A/N: Hey all sorry it's been a while since i updated but i was on ho;iday for a week. Hope you enjoy the new chapter, please review and let me know what you think. I will be starting the sequel to Child of mine soon and i'm working on a couple of other stories too so look out for them.

Chapter 5: First Date

That Saturday Buffy was excitedly throwing her essentials into an overnight bag. It was noon and her mother would be picking her up any minute. But her excitement wasn't really due to the fact that she would see her mom, sure she was glad about that, but she was hyper about her date with Spike that night. Anya had begged her to tell him the truth but she decided to wait and see how things went first. She had just put the last of her things in her bag when there was a soft knock at the door. She turned around and smiled happily at the sight of her mother in the doorway

"Mommy" she exclaimed running to hug her "oh my gosh, I've missed you so much"

Joyce hugged her back and smiled at her daughter "I've missed you too honey. How have you been?"

"I'm ok. Doing better" Buffy told her

"That's good. Ready to go" Buffy nodded yes and ran to pick her bag up off the bed. They walked slowly to where her mother's car was parked, updating each other on how they had been and what was new in their lives. Buffy slid into the passenger seat while her mother went around to the other side and got it.

"So" Joyce said once she was behind the wheel "what do you want to do today?"

"Oh, Oh mall" Buffy squealed happily Joyce gave her daughter a surprised look. It had been a while since her daughter wanted to go clothes shopping, after all she had been through she had lost interest. She looked at her again and then started to enquire about the change in her behaviour

"Alright Buffy Spill"

"Spill what?" asked Buffy in her most innocent voice

"Buffy you haven't wanted to step foot in a mall since all of this started, why now? Because honey, you seem ok to me just now, but you suffer depression so I know you still have bad days. But why the happiness all of a sudden and trips to the mall" she asked sternly

"Alright, alright" Buffy huffed "if you must know I met a guy. He's really nice and I have a date with him tonight" she told her mother dreamily

Joyce looked worried and voiced her concerns

"Buffy, I don't know if that's such a great idea. Your last relationship was bad. You are still getting over that, I'm not sure if you are ready to get involved with anyone"

"Mom, you don't have to tell me how bad my relationship was, I remember it. But I need to move on, and I think Spike can help me do that. I really like him and I at least want to try. I will be okay" she reassured

"And how does he feel about your condition, your past?" Buffy looked away guiltily, avoiding her mother's look

"Buffy" Joyce demanded

"He doesn't know."

"Buffy, how can he not know, you are in a hospital so I am assuming that is where you met" Joyce ranted

"Yes it is, but he thinks I volunteer. But I swear mom, if things go well tonight I'm going to tell him I swear. I already promised Anya. If things work out I'll tell him tonight" she swore Joyce merely sighed and nodded

"Well, I guess we are going to the mall"

Buffy and Joyce spent the next three hours going through every store in the mall to find the perfect outfit for Buffy. She didn't know if it would be somewhere fancy or somewhere casual, so she looked for something neutral. By the time they had been to every store. Buffy decided that she had found the perfect outfit. Unfortunately, it had been in the first store she visited. With a groan Joyce followed her back to the store where they then purchased the outfit. Joyce didn't mind too much though, it was the first time she had seen Buffy truly happy in a long time.

At seven Spike was standing outside Buffy's door, he was very nervous and therefore had yet to ring the doorbell. He stood for a moment taking deep breaths to calm his nerves before ringing the bell. The door was answered almost immediately by an attractive older woman, with long golden hair who he assumed must be Buffy's mother. He smiled at her.

"Hi, you must be Spike. I'm Joyce Buffy's mom" she introduced herself

"Hi, it's nice to meet you Ms Summers" he greeted

"Please call me Joyce" she insisted "come through to the sitting room. Buffy should be down in a few minutes"

Spike nodded and followed her into the other room. He stood awkwardly looking around his surroundings and became lost In his thoughts, he was surprised to hear the sound of Joyce's voice

"So, Spike, what is that you do for a living?" she asked

"Oh, I design web sites. Been doing it for about two years since I finished college" he said

"That sounds interesting. So you met Buffy at the hospital I hear"

"Yeah, my sister she's sick. I was visiting her and I literally bumped into your daughter. Liked her ever since" he admitted shyly

"Oh that is so. Oh here she is" she exclaimed

Spike turned around to see Buffy standing by the door. He was speechless. She looked fantastic

"I, um didn't know where we were going so" she blushed

"You look great pet" he told her She was wearing a beige coloured suede skirt that sat at her knees and had a bit of a flare to it. It was teamed with a cream silk peasant blouse, and cream strappy sandals. Her make up was done natural in earthy tones. And her hair was also very simple, left mostly down with some pulled back from her face and held with a clip at the back of her head. It was simple but elegant. And she looked great.

