Summary: Sakura and Syaoran do get together but they end up breaking up. Sakura tries hard to find a better man but every time she gets too close she ends up getting hurt. (This fic will mostly be Syaoran's Point of view.)
"She'll be loved by me"
I woke up and stretched as I turned off my alarm. I got out of bed and got our breakfast ready. But I've almost forgotten my guest. "FOOD!? IS THAT FOOD?!" He said. "Could you like get away... You could make me mess up..." He said. "Mmmm! OKAY! ANYTHING FOR FOOD" He said getting the table ready. Although he maybe quite a nuisance he could be helpful. I finished making pancakes and placed them on our plates. "SAKURA!!" I yelled. "Breakfast is ready!" Sakura came out of her door. "Morning..." She said yawning. "Sakura!! These pancakes are great!" Kero said. "Oh wow! Pancakes! I haven't had those for a while." Sakura said taking a seat. She got the strawberry syrup and took a bite off her plate. "Yum..." She said. "These are great..." She said with a yawn. I smiled. "Maybe you shouldn't go out that much in the middle of the night." I said. She shook her head. "It's okay. I'm old enough... It's nice to have you as my brother but I could totally watch over myself." She said. I gave a half smile. "If you say so..." I said as I ate my breakfast.As we all finished breakfast we dropped off Kero to Tomoyo's house but just to see Tomoyo mostly. When Tomoyo spotted Sakura she quickly brought her to her closet and gave her some clothes for Sakura to try for the modeling. I had almost forgotten about that. Everything goes by so quickly that you never notice that things changed. Sakura had first tried a feathery dress. And when I said feathery I meant really feathery. It was all pink feathers. But the shoes only had one feather on each side and she had to wear a strange feathery hair band. "It looks kinda... weird." I said. Tomoyo nodded. "Yeah... I think I'm starting to lose it..." Tomoyo said sadly. "Don't worry Tomoyo... There's still more." Sakura said putting on a smile. Tomoyo then smiled too. The other clothes Sakura wore did turn out to be better. It ended up being a bad start but a great ending. Tomoyo was happy that she wasn't losing her touch on making clothes. She even made one for Sakura just to wear on a very, very special situation. But it ended up being on a box. Tomoyo told her not to even try to make a peep in it unless she was finally going to use it on her very, very special situation.
When we left the house Sakura and I thought about going to get some lunch out. When got there we took a table near the door ordered some food. It was really great. It had been a while since us two had fast food or something unhealthy to eat. We've always been trying to eat healthy but a healthy body sometimes needs some treats after all the hard work on staying fit. After we finished our cheeseburgers we thought of ordering some milkshakes or something. Sakura ended up ordering for a strawberry milkshake as I ordered a chocolate milkshake. When I've gotten our milkshakes I carefully tried to make sure not a single thing dropped. But just then when I almost reached the table someone comes in scream.
"WAHHH!!! WATCH OUT!!!" She yelled as he was getting closer toward me. I sweatdropped and didn't move. The girl looked like it was her first day on learning how to roller blade. And I bet that she accidentally went down hill and came here now screaming at me to get out and yet I don't move. The girl had short black hair and looked like she was some sorta tomboy. "Syaoran?" Sakura said not hearing or noticing the girl coming toward me. Just when Sakura was about to stand up the girl collapsed on me causing me to drop our milkshakes and making one land on my head. The girl was now on my back making us look like we were forming a cross. Sakura noticed the chocolate milkshake spilled on my nose and wiped it off. "Mmmm... Chocolate." She said with a giggle. I carefully got out off the girl and stood up wiping some of the chocolate on me. "Hey are you okay?" I asked. She looked like she was still dizzy from the wild ride. I bent down and look at her. She blinked a couple of times and sighed. "Eh?" She said. I looked at her with a little daze. I couldn't help but give her a dazed look.
She stood up and licked her lips. I then too stood up. "Yummy! Strawberry!!" She said. A worker came in the picture looking quite angry. "You not know ob dee sign ont me door? Sign say no ish bladerolling, boarding dee skate, ank scukering." He said pointing at the sigh. "Eh... Sorry... Mr. ... Mr. Tomo?" She said. "Take dee bladerollerin shoes ank buy a food. You better no try dee bladerolling aken. I hub dee ears of an elephant ank eyes like a moose. I hub dee strength ob a dog! HAHAHA!" He said. All three of us sweatdropped. "Um okay..." She said as she took off her skates and put on her shoes. "Oh!" She said as she noticed me. "Eh... It seems like I bumped into you..." She said as she noticed that I still had some chocolate on me. "Well I'll be glad to pay for those shakes... I have plenty of money..." She said. "W-well... eh...ahem... S-sureee...." I said feeling all weird. I could see that Sakura was smirking. "Okay then. One strawberry..." She came close to him and grabbed a sample off his face. "And one chocolate!" She said. As she ordered it with her own milkshake. She then carefully brought the milkshake to us and took hers ready to leave.
