersome at times Madeline still liked the tall blond. For one she kept her heart and she tried to help anyone who was having problems. She was always there for Michael. And she was even there when Madeline had faced her past. But she also knew that Nikita was the only reason that Michael is still around. He had just but given up until Nikita came into his life. She gave him a reason to want to live. She also knew if Nikita was no longer around that they would lose Michael and the light that shined over Section.
She had to think of something to do to help both Michael and Nikita For the sake of Section.
==================================== BACK AT MICHAEL'S OFFICE
Nikita walked up to the door and stared at Michael for a second. He had not even heard her walk up. She took advantage of this. She loved looking at him. After a few minutes she walked back a little and made a noisy entrance. Michael immediately looked up and gave her a genuine smile. He had missed her. She was given two days off after their last assignment. So was Michael but he stayed to finish up reports that were due.
Nikita went and dropped into the chair opposite him. She smiled. "Do you have to always stay when you are given the day off? I am beginning to think that you do not have a home." She joked with him.
"There is not much to do at home. I find that I do more things at Section. I love the visits that I get when I am here."
Nikita started to get a little jealous that someone else had been coming to see Michael when she was not there.
"She is very beautiful. I see her a lot but not as much as I would like to. I wish that she would come around more often." Nikita felt as though someone had stabbed a knife into her heart.
"Well I guess I will leave you alone in case she shows up." Nikita said as she got up to leave. Michael walked up and grabbed her hand and kissed the palm of it.
"To late she is already here." And then he leaned over and kissed her right on the lips.
Nikita felt her heart skip a beat. She was surprised that Michael had just said what he did. She hoped that this was not another manipulation. But at this moment and time she really did not care. He began to move his hands down her back and along her hips. He was not kissing her at the moment instead he was moving his mouth around on her neck. The only part that was touching her neck was his warm breath. He whispered in her ear.
"Would you like to go to dinner tonight?" Nikita simply nodded her head. She would have done anything for him at that moment.
He pulled away. "I will see you at eight then."
Nikita nodded and Michael gave her a soft kiss on the cheek as he walked to his desk and sat down. "I'll be back in a little while; I need to go talk to Madeline."
As Nikita walked into Madeline's office she sensed that something was wrong. Madeline had a look on her face that she had never seen on it before. She looked as though there was a problem that she did not know how to solve. Nikita was not sure, but the looked worried her.
"Hello Nikita."
"Is anything wrong Madeline?" Nikita asked with sincere concern. "Would you like me come back later?"
Madeline just smiled "What can I help you with today?"
"It is really nothing that you can do anything about but I was wondering if you knew how to stop them."
Madeline knew what Nikita was talking about but acted as though she didn't. "And what would that be?"
Nikita just looked at her. "Nightmares, terrible nightmares, Things would not happen in real life but I cannot seem to shake this uneasiness. I feel so out of control with them. It is honestly scaring me."
Madeline looked at Nikita. She wanted to tell her what Operations had been doing. But she knew that if she did that he would cancel Nikita on the spot. So she decided to try something else. "Have you tried talking to Michael? You know that he has experience with them. He might know what to do that will help."
Nikita smiled. "Thank you Madeline. I think I will do just that." As Nikita walked out of the room she put her head in her hands and let out a deep sigh. She for once had no idea what to do.
===================================== NIKITA'S APARTMENT
When Nikita came home and decided to try to sleep again. She had not had any 'real' sleep in days. As she finally dosed off she dreamed of Michael and him holding her in his arms. He decided to take her to a restaurant and while she was there she must have passed out and when she came to she was in the same place that she was during the war. Michael was in the cage next to her. He had been beaten and was nearly unconscious. When here come two men up the stairs. They had smiled on their faces. They went directly to her cage. "We had fun with your boyfriend and now it is time we have some fun with you." As Nikita heard this a chill went over her body.
Michael decided to come a little early. He could not wait to see her. As he was about to knock on the door he heard something inside. At first it sounded like a cat. He thought to himself that Nikita still had not gotten rid of that cat. He let a smile cross his face. But it did not stay there long. He discovered that the sound was a cry. It was Nikita's cry. He reached into his pocket to remove the key to apartment and then he heard her scream, "Michael, help me!!!!" He dropped the key and slammed into the door with his foot. He ran in with his gun drawn.
He heard another cry from Nikita's bedroom. He was up the stairs in a matter of seconds. What he saw was Nikita drenched in sweat. The bed was all pulled apart from the battle in her dream. Once again she screamed for Michael to help her. Michael ran to her and lifted her to him and made her open her eyes. When she finally did she was sobbing uncontrollably. Michael began to rock her and tried his best to sooth her. Finally she began to calm down. She then looked up at him and he pulled her even closer.
"Thank you Michael."
They sat that way for about an hour before getting up. "How long have you been having them?"
Nikita looked at him for a moment. "About four weeks. It is about the war with Red Cell. I have had nightmares before but these are so real. And it keeps getting more intense."
Michael looked at her face that was full of so much pain. He wished that he could do something to help her. She was too precious to him. And she did not deserve these dreams. He stayed with her that night and held her all night. She cried out several times in her sleep. Michael rarely slept anyway. And he stayed up to calm her when the demons invaded her sleep once again. It just seems to happen over and over. He made up his mind that he was going to find some way to help her. He did not care what it took.
Nikita looked so tired the next morning. She was not in the mood to deal with Section and was thankful that she had another day off. But just as Michael was about to sit down next to her his cell phone started ringing.
Michael stood silent for a moment. "We will arrive in about half an hour."
"We, we both have to come in?" Nikita said as she got up off the couch. She went and pulled on some blue jeans and a baby blue t-shirt. She then slipped on some shoes and walked out the door after Michael.
"We are wanted on a mission. We need to go straight to briefing." Michael said as they walked into Section.
"We have very little Intel. We just need to get a disk that contains some top secret material about the government programs, including us. So you see that this is important. And that it cannot fall into the wrong hands. We will have two teams. Nikita will lead team one and Michael will lead backup if needed. Only if I specify will you leave the van. Is that understood? Be ready to leave in one hour, Dismissed."
Nikita walked on out of the briefing room. She wanted to go see Walter.
Michael wanted to talk to Madeline. "I do not think that Nikita is mentally able to go on this mission. She is going through some problems and has not had a good night sleep in days. I think that you should keep her out of this mission."
Madeline nodded her head and was about to agree when Operations spoke up. "Nikita will be going and that is all there is to it." Madeline looked down and then looked Michael and mouthed the words.
"Watch over Nikita." Then she walked out of the room.
This made a chill go down Michael's spine.
