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Chapter 6: Early Mornings

The next morning Buffy awoke to a soft kiss being placed on her lips. She opened her eyes to see herself still wrapped lovingly in Spike's arms. For the first time in a long while she felt safe and loved and whole. She twisted a little to face him completely, kissing him as she did

"Good morning" she breathed

"Morning" he smiled back "how are you?"

"I'm good, really good" she told him

"Well I'm glad, because I have to say I feel great myself" he leaned down and placed a soft kiss on top of her head, holding her tightly to him

"What time is it?" she asked

"Um, it's 6.30" he said

"I can't stay much longer, my mom will kill me" she sighed regretfully

"Buffy you're a big girl, you can stay out at night." He insisted

"I know" she started "it's just that my mom isn't here very often so she really wanted to spend time together. That's why she came so she'll be annoyed if I'm not around" she struggled to fin a good explanation but he seemed to buy this one

"Ok, well, I guess I'll just need to make the most of you for the next hour or so" Spike grinned

"Well, I guess you will" she purred as she leaned towards him. Their lips met in a passionate kiss and spike rolled them so that Buffy was laying on her back again with him over her. They continued to kiss until they needed to breath. When they pulled apart, Spike kissed his way down to her neck and continued the trail down to her breasts. He then started to work his way further down her body and was surprised to feel her stop him by placing a hand on his arm to pull him up. He looked at her questioningly, but she only smiled at him and pushed him onto his back. She placed a kiss on his lips and them proceeded to kiss the same trail down his body that he had to her just moments before. She kissed down his sculptured chest, delighting in the way his muscles flexed under her touch. She sat up after a few moments and reached down to take his erection in her hand. She stroked slowly up and down in a steady rhythm. His breath was coming in pants as he lay there, trying to keep his control. She continued this until she needed more. She moved to straddle him and sunk down on him slowly, allowing him to fill her. They let out a simultaneous gasp at the feeling of being joined once again.

She placed her hands on his chest to keep her balance. She felt whole when she was with him. Spikes thoughts were centred on how perfect it felt to be inside of her. How we5t and tight she felt around him and he never wanted to leave. After a moment she began to move. They maintained the same steady rhythm as the night before, with Spike's fingers digging into her hips, once again meeting each others thrusts. She began to bounce more and more rapidly as the feeling intensified. This went on until Spike rolled them over so that he was once again on top of her, by this time neither wanted to take it slow and he thrust back into her. Her cries filled the room as he pounded into her repeatedly, the bed squeaking beneath them. It was a passion she had never felt before and that she decided she definitely wanted more of it. She writhed beneath him, moaning his name, as she felt him move inside of her. Suddenly he felt her wall clench around me and she cried out his name. At the feel of this, feeling her coming he moaned her name in reply as he came, panting with pleasure. He slowly rolled off of her, leaning in to kiss the side of her neck and spooning her up against him.

She smiled at the feel of his arms around and gave a content smile

"Just keeps getting better" she murmured Spike let out a raspy laugh and nodded against her neck

"Got to agree with you there pet" he concurred as she turned to face her, a small smile still on her lips, which suddenly disappeared as she remembered something.

"Spike I really need to tell you something"

"What is it baby?"

She couldn't do it, she just couldn't tell him "I need to get going, I have to get home. My mom will worry if I don't get home soon" she lied

Spike looked disappointed but nodded

"Ok, time for something to eat first?" he asked She shook her head

"Um, no thanks, I'm on a diet"

"Buffy, you don't need to be on a diet. In fact you look like you could be doing with gaining a little weight" he told her, for the first time taking in how thin she really was. She was still gorgeous, but she looked so much slimmer with no clothes on and now that it was light out he noticed.

"Well. I'll think about ending the diet" she promised He smiled at her as she walked towards the door to go to the bathroom to change. While she was gone he slipped on his own jeans and shirt, and began to slick back his hair. He turned and smiled when she came back through the door

"Need a lift home?" he inquired

"Yes please"

"Ok, I'll just finish getting ready and we'll go" he said, she nodded as he walked past her to have his turn in the bathroom.