"Hey don't you want to join us?" Sakura asked. She smiled.
"Sure!" She said taking the seat between me and Sakura. "Sorry about bumping into you."
I shook my head. "It's o-okay... Y-yoou...look-ed like you-you were o-outa con-troll..." I said. I coughed.
"Um... Okay." Oh I felt so weird. It was like the feeling I had when I would be near Sakura before.
"My name's Sakura and he's Syaoran but he'd prefer to be called Li. What's yours?" Sakura asked.
"Shinell. But call me Shiny or Nell. Everyone calls me one of those." She said slurping on her vanilla milkshake.
"Cool! I have a new friend." Sakura said smiling. Shinell smile just like Sakura.
"Me too. Hey!! I have two new friends now!! You're my friend too right Li?" She asked.
"Uh... eh... I... Ahem... Y-Yeshhh??" I said. She and Sakura looked and me strangely. But then Sakura laughed.
"What's so funny?" I asked talking normal. Sakura shook her head. "I'll tell you when we get home." She said. Shinell smirked.
"Wow! You two are a couple? I had a feeling you guys were... You look so cute together too." She said. Just then everything became quiet. Shinell looked in confusion. "Did I say something wrong?" She asked.
"Well we're not together..." Sakura said. "Well not anymore." She said.
"Yeah... Plus she has a new boyfriend." I said.
"Oh... Sorry." She said and stood up.
"Hey! Where're you going?" Sakura said standing up herself.
"Have to go somewhere really important... Well see you guys around town." She said.
"Hey could I get your number though?" Sakura asked. Shinell took out a pen and a napkin and wrote her whole name with her number and address and waved good-bye.
Soon on both of us soon left after we finished out shakes. "She's nice huh?" Sakura said as we walked out. "Well yeah... Seemed like some sorta tomboy though..." I said. "I think she's cute." I looked at her weirdly. "I'm not a lesbian... I have a boyfriend... Gosh..." Sakura said. "What?? I didn't say anything..." I said glumly. "But I knew you were thinking about that though." She said. "Great now you're a mind reader." I said. "What am I thinking about now?" I said. Sakura smile. "Hmm... You're thinking about Shinell... And you want to ask her out! Well here's her number!" She said handing me the napkin. "HEY!" I said blushing a bit. Sakura stopped. "W-what?" I asked. "It's been a while since you blushed like that. I don't even think you blushed like that when Eri came by when you were together..." Sakura said. I raised an eyebrow. "So...?" I said. "Nothing..." She said and continued to walk. Sakura got a head of me by a few feet. Was she mad at me? Should I bother to go near her? Something felt wrong. But I just can't put my finger on it. Sakura's phone started to ring then she answered. "Hello?" She said and paused. "WHAT?! I don't have the... Oh gosh!! Okay... I'll ask him though... Hehe. Yeah if he does I will... Okay then... Bye." Sakura said. "Who was it?" I asked. "Tomoyo she said to come over at this photo shot like five blocks away from here. You wanna come? Eriol's going to be lonely... Well not really. There'll be lots of girls. And plus you need to get yourself a new girlfriend." Sakura said. "Um okay..." I said. "Great!! All the girls there are models and I bet they'll fall for you quickly. You are a great looker." She said. "Naw I think I'll wear this..." I said putting on my fake glasses. I would always wear it whenever I would be around a lot of girls. Sakura shook her head. "Fine it's your choice."
When we reached there I went with Eriol as we watched the girls take pictures in the latest clothes. Most of the clothes were made by Tomoyo and they were all great. But then there was this model that kept making me think for some reason. She looked really, really familiar. Maybe she was one of the girls my mom introduced to me when I broke up with Eri or Sakura. But it couldn't be... Then I realized it was Shinell. Shinell was looking like a real girl not like some tomboy. She looked like those normal models. She looked so different. When they were done taking all the shots I caught up to her. "Hey!" I said. Shinell looked at me in confusion. "Do I know you?" She asked. "Yeah it's me Syaoran Li from the restaurant." I said. She gave a surprised and nervous smile. "Ehehehee... Hey." She said. "What's wrong??" I asked. "How come you're here?" She asked. "Sakura's a model... And plus the designer of the clothes is another friend of mine." I said. "Oh... Well... bet you thought that a girl dressed up like a guy could turn out like a model." She said. I smiled. "How come you're wearing those glasses?" She asked. "Well sometimes I just prefer to not be noticed. Plus I had a lot of girls chasing me a lot before... So I got this as my other look." I said. For some reason she started to grabbed my glasses off me. "W-what is y-you doing?" I asked. "You looked better without glasses..." She said as she took them completely off.