"Thanks" she blushed again "so um, where are we going?"

"Well, I was thinking there is a great little bistro I know, not too fancy but not shabby either. That sound good?" he suggested

"Sounds perfect" she smiled

"Well ok then. We should get going"

"Ok" she walked over and kissed her mom on the cheek "I'll see you later mom. Have a nice night"

"You too. Both of you" Joyce called as they left the house.

It was a short drive to the bistro and it was filled with easy conversation about books, television and whatever else they felt like talking about. Sitting in the restaurant, having just been served their meals Buffy was the first to speak

"So, how is your sister doing?"

"Not sure. She has good days and bad days. On the good days she's like the person she used to be, before it all happened. On the bad days, she's like a stranger. She can be scary, and I don't know what to do about it" he confided Buffy sympathised with him, she could tell he was hurting about the situation, but she wanted to know everything about him

"I hope you don't mind me asking, but what was it like before? What were your lives like"

"I don't mind you asking Buffy" he assured her "I just don't normally talk about it. Might do me good though. When we were younger it was great. Dru and I we were always close. There was only two years between us but I was the typical big brother and did everything I could to protect her. Our folks were great. Hardly ever fought. They genuinely loved one another until death did they part and all that rot" he laughed

"Anyway, Dru, she was so full of life. She loved doing all the girly things, like dancing and sleepovers and everything. She always had crushes on my friends and I was always teasing her about it. But at the same time we could tell each other anything. We were each other's confidante'" he reminisced

"That sounds great" she said softly

"It was, but things changes. Things are what they are for a reason and I'll keep trying to help her. Because somewhere in there the sister I knew still exists"

Buffy ran a comforting hand up his arm. They ate the rest of their meal talking about all manner of things, but Buffy made a point of changing the subject if her past relationships came up.

After the meal they found themselves walking along the pier hand in hand. Spike watched the way her hair blew around in the breeze and thought it was a breathtaking sight. Suddenly he came to a halt

"You know" he started "we have talked about me and my life tonight. Tell me something about yours"

Buffy was afraid at the request, simply was because the memories of her life scared her, but she tried to think of something happy

"Oh well, I have a sister too, I meant to tell you about that. Her name is Dawn, she's seventeen. She lives with my mom, but she's staying with friends this weekend which is why she isn't here" she informed her companion

"That's nice tell me more" he prodded

"Well, I remember that when we were younger we used to walk along this pier in the summertime with mom. We loved it. We loved the fair rides they had sometimes, don't have them much now. Sometimes we would bring picnics in the evening when it was quiet but still light and warm out. We would sit and just talk it was great" she told him.

Spike smiled and wished he could have seen her then. Seen her so carefree, because part of her always seemed reserved around him. Buffy was also aware of this but she had every intention of changing that. They walked for another few minutes before Buffy stopped. Before he got a chance to say anything she leaned in to plan a lingering kiss on his lips. He looked at her in amazement as she leaned in again, this time she granted his tongue entrance almost immediately. He was a great kisser, and Buffy was getting very into it, however Spike pulled back

"Spike, what's wrong?" she asked

"I don't know really. Buffy I really like you but I need to know what this is to you. I don't want a one time thing Buffy, I'm not that kind of guy, never have been. I won't start now" he told her

"Well, me either. Look Spike I don't know what you want, but I know what you want" she walked closer to him and ran a hand down his chest and placed her hand over the bulge in his pants "and I think you want the same thing. Spike none of us can predict the future. But I want to live in the moment. Neither of us knows how long we have, and I want to live my life while I can and it's you that has helped me see that. I'm gonna take my happiness when I see it right in front of me" she told him

Spike looked into her eyes and saw only certainty there so, he leaned down once again attaching his lips to hers, she pulled back a minute later

"Take me to your place "she whispered He led her back a long the pier to where his car was parked. The drive was made in relative silence. Both thinking about what was about to happen.

