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Cherri Ookami dateline on August 25, 2003

HA! I knew that writer's block would lose. I never doubted myself for a second! *People throw paper balls* FINE! I kind of did, but yeah. Anyways, thanks for your feedbacks! Anyways, I have a bad idea, but I'll use it anyways! ^_^

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Disclaimer: I do not own Cardcaptor Sakura. If you've read this story before, you should ALREADY know that. CLAMP owns CCS. Lucky them!

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Chapter 8, Eight, Ocho, Hachi, and Walo of Etiquette Lessons:

Everything You Want and So Much More

By the Cherri Ookami and Crystal Megami

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 Meiling's POV

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(Note that almost this ENTIRE chapter is in her POV)

{As I ran off, the silent wind whistled as my silent tears flew into the cold wind. I ran into my 'room' and I hopped onto my bed. I stared at the clouds. I saw them. They frowned at me by turning gray and pouring more tears for me to cry with. I cupped my hands and covered my face and knew that nothing could get in the way of love.}

'I had tried almost all for my life to have a wonderful life with the man I truly loved.'

'That was such a simple thing to do and I couldn't even do that.'

'I am such a failure.'

'I am fighting a losing battle that can't be won. Nothing can pry those two apart.'

'I'm sorry.'

'Was that all I could say? 'I'm sorry.' isn't enough. NOTHING can be enough. I broke the heart of the one I loved to get his affection and ended up wounding my own self. I should never have done this. I should have never come to this place in the first place. Nothing I did would be able to help change the past.'

'Even if I felt at the least bit sorry for myself, nothing can change what I had damaged. I can't repair it, because nothing I damaged went to anyone else, but me.'

{I stood up and wondered.}

'Would he ever forgive me?'

' It's such a question to ask. Of course he would...'

'Not.'

'I portrayed him as a sick porno lover.'

'It doesn't hurt to try, does it?'

'Of course it does.'

'He probably hates me.'

{I walked out of the room and pulled out my compact.}

{My nose was red and my hair was a mess. My eyes were puffy and were quite small at that moment. It was what I deserved. I walked closer and closer to Syaoran's room and noticed that it was open. I turned the knob and I found him on the bed. He was probably asleep, but I didn't know. I walked in and kneeled at his side.}

{I placed my hand on his heart and I felt a warm beating.}

'That was the difference.'

'He had a heart in him.'

'He had never treated me the way that he treated Sakura.'

'Why? I don't know.'

'Is she more attractive than me?'

'Why doesn't he love me?'

{My hand slowly moved to his head and his eyes suddenly snapped open.}

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 End of Meiling's POV and Start of Normal POV

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{Syaoran got up and he stared bewilderedly at Meiling, pondering why she was there.}

"What are you doing here, Meiling?" he said as he rubbed his eyes

"Do you love me?"

 "WHAT?" he asked, being quite bewildered

"Do you love me?"

"Why?"

"Because, I hate seeing you with that girl and I want to know if it is a way to make me jealous."

"Iie, I am not in love with you and iie again, because what would I make you jealous OF?"

"The fact that you secretly love me and that you just want to make me jealous."

"I don't want to lie to you, unless you want me to."

"I want you to lie."

"I love you."

"So, you DON'T love me?"

"Hai. Anyways, you told me to lie!"

"But, why?"

"I don't know. Sakura is kind and not so clingy."

"What's wrong with clingy?" she asked indignantly

"Well, for one, it's very galling. And it is mostly just a big turn off." He said brusquely

"Okay. Duly noted." She said as she scratched her head

"Oh, and don't get me started on the glomping." He said as he shook his head

(If you don't know what a glomp is, think of Nakuru and Touya (CCS). What Nakuru does, is a glomp. Oh, and try thinking of what Shampoo does to Ranma (Ranma ½). Hope I gave ya a good idea! If not, I suck and you can put it in the review, but that would probably lead to my quitting, so please don't! XD)

"Fine then. But that still isn't the main reason, is it?" she asked cautiously

"Hai. I just CAN'T love you the way you want me to." He said nervously

"WHY NOT?"

"I just can't. There is something about Sakura that I can't find within you. I just... I just don't know what that something is." He said softly

"It's not that I don't want you together. It is that you fell in love with her and I forced you in love with me and even THAT didn't work."

"Why did you do that anyways?"

"I don't know."

"It's not that I don't enjoy being with you, because I do. I just want to be with someone else."

"You've said that for a while now, Xiao Lang. I am just asking WHY do you not love me?"

"I just... I can't... I..."

"You have never loved me, have you?" she asked emptily

"I... I..." Syaoran had no answer. It was a hard thing to say, i'I don't love you.'/i

"HAVE YOU?" she yelled tensely

"Well..."

"JUST ANSWER!" she said as she stomped her foot on the floor and her eyes filled with tears.