Buffy sat waiting on the edge of the bed, thinking how perfect everything had been. Everything had just felt so right, and she didn't have single regret other than not being able to tell him the truth. But she would tell him, eventually.

Spike walked back into the bedroom and saw her lost in her thoughts. He thought she looked worried about something and wondered if it was connected to her reluctance not to tell him much about her past. He decided that he would work on getting her to open up more. He wanted to spend a lot of time with this girl, therefore he was determined to know more about her. He coughed to let her know of her presence and watched as the worried look left her face and a smile greeted it. She looked up at him as she stood, suddenly feeling more confident. She had noticed that he held that quality, the ability to make her forget what had happened and make her feel like the person she used to be. He made her feel confidant again, feel like a person and more importantly feel worthy of being loved. She walked over and kissed him softly and chastely on the lips. It was only a short kiss, meant to show that she cared. And for some reason, both of them considered it the best kiss they had shared. He looked deep into her eyes and she did, and each felt the other staring deep into their souls. Spike broke the moment because he knew that they really had to go, so he took her by the hand, intertwining their fingers and led her out of the room. When they were outside he opened her car door and then got in on his own side. They drove with relative silence, but both gave each other meaningful glances every so often. Mostly just so that the could be sure that the other was really there, that the whole thing had not just been a dream. He drove until they reached her home and Spike got ou6t to open her door. Before she left he took her in his arms to kiss her goodbye. The kiss lasted for several minutes, neither person aware of the woman standing by a window looking down on them with a small smile, mixed with a hint of worry. When they parted, Spike brought Buffy's hand to his mouth and planted a small kiss on it.

"Goodbye" her whispered

"Bye" she whispered in return "I'll see you soon" "You better believe it" he vowed letting go of her hand. She stood on her toes and planted a kiss on his cheek before turning and walking towards the apartment. He watched her go, wishing that he could just pull her back into his arms and keep her there. He never wanted to let her go. He would be happy to have her in his arms for the rest of his life. He watched until she was inside before getting back into the car and driving off.

Buffy walked into her apartment in a daze. She still felt like she was in a dream and any minute she was going to wake up. And n some ways she wasn't wrong. She walked into the kitchen to see her mother standing there, looking at her expectantly

"Well?" Joyce asked

"Well, I had a good time" Buffy told her mother Joyce sighed, knowing she was going to have a hard time trying to gfet her daughter to tell her anything, but she knew that it was important that she did

"Well what did he say?" Joyce persisted

"He said he's falling in love with me" Buffy said dreamily, Joyce smiled, assuming that everything had gone ok, judging by that reaction

"So he took the news well then" Joyce was relieved by this fact until she saw the ashamed and sheepish look that crossed her daughter's face "oh Buffy no. Please do not tell me that you slept with that boy and continued to deceive him"

Buffy looked more ashamed as she answered her mother

"Mom, I was going to tell him I swear, but then he told me he was falling in love with me and I just couldn't. Because I realised that I have fallen in love with him mom. I know that I have to tell him, but I just couldn't not then" she explained

"Buffy, he doesn't deserve to be lied to, he seems like a nice boy who has been through a lot. He deserves to know the truth otherwise everything he thinks you have between you is a lie. Because it's based on a lie. Don't do that to him" Joyce begged

A silent tear rolled down Buffy's face

"Mom, I don't want to hurt him, but I'm afraid I'll lose him if he knows the truth"

"That's a chance that you have to take. He needs to be able to make that decision"

"Mom, I don't think I'll ever get better without him. Today for the first time, I really wanted to get better. Mom, in the time I've known him he has made me feel like I was worth something. He makes me feel like I deserve to be loved and I feel like I can do anything when I'm with him" she cried. Joyce went over to hug her daughter and in a soothing voice told her

"Then Buffy you have to tell him the truth and then tell him what you just told me. If he's half the man he appears to be, and if he cares like he says he does, he won't walk away. But he has to know"

Buffy nodded and gave her mother a watery smile

"Ok, I'll tell him, next time I see him, I'll tell him" she vowed "thanks mom. I'm going to go change, then let's go do something" Buffy suggested as she went towards the stairs. Joyce watched her with a proud smile.