Summary: Sakura and Syaoran do get together but they end up breaking up. Sakura tries hard to find a better man but every time she gets too close she ends up getting hurt. (This fic will mostly be Syaoran's Point of view.)

"Love can be so close to pain"

"Good morning!" The man in the television said. "It'll be party cloudy and will rain later on in the afternoon. Don't forget those umbrellas!" He said. I yawned and shut the TV and prepared breakfast. I knocked on Sakura's door who was my roommate. "Sakura..." I said with a yawn. I'm 17 years old. I've known Sakura Kinomoto every since 4th grade. We used to be enemies and I used to try to beat her when it came to catching Clow Cards. We ended up in a relationship but it just didn't work out. I knew that we wouldn't suit each other that much though... Sakura came out of the door with her shirt and baggy pants.

"Morning Syaoran..." She said.

"Morning. Breakfast will be egg and bacon with orange juice and toast bread." I said. Sakura sat down.

"Looks good..." She said. I knew something was wrong. You could just see it.

"So another bad date?" I said with a teasing tone. She frowned and glared at me.

"YEAH?! ARE YOU HAPPY?!" She said getting her toast and orange juice and stomped her way to her room. I frowned. Sometimes I can't help but tease her with those things.

Sakura would always have problems with men even more since we broke up in 8th grade. Sakura is a great girlfriend but sometimes I wonder why everything always seems to go wrong whenever she's in a relationship or a date. Sometimes I feel that Eriol and Tomoyo have something to do with it but they wouldn't want to hurt their own friend. I stared at my food and sighed. I stood up and grabbed her food. I knocked on her door.

"Sakura! Come on... I'm sorry..." I said as I tried to open the door but it ended up being locked.

"NO! I HATE YOU SO MUCH..." She said as a little whimper came out. "I HATE YOU!! YOU'RE SO MEAN TO ME. YOU NEVER CARE ABOUT ME..." I took out my credit card and slid it through the door which made it open. Sakura was on the ground sitting near her bed. I placed the plate in front of her and sat next to her. "Hey, cheer up. You shouldn't lose that smile. You know you're famous for that." I smiled. She couldn't smile. I stood up and stretched. "Cheer up please... Tomoyo might be back soon... She'll kill me if she sees you frowning..." And I left.

I can't stand it whenever she gets mad or just frowns. But it doesn't mean that I'm like still in love with her. She's just a friend like my own little sister. I fixed up the dishes and got ready to leave. "Sakura!! I'm going now!!" I yelled. No one answered. I got my keys and locked the door. My phone rang. "Li speaking..." I said. "Hey honey!" It was my other ex girlfriend Eri Lusaka.

"What do you want?" I said.

"Well honey don't you want to go with me today?" she said

"No." I said firmly. She pouted again. "We're not together anymore. Leave me alone..."

"So you're interested with that slut Kinomoto?" She said. I wished I could just kill her sometimes.

"No. And she's not a slut!" I said. She laughed.

"God Syaoran... Still playing games with her?" I could kill her any second and hide her body under some garden.

"Fuck off Sakura. And you have no right to call me Syaoran... bitch" I said getting more angry.

"Don't you love me?" She said.

"Hell no..." I said and hung up.

I met her on my second year of high school and broke up with her after 5 months. Ever since I started dating her she ruined my life. She'd always want to fuck with me or something. Plus I found out that she was using me for my money and for the revenge of losing her boyfriend to Sakura on 9th grade. I continued to walk to the streets and saw Eriol. "Hey!" He said with a smile. "Hey... Guess who called me earlier." I said. "Hmmm... Lusaka?" He said. I nodded. Eriol knows too much sometimes but I like him just like that. We jogged together around the neighborhood like always. We would always talk about things that were going on and giving some advice.

"When is Tomoyo coming back?" I asked.

"Hmm... I think by two weeks. I'm so excited to see her..." He said. I smirked.

"Eriol... in love? I'm still surprised you're with her..." I said. He smiled.

"Tomoyo's a great person and she's... ah... I don't know how to explain how beautiful she is or... just how special she is to me... It's too hard." He said with a little blush on his cheeks. I smiled.

"Well Sakura's not doing that great when it comes to love..." I said. "She yelled and got mad at me again." Eriol shook his head like everytime I told him that. "You gatta learn to hold some things inside. Like when you were in love with her and couldn't say anything..." Eriol said. I glared at him as he brought me some memories. But he was right about that. I wonder why I can't just hold it in. We separated when we got to the next block. I walked home from there.

