"You really like her don't you?" James asked tilting his head.
"As a friend Prongs," I said unsure if that was the truth or not. I don't like being close to people. I mean my parents and Sirius, James, and Peter are okay, but I'm just not a social person.
"You talk to her every chance that you get, and you also told her your secret!"
"I told you my secret and you don't see us going out do you? I told her my secret and she is just a friend, but I haven't told her that I liked her yet so..."
"Come on Moony."
"No James," I said sternly. "I like her as a friend for now, maybe after we know each other for a few months or maybe next year and then I'll think about it, but not now!"
"Why not?"
"I'm not a very social person okay James! I don't want to be one of the most well-known people in school...never did ask for it, I don't want to hurt other people, and I don't want a girlfriend!"
"Remus..."
"Just leave me alone James!!" I yelled walking to the boy's dormitories.
I crashed onto my bed and laid there thinking about what just happened. I was not miserable that I had talked to James like that, because he frankly deserved it. I wouldn't go prying into his life like a knife, so he shouldn't go into mine!
"Remus," I heard James opening the door and he walked up to me.
"James, I really don't want to be around you right now!" I said walking past him and down the stairs.
Sirius tried saying something to me, but I just left the Common Room and went on a walk. I have no idea how long I walked around the school. I found myself at the library and bumped into Lily.
"What's wrong Remus?" Lily asked putting her hand on my arm.
"Nothing," I said shaking my head.
"Well let's sit down and talk about something else, just to get your head off things. Does that sound like a start?"
"I guess," I said following her to a table and sitting down beside her.
"I bet you are thinking about me and Sirius," said Lily smiling in a humored way. "They only reason why I am doing it is because of James. What's Sirius doing?"
"He trying to keep his distance from you and wants you to know that it was a joke," I said smiling.
"Good," said Lily laughing, "You can tell him that I said it was a joke."
"But it is fun watching him panic every time that James brings you up in one of his conversations. Sirius looks like he has just been beaten by spell and begins to act like a helpless child."
"Well then I guess I still have to go out with him this weekend," said Lily with a sigh. "I love it when you smile...you always look so peaceful."
Honestly, I don't think that I will ever be peaceful. At times I feel like a great burden has been lifted up from my shoulders, but then I still have that large weight of werewolf on me. I shrugged and laughed.
"Likewise and I like your eyes," I said nodding.
"I'm flattered," said Lily shaking her head and laughing. "You like books right..."
"I guess," I said shrugging.
"I've brought a great book from home and now that we are talking I thought that you might want to give it a look," said Lily reaching in her book bag and pulling out a book. "It's called The Hobbit and it's by a man named J. R. R. Tolkien."
"It looks interesting," I said looking it over and then flipped to the back to read what it was about.
"No, don't do that," said Lily taking the book. "It will totally ruin the book and you won't be as interested."
"Fine," I said taking the book and placing it in front of me, "I'll start reading it as soon as I get back to the Common Room."
"Why are you so nervous when people come up to you and start talking?" Lily asked brushing her hair back. "I mean when we started talking it was like you didn't want anything to do with me."
"I thought you were too beautiful to talk to."
"You have got to be the kindest Fullblood I know in the school," said Lily getting up and placing her hand on my shoulder. "Remember Lupin, if you ever want to talk I'll be here. You can approach me at anytime of day around anyone and I will talk to you."
"Thanks," I said getting up. "I'm very lucky to have you as a friend. Your birthday is coming up isn't it?"
"Next week," said Lily smiling looking down and then back up at me. "I shall see you later then."
Okay, I have known Lily for quite some time now. As a matter of fact we started talking during her third day at Hogwarts. We caught on well because we both went for the same book at the library. I really remember it because she looked at me with anxious eyes and backed away. I told her to go ahead and take the book, the only reason I wanted to look at it was because I could use it for some light reading. She smiled and thanked me for letting her use it. She invited me to sit at the table with her and read it and so I did and we talked for a long time. After we found out that James liked her we stopped talking as much to keep James from suspecting something that wasn't entirely true. She is the only friend that I can really communicate with. Yes, I can talk to James, Sirius, Peter, and now Maria, but Lily is easy to talk to. She doesn't force things out of you like a murderer and she just has a kind look. And another thing that I like about her is she never punches me or does anything to get my attention, she just says my name. James is really lucky to have picked out such a kind hearted person. I never told her that I was a werewolf and wanted to keep it that way. But I think all that is going to change if Maria and I keep on talking, which I highly doubt it since I scared her away with, 'I'm a werewolf!' Way to go me!!
Lily walked away and I headed back to the Gryffindor Tower. When I entered the Common Room James was sitting in a chair and staring into the fire with gloomy eyes. At first I thought he had found out that I was friends with Lily, but then he began apologizing again.
"James just listen to me," I said sitting down and placing the book on the table between us. "All those things I said before are true. I like keeping my distance from people..."