All the models turned to me and Shinell. "Whoo!! Shin has such a cute boyfriend!" On of the models said. "Oh damn Nell!! You're so lucky to get a hottie like him!!" Another one said. I could feel my facing burning up but Shinell just stared at her friends as if she had no clue of what they were just saying to her. I turned to my group of my friends and I could just see her, I could see Sakura smiling. Does she think I'm actually going to be with her? Ugh... I'm pissed off and I fucking have no fucking idea why! So I marched outside and slammed it hard. All the people behind me were quiet once I left. Then I saw Shinell coming out. Of all the people coming out she came out. I wish someone came out... like Sakura. I sat down on the bench where she sat down next to me. We didn't say anything for a minutes but I cut off the silence.
"Why are you following me?" I said in an almost angry tone. She didn't look at me.
"Well... I just had to, you know. That was mean of them. But they don't know anything... It's okay." She said.
I didn't want to reply. Why would I reply and if I did what would I say? She sighed and stood up in front of me.
"I gatta go... I still have to change from this outfit." She said. I looked at her as she smiled. At that moment we just looked at each other. I looked at her calming blue eyes. It looked like water just water I could swim in and fall in... Once I blinked she came down on me hard. I looked at her and placed her on the bench. "Hey... Shinell? Shinell???" I checked her pulse. "HUH?! THERE'S NO PULSE!!" I said.
I didn't know just what to do. Just when I was going to get help she stood up like she came back from the dead. She rubbed her head. "Huh? Did I do it again?" She said. I looked at her in total surprise. "Did you just rise from the dead coz' you didn't have a pulse earlier!!" I said. "Oh... Well... I seem to daze or faint like that... I've always been like that... Hehe. And that's also the reason why I made you lose those two shakes." She said. "You mean you were skating and you fainted or something?!" I said. She nodded as if it was nothing. "You should get medicine or something!!" I said. "It's okay. I'm just really fragile. Sometimes I over do what I'm doing and just faint. I get tired easily. "She said."Come on I'll walk you home okay...?" I said. "Um... Okay." She said.
While Shinell got her stuff packed in Sakura planned leave with Tomoyo and Eriol. There at Tomoyo's house I will pick her up. I think I even saw Sakura and Rei kissing at a corner where hardly anyone, except me, saw them. I was full of disgust. How rude can they get? Kissing... Just here where there is a possibility of everyone spotting them. I spotted them why didn't anyone else notice? Will Sakura turn out bad if she continues to date Rei? I over heard one of the models saying that Sakura and Rei were spotting at a club. And who knows what he could have done to her! They could have done it or something... Shinell jumped in front of me.
"Hey!" She said. I smiled. "You smile a lot for a guy." She said as we walked out. "There's nothing bad about smiling." I said. "Yeah..." She said. "So Sakura and you aren't together?" She asked. I shook my head. "You know Rei right?" I asked. She nodded. "They're together?" She said. "Yes." I said. She remained quiet. "I see." She said. "Is this it?" I asked. She nodded as I stared at the mansion. It was almost as big as mine. "Nice mansion." I said. She smiled. "It was hard to get it but here it is all mine. Want to come in? It gets really lonely. I always thought of getting some butler or maid as a company but who knows it could be some killer." She said. "Well sure." I said as I went through her gate.
When I entered the house I took off my shoes as she did. I gazed in the huge mansion with all these fancy designs. "Wow... fancy..." I said. She looked in gaze in her own mansion. "I know... this is like the 5th time I've actually been in here..." She said. "Really?" I said. She nodded. "I didn't come in living her till all the decorating was done and it still amazes me." She giggled. "Well if you get lost don't ask me for directions. I'm still exploring this place. All I know is the back yard, front yard, my bedroom, kitchen, and living room." She said. "Well... that's okay." I said. "Do you want anything to drink or something before you leave?" She asked. I shook my head. "Are you sure?" She asked. "No thank you please." I said. "I'll bring an extra cup just in case." She said. I sat down on her living room couch.