When I returned home I heard Sakura from the door. It was like she was crying or something. I wanted to get to her but what would say? She's already mad at me from morning. But I sucked up and knocked on her door. "S-Sakura?" I said. She quieted down as if she didn't want me to hear her. The knob was locked again I took my card and slid it through the door and came in. There she was like a helpless little girl. She had a few bruises on her arm and leg. "S-Sakura!?" I said going to her. "W-what happened?!" I said and looked for my first aid kit. Sakura didn't say anything. "Sakura answer me..." I said. She just kept crying. "Shinji did this huh?" I said. I could feel the anger burning through my body. Fear came out of her eyes. She looked like she was going to cry louder. She grabbed hold on me. She hugged my tightly. She knew I'd hurt him. She didn't care if she got hurt she just didn't want anymore fighting.

Shinji was the type of guy that would hurt women. Eriol and I would always tell him to back off Sakura but Sakura couldn't help but fall for his damn charm, although I can't seem to understand why his charm does attract many girls. But whenever she did get together with him he would always force her in sex or he would just hurt her when he wanted. He would usually get drunk and went to strip bars. Sakura cried on my shirt leaving it all wet. I hugged her back. "Sakura... Why did you let him in here? Tell me... It's okay." I said. She turned her head to the other side. "I just wanted to open it when I saw him. I-I was really upset... I needed to talk to someone..." She said. "Sakura... I'm here. Don't ever let him in here. Why don't you send charges on him? Or get a restraining order?" I said. She shook her head on my shirt. "I-I still love him..." She said. I sighed. I hugged her even tighter. "Sakura... You got to understand that he's hurting you too much and that you should find someone who won't hurt you." I said.

I didn't think that Sakura heard what I told her when I left her room. The next day she acted like nothing bad happened and put on a fake smile. I frowned at her. "Why are you frowning so much?" She said with her fake smile. "You know... you shouldn't pretend when it comes to me... I'm your friend. I'm like your brother. Why do you have to hide things from me?" I said. "Why is there something wrong with that?" She said. I rolled my eyes. "See this is why our relationship didn't last. This is the reason why!" I said as I shook my head. "Well I'm so sorry Mr. PERFECT. I'm sorry I'm not as firkin' perfect like YOU!" She said to me. I stood up and slapped her. "Don't you DARE say I'm PERFECT! I'm not perfect. But you should know that I'm here and I'll help you. So you don't have to firkin' talk like that to me or even hide stuff." I said.

Three days pasted after that day. Sakura ended up leaving without any word after. All her clothes and important stuff were gone. I looked at her empty room. All that was left was the bed, an empty closet and a desk. "It's going to be hard looking for her..." I said and got the phone and called Eriol. "Hey did you hear anything from the police?" I asked. "Nope... We better have to find her before Tomoyo finds out she's missing too... Or else you're going to get beat up badly..." Eriol said. I hung up and went out again to look for her. As I walked for about 20 minutes my cell phone rang. "Li speaking..." I said. It was the police. "We found her. She's on the airport going to, I think London..." He said I hung up and ran to the airport. She was going to visit Tomoyo. I ran as fast as I did I was not ready to get beaten especially if it was a girl who I can't hit.

Finally when I reached the airport Sakura was sitting down reading a book Tomoyo gave her. I walked slowly to her. "I've found you." I said and she turned to me with total shock. I sat down next to her. "You can go if you want but you have to tell me. I was worried." I said. She continued to read her book as if I was nothing. I frowned and looked at the window where the planes where taking off. "Well I'm sorry... I should have never slapped you." I said. She smiled. "You're forgiven. But I do have a right to keep things for myself. It's my life. I don't really need to share it with anyone... Not even Shinji." I was glad she got over him but I have a feeling there's going to be someone else in her life... again. I smiled and stood up. "Well hope you have a safe trip." I said as her flight was about to leave. "You know it feels like just when we were kids." She said. "Huh?" I said. She giggled. "Like when you left and I gave you that teddy bear... I bet you still have it too." She said as I smile. She went forward and hugged me tightly. I hugged her back. "Be safe okay?" I said. She nodded and gave me a peace sign and left. I smiled as I waved good-bye.

As Sakura's been gone Shinji's been leaving messages on the phone everyday. It's gets annoying hearing him saying that he needs to meet her somewhere. But I'd like to go meet him as Sakura and bring him to a dark aisle and beat him up. Oh that would be just heaven wouldn't it? But I can't I don't need any problems right now. Sakura told me that she would be coming back with Tomoyo a week late. She's enjoying here stay at London and said that she might be able to buy me something. I can't wait till I see her. Weeks will pass soon enough...

At night I couldn't help but not be able to sleep. It's hard for some reason. I got out of my bed and went to my kitchen and drank some water. I chocked since I drank too fast. I placed the cup on the table. "Hey-Hey-Hoo!!" Some little blurry golden thing popped in front of me. I rubbed my eyes. "Kero?" I said. He smiled. I looked at him. "What do you want?" I said. "Food?" He shook his head. "I came to stay here till Sakura comes!" He said happily. "You're sure in a mood... And why are you here at this time at night?" I asked. He shrugged. "Just did! I'll be in her room! Night!" He said and went to her room. "Hey!" I said but he closed the door. "Eriol must have kicked him out or something..." I said and headed for bed.

