Important Authors Note: Marie Evans- LeClair is not Lily's step mother as I earlier said. For the sake of this chapter and others to come, she is her Godmother, she married into the family. Lily went with her for two years because Marie managed (unfortunatly for Lily) to convince her parents to let her go with her. Lily's parents are happily married. Thankyou, please enjoy.
She rushed up the Grand Stairs, she could hear James calling her from behind.
Lily, Lily please... just talk to me! Lily! Lily just ignored him and kept running up. She stumbled over the hem of her dress but picked herself up and kept running. Her hair was falling out of its neat bun and strands of her hair were falling in her face. Tears were smudging her mascara, and dripping blackly down her face.
The fat lady saw her approaching and didn't even wait for the password, she just opened silently. Lily rushed inside and hurried up the staircase to the girls dormitories. She opened the door to the fifth years room and slammed the door behind her. She slid down the door holding her head in her hands and crying. Her back was shaking with the sobs of anger and hate.
She should have realized that James would have done this to her. He just couldn't stay taken for this long, she should have forgiven him but not dated him. She was such an idiot. He had broken her heart, just like Sirius had thought. She shudderd as she thought was Sirius would do to James.
There was a soft tapping on the window; Lily looked up from weeping into her hands. She moved swiftly over to the window, and with a heave opened it. She put her hand out the window so she could grab hold of the bird that was outside. Slowly, she brought the bird inside the room. She gasped and dropped her hand.
The black death Raven circled the bed and dropped a black envelope name side down on the bed, and then soared out of the open window. Someone had died. There was a one in five chance that it was her parents. Bellatrix had told her that Voldemort was after her parents, he was going to kill them. Was this letter for her?
Slowly, she moved over to the bed and with trembling hands picked up the letter. She closed her eyes and turned it around. Very slowly she opened her eyes and there in shining slilver letters was Miss Lililan Marie Evans.
Oh my God she whispered as she ripped open the letter. A piece of parchment and a piece of muggle paper fell onto the bed. Lily grabbed the parchment and read.
Dear Miss. Evans,
It is our deepest regret that we must inform you of the death of your Parents, Thomas Frank Evans and Gwen Concannon Evans. It was discovered early this morning of the deaths and Lord Voldemorst cross was in the sky. Arrangements are being made with Dumbledore for you to leave school for their funerals. Arrangements are also being made to who will be your legal gaurdian. Mrs. Marie Evans-LeClair, your Godmother, wrote to us as soon as she heard and said that you were to come and live with her and her husband. Enclosed is a letter from your sister. We, at the Ministry, are very sorry for your loss.
Sincerely yours,
Mattlina Moonotomos
Her parents, they couldn't be dead. She picked up the piece of muggle paper and unfolded it to see Petunia's neat cursive, smudged slightly be tears. Petunia may have hated Lily, but she did love her parents.
Lily,
Thanks, thanks a whole bunch. This is all your faullt! You freak, you bitch, you killed my parents. You killed the people I loved most. I hate you. I never want to see your ugly face again, murderer. No one loves you here. Everyone hates you. Only your freakish godmother likes you, only because she is one of you, a freak, a murderer. Never try and contact me, never mention my name, I am no longer related to you. Good ridance, murderer.
Petunia.
She was beyond tears, beyond pain. She slumped down by the window where the Raven had entered. Slowly the tears traveled down her face and onto the parchment, smudging the only Petunias cursive. She threw the letters down beside her, underneath the window. And sobbed uncontrollably.
She was alone, all alone. No one loved her, no one at all. James was gone, her parents were gone, and it was all her fault. There was no way out of this. She couldn't change what already had happened. She pulled herself up from the window sill and looked out. But wait, there was a way. There was a way out of the hell hole that she called life. There was only one thing that she could do, there was only one way out. The door burst open and in piled Arabella, Toni, Montreal, and Elizabeth.
Oh, Lily, we just heard about James, we're soo.. and then she saw her standing on the ledge. Her ball gown fluttering in the wind. Lily, what are you doing? Get down from there, you might fall She knew, but she was trying hard to not believe it.
Oh my God Elizabeth whispered. She quickly turned and ran into the common room.
Simultaneously, James had gone into his dorm room and grabbed his broom. It was the only way that all the stress, all this anger, all this remorse could get out of him. He had just ruined the best thing in his life because he and sirius just had to spike the punch. He slunk down the stairs, just in time to see Elizabeth hurling down the girls stairway.
Oh my god, oh god, get.. just go upstairs. c'mon...
Remus jumped up calm down Elizabeth, what's going on?
Oh god, it's lily, she's mad, she's going to... to
yelled Sirius and he sprinted up the stairs, he was followed closely by Remus,
Elizabeth, Sean, Munguldus and Catherine Spinnet. James followed last. He wasn't sure if he could be there. It was his fault.
He couldn't take it. He had to go up. and with that he too followed up the stairs. He opened the door.
I'm sorry, i'm sorry for all the pain that this will cause, but I have too. I told James I would kill him if he hurt me. But I can't, I can't because I still love him. I'll just kill myself instead. You don't understand, they're gone. They're all gone She was staring out the window as she spoke. She turned around and seemed almost shocked at seeing all the boys and Catherine there.
Lily, who's gone, who's all gone? asked Remus, keeping his voice steady.
I'm sorry, no one loves me. Was Lily's reply.
Lily, we love you! We all love you cried Sirius his voice shook as he spoke and he took a step towards her. She moved forward as he did, and was now an inch from the edge.
Please Lily, don't, don't do it! It was Montreal this time.
I'm sorry It was so simple, yet it meant so much. She took a step foreward and fell.
Lily felt the castles spells slowing her down. But she knew it was not enough. She knew she was going to die. This is how it had to be. But why? Why did she leave her friends? The ground was coming closer and closeer, she closed her eyes ready for the impacct.
Back in the common room there wasn't a person with a dry face. Arabella was lying on her bed where she had passed out. Montreal and Toni were crying into each others shoulders. Remus was staring in disbelief tears slowly rolling down his face. Sirius had slumped down on the wall across from the window and held his head in his hand. Only his shaking shoulders indicated he was crying. Sean was holding Elizabeth as she cried and his tears were melting into her hair. Munguldus was shocked, he just stood there with his mouth open facing the window. Catherine had turned and ran out, down the stairs, and through the common room, she could see everyone in there staring around to look at her. They knew what was going on, typical Lily, being the drama queen. But by the look on Catherine's face, they new that she had acutally done it. She had acutally jumped.
Remus, who was closest to the window spotted the two letters and the black envelope. A look of realization fell over his face. He picked up the letters and read the one from the ministry. He read the letter silently and then picked up the letter from Petunia. He chocked back a sob as he read this letter. Poor Lily, his poor Lily.
Guys, Lily's parents are dead. They were killed by Voldemort. Petunia was calling her a murderer. God He choked back another sob. But there was still a hope,thought Remus, if he had gotten her in time. But it was unlikely. If only...if only.