Shinell came back with a pot of tea and two cups. She placed the tea on the table and a tea cup in from of both of us. "So..." I said not knowing what to say. "Do you usually just dress up like a tomboy?" I hit myself once I said that knowing that was wrong. "Um... It's okay you don't have to hit yourself..." She said. "Well I just usually dress like this... Well I've always dressed like this. I can't help it I was raised in a family full of boys. My mom died when she tried to give birth to me and I got stuck with my dad and my 5 brothers." She said. "Oh... I'm sorry about that." I said. "It's okay." She said as she poured some tea on my cup and hers. "Um... Thank you..." I said as I took a sip. "Wow great tea..." I said. She nodded. "Thanks." After a few hours I left for home. It was about 10pm when I got there. Sakura fell asleep on the couch while the TV was on.
I shook her softly. "Hey sleepy head..." I said as I noticed she opened her eyes. "Touya?" She said. I smiled. "Not really..." I said. "Come on I'll carry you to bed." Sakura got on my arms like she was some overgrown baby. I slowly placed her under her bed sheets and took a chair to just look at her. "Hey Sakura..." I whispered. "I sorry I came home so late. But I had such a great time with Shinell." I said. She put on a sleepy smile but kept her eyes closed. "I was thinking about what you said..." I said. "But I don't think I could do it... Do you think something's holding me back?" I sighed. This was hopeless talking to a sleeping person. "I think you should ask her on a date..." She said gazing at me with her sleepy eyes. I smiled at her as she gave me advice. "I think you should go ask her on a date... Or maybe you're just not ready to go on another relationship. I felt like that before... Everytime something happened with my relationship... I felt like there was no use trying to find another one... Until... Until I found Rei... Someday I'm going to be his wife..." She said and fell asleep. I tucked her in the bed and kissed her forehead like a father would do to his own child. "Good-night." I said as I shut her door.
I lay on my bed just thinking again. I tossed and turned on my bed trying to just get some Z's. I got out of my bed in defeat. I just couldn't stop thinking. My head felt like it was going to explode. I sighed and thought of getting an old friend of mine when I was down and needed someone to talk to. I pulled out my drawer and opened my journal. It had been a few years since I opened it. I searched for a pen and soon I started to write on the book again just like before...
Dear Journal,
Yes, I know it had been quite a while since I wrote on you. I think the last time I did was when Sakura and I broke up. Well I got another girlfriend after Sakura. Her name was Eri. And you know what? I broke up with her coz' she was using me. But that's okay. It's been like I think a year since Eri and I broke up. And Sakura's now a model and finally has a boyfriend. She isn't having trouble with boys anymore. I guess I could trust that Rei. But he will get a serious beating if we find out he hurts Sakura. Touya and I might even double team him. Well enough about Sakura... I met this girl today named Shinell Niagara. She's also a model. Wow I think I'm starting to go for those famous people or something!
I stared at the last sentence I shook my head. Why would I say something like that? I want to know her... I don't need to know her. I like her... But she's nothing to me. I wanna see her... I don't wanna talk to her. What the hell am I saying? I want to know her. I want to like her. I want to see her... I need to talk to her. I placed the book away and got the napkin she gave Sakura. "Shinell..." I said. I got my cell phone and dialed the number. I waited for an answer. What was I doing? She wouldn't be awake. It's almost 12am! I must be going crazy or something. What the hell? I should stop. But why doesn't my hand hang up or something?
"Hello?" It was Shinell. I gulped and shook my head. When I was about to speak she said something. "Please leave a message! Don't forget your to also leave your name, phone number, and if you want your address after the beep! Bye." She said. The sound of a beep came on the phone. I hesitated and hung up. What was wrong with me? What was wrong with me? I took a deep breath and redialed. "Hello?" I said after the beep. "Hey Shinell... It's me Syaoran Li. It's really late to call you but I was wondering... You want to go out with me or something?" I paused. Who was I kidding? Why would she want to go out in a date with me? I sighed. "Um... you know what... err... never mind. I'm saying crazy stuff right now... Sorry for wasting your time... Bye." I said and hung up. I went to bed and shut my eyes. I just wanted to sleep. I just wanted sleep... and to forget everything around me.... Everything...
A/n: Sooo...? How was it you guys?? Was it a good chapter?? Please, please continue to review and I'll update A.S.A.P. Well I gatta go!! R/R!! Oh and do any of you have any suggestions on a better title??