By morning I was cooking food for this beast. "Why do you eat when you don't need too?" I said. He shrugged. "For the humor." He said and continued to eat. "Man, no wonder Sakura doesn't want to live alone! You make good food!" Kero said continuing to eat at least 4 to 5 plates. I sighed and finally ate. The phone rang as Kero played with my X-box.

"Li speaking..." I said. It was Tomoyo.

"Hey Syaoran! Sakura's having a great time!!! And guess who we met!?" She said hardly screaming.

"Um... Who?" I said as I placed the phone in a far distance.

"The hottest guy model in Japan!!!" She said. I raised an eyebrow.

"And that would be...?" I asked. I heard Tomoyo sigh.

"Of course Rei Michiwa!! He's sexy and hot!" She said with a giggle. "But no worries I love Eriol more. He's the sexiest man I've ever seen! HOHOHHOHOHO!" She said. I a dropped popped out of my head.

"Niiiccceee..." I said. "So... is that the only reason you called...?"

"Course not!! He asked Sakura to work with him once we get back to Japan with him!! Sakura the model! HOHOHOHO!!" She said.

"A model?" I smiled. "Sounds great. Do you think Eriol and I could see her model?" I asked.

"Yep! I got us tickets already!! And they're letting me do some of the clothes!! They think I make great clothes!" Tomoyo paused for a second.

"Tomoyo are you still there?" I asked.

"Yeah... Well... Rei asked Sakura out on a date... Great... huh?" She said in a sad tone. I bet she could feel something was going to happen.

"I guess... So why the sad tone?" I asked.

"Rei already has a girlfriend. But that was only a rumor. I have no idea if it's true..." I nodded.

"I see..."

"We'll be back by two days from now! We're coming earlier! Gatta go. Bye." She said.

"Bye." I said as I hung up.

Kero screamed as he got shot. "MAN!!! I LOST!!! GRRR!!!" He said as he restarted the mission. I looked at him and went to my room. There I saw the little bear she gave me before I left her. It was a cute little bear. Yes, it was. I grabbed it from my self. Before it was a self that had pictures of me and Sakura. But then I placed pictures of me and Eri. But the bear stayed there where I left it. I held the bear with my hands. "Sakura..." I said. I placed it on the desk near me and lay on my bed. I've been thinking too much about Sakura lately. I can't help it. It's so annoying. Why do I keep thinking about her? I turned and fell fast asleep.

Today's the day Sakura and Tomoyo return. I waited with Eriol, Kero, Sakura's family and Tomoyo's mom at the airport. When we saw them everyone ran to them except me. I walked to them slowly. Everyone gave each other hugs and kisses to the two girls. Finally when they were talking to Tomoyo Sakura and I were left. Sakura walked to me and gave me a hug. I hugged her back as if she was leaving me again. She pulled me to the window where the airplanes were she looked so happy. It was the happiest smile I've ever seen since and it wasn't fake. No, it wasn't fake...

"Syaoran... you know Rei asked me out..." She said happily.

"Um... that's great. You guys sound like a great couple. I would say look but I have no idea who he is." I said. Sakura giggled.

"Rei's nice. He's not like Shinji. He's not going to hurt me..." She said with some blush on her cheeks.

"Yeah... not physically... I hope." I said quiet enough for her not to hear.

"Hey! You know what!! Let's go flying! It's been a while since I went flying..." She said. I raised my eyebrow.

"But you just left the airplane..." I said.

"No! With my fly card... I miss just feeling the breeze... Wanna come with me? I can't ask Rei... You know." She said.

"Um... okay." I said.

At night Sakura and I went out in the air. It was really beautiful. I held tight on Sakura. "I miss this so much..." Sakura said. I nodded. Sakura's cell phone rang. "Hello?" She said. "Tomoyo! Oh hey..." Sakura listened on the phone. "Eh? Why? But he might not come..." She said. She paused. "Him?" She turned to me then turned back. "I'll ask... Hey Syaoran wanna got shopping with me and Tomoyo?" I shook my head quickly. I knew that if I came hell was going to follow me once I'd enter the mall with these two. Sakura sighed. "He said no..." She said sadly trying to make me feel bad. "Yeah I know... We'll ask him... Fine... I'm flying right now... Yeah okay bye." She said and hung up. "Sorry..." I said. She shook her head. "It's okay. We got someone else to come." She said. "Who?" I asked. "Rei."