When they arrived at Spike's apartment fifteen minutes later he led her in, once inside the door Buffy kissed him, it was slow and passionate, she wanted to show him that she was sure about what she wanted, and show him how much she wanted him. He broke away from the kiss and took her by the hand, leading her through to the bedroom. Standing by the foot of the bed their lips met once again in a slow but passionate kiss, he ran his fingers softly down her arms and over to the hem of her top. He pulled it slowly up over her head. Buffy mimicked his movements to remove his shirt. Spike kissed his way down her neck to her collar bone. Continuing down to the top of her breasts. He kissed and sucked there for a moment before reaching around and un- clasping her bra. He continued to kiss her breasts while massaging them with his hands. He then continued downwards caressing her body with his hands while kissing over her tummy. He reached his arms around and caressed her back for a moment. Continuing to lavish attention on her tummy. He then moved his hands down to unzip her skirt and gently pull it down until it pooled around her feet and she stepped out of it.

He lowered her slowly back onto the bed and moved up to kiss her again. The kisses continued to stay lingering, but increasingly passionate. Tongues soon fighting foe dominance. He reached down between kisses to slide her panties off, before working his way down her body again. When he reached her crotch He licked her from bottom to top parting her lips with his tongue. He repeated this action a few times before bringing his tongue up to circle her clit. This soon had Buffy thrusting her hips in order to intensify the feeling. Spike delighted in the sounds of pleasure she made and smiled into her mound,

He added another finger and pumped them steadily in and out all the while sucking on her clit. She was writhing in pleasure. After a few minutes she was panting heavily until she fell over the edge moaning loudly, her muscles clamping around Spike's fingers

"oh my god" she gasped as he body shook with the power of the orgasm. After she relaxed a bit Spike pulled his fingers out over her and moved up to meet her in a fiery kiss after pulling away he looked at her and asked "You okay luv"

She nodded "I'm brilliant" before leaning in to kiss him again. She rolled them over so that she was leaning over them and worked her way down. She sat up and unbuttoned his jeans, she then slowly released the zipper and slowly and leisurely slid his jeans down his legs.

She grasped his hard length in his hand and stroked it a few times before working her way back up his body. They kissed more heatedly and he rolled them over again, so that he once again lay above her. They continued to kiss and broke away panting hard, she leaned up once more grasping his head to kiss him, more slowly this time, loving and romantic as he positioned himself at her entrance. The kiss never broke as he began to push into her. He pushed in slowly allowing her to adjust to the feel of him. At the moment she felt him seated completely she had never felt so filled. It just felt right. It was like something she had never felt before. And Spike was having very similar thoughts. He felt at home surrounded by her heat. After a moment he began to thrust slowly in and out of her. Buffy met him thrust for thrust and they found a steady rhythm. There was no rush for the experience to be over, they were both enjoying the pleasure they were finding in each other in that moment, each of them feeling the connection between them. A series of moans escaped Buffy's lips as she met Spike's thrusts. They continued at the slow pace for a few moments until both felt their releases nearing. Spike sped up his thrust never breaking the rhythm they had found, he leaned in and kissed as he moved his hand between them to find her aching clit. He stroked it gently as they continued to thrust and after a moment she fell over the edge gasping his name

"oh god, Spike" she panted Spike thrusted a few more times before following her over the edge her name on his lips "Buffy" he gasped

They were still for a moment, simply staring into each others eyes, when they had caught their breath, Spike leaned in and kissed her softly, but passionately on the lips.

"That was great" she said softly

"You were great" he murmured in her ear. He gave hera peck on the forehead before rolling off of her and taking her in his arms.

They lay in peaceful silence for a few minutes before Buffy started to speak

"Spike, there's something I need to tell you" she started

"Yeah, I need to tell you something too, Buffy, I know I haven't known you very long but, I want you to know hat I don't just want sex from you. I like you a lot. And I want you to know that you're already special to me. I could really fall in love with you" he admitted softly to her

Suddenly she couldn't tell him what she had intended to, she was going to but those were not the words that came from her lips

"I feel the same way. In fact I think I already am. Falling in love with you I mean" she said

A smile lit up Spike's face and he kissed her again pulling her close to him

"Good, me too. So I guess we can agree on something. Let's get some sleep, we are going to need a lot of energy for what I have planned for the morning" he informed her with a wolfish grin

She returned his smile and wrapped her arms tighter around him closing her eyes, both falling quickly into a deep and contented sleep.