"I... I have. Once before."

"What happened?" she asked softly as she caressed his cheek with her shaking hand

"Well, I fell in love twice before. It was with you and..." he didn't have the heart to say it (If you paid close attention to the previous chapters, you should know what I'm talking 'bout! ^_^ If ya didn't, then I dunno! ~^_^~)

"Yeah, I know, but who came first?"

"You did. I think I only fell for you when there was nothing. When I was empty, you were there. I had never wanted to hurt you, I promise you, but still. There are things better than me. You can find anything out there. Don't get caught up on me."

"So, in other words, you hate me?"

"No, we are supposed to be family. I can't hate family. You mean so much to me. Also, it breaks the unwritten rules of the royal regime." He said as he smiled and put a hand on her cheek

"So, I mean something to you, at least?"

"Yeah. My own cousin, poor, poor cousin, what the hell were you thinking?" he asked sarcastically as he embraced her

"I dunno. I mean, gomen, gomen for everything. You know, for making you look like a porn wizard."

"WHAT?"

"Did I forget to mention that? Oops." She said as she sat on the bed

"That's why Sakura slapped me last night? It was because you made me look like I love porn? First, it was those two Madanirasho guys, then you! What is it with people?" he yelled frantically as he opened the door and found a fairly pleasant surprise

{Out fell Sakura, Tomoyo, Eriol, Aria, Araia, Amia, Amaia, Sasami, Mikayo, and load of other people fell on top of each other, except for Midako, who jumped up and let everyone fall on each other.}

"Midako, you idiot!" Sasami said as she wrenched Amia's hair from her eyes

"Ya'll are calling me an idiot when you're the ones who are on top of each other? HA! Surely ya jest!"

"No we don't! So are ya gonna help us or not."

"Not! Okay, JA NE!" she yelled as she waved a hand, but she turned back and took a camera

*Click*

"Dude! This rocks! This is almost as good as getting a date on Christmas! Well, maybe it isn't that great, but its still oh so funny!" She said as she removed her jacket and revealed a Chinese dress with peonies on it. She put it in her purse and she simply pinched Sasami's cheeks.

"You look oh so kawaii, Sasami-chan~! Okay. Buh bye. Buh bye." She said as she took her compact and powdered Sasami's hair. "Ja!"

"That damn..." Sasami started

 "Forget it." Mikayo said as she slapped her head to the floor

"What the heck were all of you guys doing down there anyways?" Syaoran asked as she pulled Aria and Sakura up

"We were just checking if you two made up yet." Sakura said as she looked at Syaoran with innocent eyes

"Stop it! You are the demon of innocence! Ahh! She's pulling me in and..." Syaoran said as he finished with a small kiss

{Meiling leaned on the doorway and Midako came back.}

"I know it hurts, but ya'll did the right thing, ya know."

"I know, but still. He never told me why he fell for me before."

"It's a mystery and so is the kid."

"Do you think he'll ever love me the way he loves her?"

"Not to get your hopes up, but there's a chance. Though, they share a strong bond. No one can really break it, except for himself or herself. Just do the whole world a favor. Don't meddle with 'em. Let them do it. No one deserves to get hurt from someone else's stupid mistakes. They can kill themselves, just don't make it be your fault." She said as she threw her gum wrapper at Amia's head.

"What?"

"Just checking if you were listening to what I was saying." She said as she ran across the hall and blew a raspberry

"GET BACK HERE!"

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Later that night

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{Sakura sat on the balcony and watched a star pass by. She inhaled, and she was about to make a wish, before Syaoran jumped into the balcony chair and looked at her happily.}

"You're mean, ya know that?" she said as she poked him

*Yawn* "Hey, yeah. I know that. I've known THAT for a long while now." He said as he looked at the falling star. "What were ya gonna wish for, huh?"

"I wanted you to be here. But since that happened already, I asked for something else."

"What?"

"I ain't saying anything, Syaoran." She said as she smiled at him and he reached into his pocket and he started to panic

"What's wrong?"

"Oh, nothing! I must go. G'night Sakura-chan!" he said as he ran into the building

"O...kay."

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In Syaoran's room

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{Syaoran looked all over.}

{He couldn't find it.}

{What was he looking for?}

"I need that ring! What am I supposed to do, get a rock and say, Will you marry me? I don't have a ring. Here. It's a rock?"

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"Where is my plane ticket? I am NOT mooching money off of anyone!" Meiling yelled as she felt around her bed

"Or, I can always get some money from someone." She said slyly as she took her cell phone and dialed a number

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Well, we know what everyone is up to! Sakura wished for something and we don't know what it is. Syaoran wants to give Sakura a ring of engagement and we don't know where it is. Meiling is taking money and we don't know whom it's from. There we go. I gave you the what, where, and who. I would give you some kind of summary, but I don't think so. ^_^