A/N: To all my fantastic readers... I have returned!! and I'm happy to be back. Inspiration has taken a while to come to me and is still in the process of returning, but I think once i get an idea going it will miraculasly come home. So... here is the next chapter. There is a surprise at the bottom. But you have to read it all to understand.

Shh, dammit Black, shut up! a hushed voice said.
I can't help it! Bella's like tickeling me a loud whisper replied.
I'm not you fat twit Bella breathed. Lily let out a sigh, and opened her eyes. Bright sunlight streamed in through the cathedral sized windows, the white of the school infirmary glowed as if to tell her that life really was okay.

James cried, instantly kneeling by her side, his hand held tight in hers. Lily looked at him, but her gaze shifted immediatly to the cieling. Anything was better than looking at him. She took a deep breath, the air catching in her rapidly constricting throat. She closed her eyes again

James, can you please leave? I would like to talk to my friends She pointedly said friends, just to prove to him that he was nothing to her now, nothing but a spec of dirt on her small list of ex-es.
Lily, I... he was interrupted
Maybe it's best if you left. Toni said quietly, averting her eyes to the floor. James scowled at her.
he sneared and stormed out of the hospital wing. Sirius gazed down at Lily.

I'm gonna kill that bastard.... I swear to fucking god I'm gonna kill him. Lily smiled at him half heartedly. She shook her head.
Sirius.... I appreciate the gesture, but no. This is my problem not yours. This is his fault. Yes and no. I need to talk to the girls. I'm sorry Sirius... but...
Fine... I'm leaving, c'mon Remus. They left her bed side with Peter. Bella knelt down where James had been a few minutes previously. Kelsey took her other hand, and smiled a weak smile. Montreal looked at Lily with a look that was half-exasperated, half-worried.

Lily, why did you do this? Why..... I know that your going through a rough patch... a really really rough patch, but did you hontestly think that no one loved you? Her voice was starting to quiver with emotion. Lily, you are way to smart to do something like this. Lily closed her eyes again.

I dunno.... maybe I.... maybe I thoughthat Bellatrix was gonna come back to get me. To finish the job of. I dunno. Madame Pomfrey bustled over to where she was.

Well, I'm glad you're awake, Lily, but I must insist that your friends leave at once. I really don't want to add stress to you at the moment. She pointed at the door and made shooing noises. Lily was left once again alone.

A few weeks had past and the new year was looking bleak. Lily had come out of the hospital wing the week after school had started. Lily and James weren't speaking to each other, in fact barely anyone was speaking to James, only Remus and Peter spent time with him.

There had been two times already where Sirius and James had began a fight, however they were quickly intercepted. The teachers made sure that they were always sitting on opposite sides of the room and were in no way able to contact each other.

The night Lily returned to the common room was a very wierd affair. Remus had convinced James to stay in his dormitory until she had gone up. Most other students had gone up when they heard she was coming. There was a lot of hugging and a little crying as Lily began to tell what happened that night. She had missed her parents funeral. She explained to the near empty common room that she was almost glad, because she wouldn't have been able to stand seeing Petunia again.

The weeks following Lily's return were boring for most of the seventh years. The work load had increased considerably, seeing that NEWTs were coming rapidly. Lily and James were still not talking to each other. After almost two months of not talking to each other Lily had insisted that Sirus talk to James. She claimed that it would help her get back to her normal life and that it would be another step on her long road to recovery. To seal their friendship, James and Sirius planned a giantic prank, where they had bewitched every knight suit to say We hate Snivellos every time someone walked past.

Easter went by quickly, Lily stayed at Hogwarts with her friends. She hadn't done anything, really since that night. She couldn't bring herself to enjoy life quite yet. Slowly though she was beginning to enjoy her friends. At first things had been strained, as if it were a personal insult to them, that she would try and do something so stupid. As they months flew by they realized that it wasn't their fault. Lily had never fully recovered from Bellatrixes attack, maybe physically but not mentally. It was their final year at school and their time had been ruined by a psychopathic teen bitch. It seemed to Lily sometimes that all was lost. There couldn't be a chance to ever become a normal girl again.

The NEWTs lived up to their expectations. It was true about the rumours, it was as tough as hell. Everyone had to sit through 4 hours of question and answers, practical and written exams. But when Lily emerged from her last exam she felt a tremendous wait lifted of her shoulders. And with it came the bad feelings she had for James. She still was not sure how long it would take for them to be on the level that they were at... but she wanted to make things be back to normal again.

Lily found James sitting with his back against his favorite tree staring out at the lake.
James... hi, I uh... wanted to talk. James looked shocked as Lily sat down next to him. I wanted to say that I accept your apology. The one you've made up in your head and have been waiting for the right time to tell me. Lily looked out over the lake and then glanced back into James' eyes. I realize that we've both been through some pretty bad shit over the past year. James nodded is head in agreement.
You could say that he replied.
James, I want us to be friends. I think that we're both really gonna need each other coming up. I... I just hope that you can find it in your heart to accept my apology.
You're apology? For what... what did you ever do? James looked bewildered
I made you feel guilty for way longer than you should have. I made you suffer every minute that I suffered. There is no excues for that. I'm sorry
Lily, everything that you have ever done has always seemed right to me. If you wanted me to suffer with you then I would and I did. You couldn't have made it thorugh that if you didn't know that someone else was dealing with your pain as well. You don't need to apologize. It's only me that has to.James grabbed Lily's hand and held it up to his heart. Lily... I love you

THE END!!!!

A/N: Yes, it's over. That was the worst chapter I've ever done. I'm sorry that it is so rushed, but I think that we're all exited that its over. It really was draggging on. I hope you all enjoyed it though. Please R&R! I promise to write more (if you liked it that much) Check Fictionpress sometime. I'm gonna do something there next, more creative liscence if you know what I mean. For all of the unfinished buisness in the story, I'm sorry. Please Forgive me!!!! Thankyou soooo much for being a great.... what would you call it? a readiance. I don't know...thanks for reading anyways.
Lily Rowling Potter