TITLE: BCC: Front Desk
AUTHOR: Nymph Du Pave
FANDOM: Smallville
RATING: G
BCC: Front Desk
by Nymph Du Pave
LEX'S LETTER
Liliah,
I can't begin to describe how lost I feel in this city, particularly at work with my father. I hate it as much as I seem to need it to survive. I feel as though I should be off discovering things, conquering things. My thoughts are always more scientifically minded, though business thanks to my father, has always come like breathing. I'm a fish in water here, but I want to be a bird.
I want to let you know how much you mean to me. I have seen the sadness in your eyes, but never when anyone is around. Only when you think people are not looking, only when you think you are alone. There is a security camera out front and I try my best to keep up on you.
My flirtations are simple at best when it comes to you because you always seemed better than me. Not that you thought you were better than anything, just that you deserve better than what I am, then what I will become some day.
But I can't help but feel that maybe you're right. Maybe we could be good together, good for each other.
And I think you're beautiful. The women I surround myself with never last; they're not meant to. They are part for attention, part for the press and part for myself. I use them to tell myself that I'm not lonely, that no 21 year old could be as lonely as I sometimes think myself to be. I tell myself to have fun, to live at this age because my father is my future.
You were honest, and I know it's because you never expected me to get your letter. But I feel with you I have a chance to change, to break through to the person I want to be.
You give me hope, Liliah, and it's something I lost when my mother died.
I am mailing this to your house for your days off. You'll probably get it Friday, so you'll have Saturday and Sunday to think to yourself.
I want to talk to you on Monday.
Please, give me a chance at this.
-Lex
Turn the page.
