The Sky is Too Far

Chapter 6- (Never Put It Aside)

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Hrr.. Look who's back! I've been neglecting this story, I know, and I'm sorry. You can thank my friends for kicking my butt into writing this chapter again, for those of you that care. ^-^; Shifting view-points, keep up if you can!

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After everything I've done to him, he's still willing to forgive me. Still willing to let me live, despite the fact that I've killed.. Destroyed, devastated everything he believes in. Or, tried to. His mission in life was to bring peace, to make an Eden for everyone. Mine was to destroy it, to have Eden just for ourselves. My mission, was to, in theory or not, destroy him. Not as much physical death, as it is mental.

Apparently, I have failed.

I.. don't appreciate failure.

How could he still be living, in such ease? He had killed. He had sinned. In the time of our long, long lives.. He had finally, truely sinned... He had betrayed Rem. He should be in Hell, right now.. He should be writhing, screaming in his imagined pain, knowing that he had deceived his beloved, perfect Rem. Eternal pain and God DAMNED suffering.

Not dancing about like the disgusting, human-loving fool he was, acting like there wasn't a care in the world... Hugging them. I know what he did. I didn't have to see it to know. I could sense it. Our bond is more than just the ability to speak to each other, mentally. You knew when the other experienced pain, if you focused enough, you could feel what the other was feeling. I felt it. Fucking felt it.

It's not something I wanted to be feeling, right after waking up. Felt sick. Hate him for it.

How dare he bring me here, to live with these crude beasts. These humans... these spiders. Somehow, he seems to hope it'll change my mind. Being with them? Change my mind, my views? No.. So far, it's only strengthened my decision. They need to die. They all need to die. I know that now. I've learned. Our Eden was never meant to be. MY Eden, is what is meant to be. They're all going to die. I'll kill them all... Him too. They don't deserve to witness the creation of my Eden, they don't deserve it. Neither does he. He can die with the rest of them.. He's betrayed me.

I don't understand, how he can care for such insignificant things as humans. Doesn't he hear.. Can't he sense our siblings? Our brothers and sisters? Has he really become so out of touch, that he can't sense them?

I can. I hear them, sense them.. Feel. I feel it. Our fellow plants, our brothers, our sisters.. Enslaved by those humans.. Screaming. The screaming, it never stops. Never, never stops.. And it never will. They're killing them. Leeching off their blood, off OUR blood.. The screams of the dieing, the dead and deceased.. Going on and screaming, yelling in eternal pain, even after death. I hear them, all of them. It drives me insane.

So why can't he? Their never-ending bloodless cries won't reach his ears, his mind.. And I don't understand why. How is it possible, that in only 140 years, he's become so oblivious to them.. To us, that he can't even sense it? It all eludes me.. But I know, that this has to stop. Everything has to stop. Time has to stop, humans have to stop.

Vash has to stop.

I have to kill it. Him, them, everything. Nothing on this filthy planet deserves to live. Nothing, except me.

I tried to be patient with him, but he hasn't changed. He won't open his eyes and take a fucking look around. He just hides, runs away. Buries his face in his hands and cries, like the damned baby he really is.

Fucking coward.

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Just an hour after lunch, the most desolute silence fell over this stupid house. Vash just left.. He's still in Knives' room. Talking to him, I guess. Milly left, too. I don't know why, but after what happened earlier.. After finding out that Knives was.. awake.. She just.. went quiet. It's scaring me, because it's not like her. Even after.. after Wolfwood... She wasn't quiet. She cried, but she talked, too. She only said she was going to go take a walk, before she left today.

Is it too much to ask, for everything to be alright? For everything to be nice, and peaceful?

But... Why am I even asking? Isn't everything already peaceful? It's so quiet.. that's peaceful, isn't it? .. Isn't it? I always used to clarify that word, peaceful, as being quiet, calm.. Relaxing. But more than anything, just quiet. So, why don't I feel like it's so peaceful, right now?