For the past 2 weeks Rei was the only thing that Sakura would talk about. It was Rei this, Rei that. It was driving me CRAZY! And I'm serious. But I'm happy at the same time. I can finally see that Sakura's truly happy again. She's been smiling non-stop! Sometimes I could hear her singing in the shower. Even her dates are going great. She told me once that he brought her to the most romantic restaurant she's ever been in. Tomoyo sometimes like to follow her on the dates. But she always gets away before she could get caught by Sakura or Rei. I'm quite happy myself. Everything's going great except my love life. But usually girls come to me. None of them interest me... Hmm... But I'll find someone soon. I'm sure of it...

"Syaoran!!" Sakura yelled from the bathroom as she knocked on the door. "I NEED T-TO GO!!! BADLY!!!

"HOLD ON!" I said. But Sakura had accidentally opened the door seeing me completely naked.

Both of us were red as a beat.

"Ehehehee..." She said not moving. I stared at her not even daring to say anything. "S-Sorry?" She said.

I snapped to reality and grabbed a towel covering my bottom. Sakura then shut the door.

"SORRY!" She said from the outside.

"I-It's okay..." I said.

I quickly changed and thought how that was unexpected. "How humiliating..." I said still quite red. I bet Sakura felt humiliated too though... I guess. But she wasn't the one naked though. I'm more humiliated then! I got out of the shower as Sakura quickly ran in doing her business. I sighed and dried my hair with my towel and saw Kero in the living room playing with my X-box again. "What are you doing here now?!" I said. He grinned. "Sakura let me visit her! I'll be leaving by tomorrow for Tomoyo's house!" He said. I winced and got a glass of water. He could be such a free loaner ever since he got released from the book. He doesn't have to eat and yet he eats. He could make or get his own home and yet he lives in our homes! Sakura came out of the bathroom looking happy. "Whew..." She said and saw me. "Eh... Sorry..." She said scratching her head. "It's okay... Really." I said. I sat down on the couch as Sakura grabbed two plates of cake in the refrigerator.

"Here ya go!" She said handing a cake to me and Kero.

"Thanks!" Kero said eating his food monstrously.

"Eh... Thanks but no thanks." I said.

"Why? It tastes good." She said.

"YEAH!!!! WHHOO CAKE!" Kero said getting hyper. "MORE, MORE, MORE!" Sakura and I sweatdropped.

"Are you sure Syaoran?" She asked. I nodded. "Well get some if you like I'll save some for you before he eats them all." She said giving Kero the cake.

"CAKE!!! YUMM!! BRAT YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE MISSING!!!" He said.

"I'll get some later..." I said as I watched him eat the piece of cake in less than 3 bites.

Sakura sat down the other couch and ate her cake as I watch Kero beat my high scores. Eventually we all started to play. Kero had beaten us all on the games. But revenge came greatly once I played again. "AW MAN!!!" Kero said as he lost again. "Heh, now that's skills." I said with a smirk. "WELL HOW BOUT A REAL FIGHT BRAT?!" He said turning to his real form. "H-HEY!!!" I said as I noticed. "KERO!" Sakura yelled. "STOP THAT!" Kero turned back. "Aw Sakura!!" He said. "That's not very nice. Just because you're the visitor it doesn't mean you could be trashing about!" Sakura said. "Come on... Let's got to bed now." She said calming down. "Okay..." Kero said following her but made a face before he completely left to her room.

I didn't feel like going to bed yet so I just went out of the building doing something that I rarely do which was smoking or doing something so unhealthy. I just needed to smoke. It's been a while since I last smoked. I quietly opened the package and got my lighter. I slowly inhaled it and blew it out making some O's (A/n: I think that's possible... I remember my uncle making some one time...). The door suddenly opened. It was Sakura.

"Sakura?" I said about to drop the cigarette.

"You smoke?" She asked. I shook my head.

"Not really. This has been only the second time. And I only do it when I really need it." I said.

"Oh... Just don't do it too much okay?" She said. I nodded. (A/n: Yes, please don't smoke you guys… Try to stay healthy. )

"How come you're here and still awake?" I asked.

She shrugged. "Dunno. Went to check on you. But you weren't there. So went out for some fresh air..." She said.

"Do you do that often?" I asked. She nodded. "That's not safe... If you want fresh air go open you're window or wake me up..." I said. She nodded.

"You know Syaoran... Everytime I've with Rei I feel like the happiest girl." She said. There she was starting about conversation with the name Rei.

I smiled. "I'm glad. Coz' whenever you're sad you're friends and family are sad too." I said patting her head. Sakura smiled.

"But--" My wristwatch beeped. "Eh?" She said.

"It's really late. Time for bed Sakura. And remember about what I told you." I said as we went back to the apartment.

"Okay big brother." She said hugging me. "I'm so happy I got two brothers and my parents watching over me..." She then let go and went to her room. "I'm glad too..." I said as I shut the door and left for my own room. I'm so glad.

A/n: Hey readers!! I hoped you enjoyed the first chapter of my new fic!!! Please don't forget to R/R. I'll be writing again at the next chapter!! Bye!!