There wasn't any yelling.. I couldn't even hear them, Vash or Knives. So why.. why do I feel so terrible? After.. after yesterday.. I don't want to be feeling like this. That joy I felt this morning just kind of.. slipped away. Fell through my fingers. Right now.. I feel like I'm missing something. Something's wrong. Something is terribly, horribly wrong... I can feel it.

It's frightening.. It just pulls at my gut, telling me it's coming. Not when, just that it is. It's coming, soon.. very, very soon..

.. But.. what?

What is it?

I have this feeling of desperation, that I'm missing something.. Something very important, and.. if I don't find it, I'm going to lose it. That's what I feel.. But, I don't know what it is. Information? Is there something I'm not being told? Is there something--

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She hadn't even heard him leave the room, stepping down the hall, entering the kitchen. Had been so occupied.. wrapped up in her thoughts..

The petite girl was still at the counter, her soup little more than half finished, pushed to the side, she leaning forward, arms crossed and settled over the counter-top, her chin resting in the crook of her arms. He couldn't see her face, her back was turned to him.. But he got the distinct feeling she was staring out the window. Staring out at nothing. Heh.. It was, a familiar position, wasn't it? Sure. He happened to find himself in it so, so much...

He was smiling as he approached her. Wasn't anything too vibrant, just.. A smile. Reaching out a hand and resting it on her shoulder, offering a little shake.

"Meryl?"

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It's sickening.

He has feelings for them. FEELINGS. These two women, he cares for them? Why? They do nothing but follow him. Follow and pester him. Nothing but a nuissance. If two filthy spiders were following them around everywhere, watching their every moves, always, always there... Would they care for them? No. They wouldn't. They'd kill them. Kill the spiders, because they're just an annoyance. Pests. Those stupid humans wouldn't have put up with two spiders tailing them, so why does Vash?

They would kill such spiders.. Kill them.

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..Hm.

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The young woman jerked slightly upon feeling an odd warmth over her shoulder. Realizing it was a hand.. It was Vash's hand, she turned around, blinking before smiling at him. Cover it, Meryl.

"Oh! Hey Vash..."

He watched her a moment. Totally sincere. He was concerned.

"Are you alright?"

"Me? I-- Of course I'm alright! Why wouldn't I be, you idiot??"

Nice Meryl.. Very, very nice. Smooth.

"Er--Oh. Yeah, heheh.."

My my. Wasn't this awkward?

The blond Outlaw stepped back, right hand that had a moment before been placed over the dark haired woman's shoulder, now rubbing at the back of his neck, looking a bit apprehensive, nervous. Wanted something.

"Vash? What is it?"

"It-- Well. We.."

We?? We.. we what? Was he talking about.. Did he mean.. them? The two of them? That hug...

She waited patiently, looking at him almost hopefully, though she wasn't really aware of it.

"We.. we're out of doughnuts!"

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Doughnuts? It.. it would figure.

A slim, dark brow arching high, looking at that man. Grey hues narrowed, shooting one of those venemous glares, which, as intended, took immediate effect. Vash leapt back, giving a nervous, shouted bark of laughter, shoving hands out in front of him and shaking his head.

"No no! I- I was joking!! What I meant was... I think, that Knives is ready. To meet you."

"Knives? He.. But Milly isn't here."

"That's okay.. Would you atleast meet him? Please?"

That carefree air was suddenly gone. Vash was pleading, and Meryl was trying to slink away. She didn't want to meet Knives. That horrible creature... She didn't want to show any kind of gentle hospitality towards him. She didn't want to know him. She wanted to know Vash, but... But he was asking her.

"... Alright."

His smile brightened, seeming to perk at the thought almost instantly. Why was he.. So eager for her to meet his brother?

"Great! C'mon!"

Before the Insurance agent had a chance to reply, the Outlaw had grabbed her sleeve and was dragging her along down the hall.

Down the hall, right towards Knives' room.

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She'll be the first.