"You know you are hurting yourself when you do that," said James looking at the book. "And where did you get that? I haven't seen it in the library before, and I do believe I have seen you read every book in there, except the ones in the restriction area!"
"I got it from a friend."
"It doesn't look like it is from any witch or wizard of any time period," said James picking up the book. "Listen to this..."
"James no," I said shaking my head.
"It has a hobbit, a wizard, dwarves, orcs, wolves, giant spiders, unknown dangers, and even a dragon! This sounds so cool where...hey, Muggle books are the only ones that have that little barcode thing on them! You got this from a Muggle born or a Halfblood didn't you?"
"Yes," I said giving a sigh, "and thank you very much for ruining the book!"
"Oh, sorry," said James flipping through the pages. "Who gave it to you? Was it Maria?"
"No mate," I said shaking my head. "Her father moved them into the magic world that way he could be able to help Maria any time he could, so I don't think that she would be able to get to this that easily."
"Then who is it?"
"Don't worry about it..."
"Who..."
"No, James," I said hesitantly. I wanted to tell him about how I talk to Lily when he didn't know, but I was pretty sure that he would find out sooner or later. That's why I fear that Maraderer's Map so much...what if he finds us hanging out. He made us swear that if we ever talk to her we would tell him everything that she said.
"Why are you getting so upset with me?"
"Do you really want to know where I got the book?"
"Yes..."
"I got it from Lily and..."
"And what did she say about me?"
"The only reason that she is going out with Sirius this weekend is to see what you will do."
"Okay," said James. "So how long have you and Lily been talking?"
"During her third day at Hogwarts," I said shrugging and picking up the book. "She caught me in the library and we went for the same book and started talking from then on...and it was even before you liked her so I didn't know that you liked her or whatever."
"Why haven't you told me that you have been talking to her? Does Sirius or Peter know that you talk to her?"
"No and all we talk about is books and everything, she doesn't really talk about you. I mention you and everything, but she ends up changing the subject within a few seconds."
"Is Remus back yet?" Sirius asked walking down the stairs. "Maybe I should go looking for him, because he has never stayed out this long without us before."
Thanks a lot Sirius...now James is going to become more annoyed with me, because he will suspect something is going on.
"I'm here Padfoot," I said raising my hand and then yawning.
"Remus..."
I had to think of something or he was liable to bite my head off. I looked around the room a hundred times trying to figure out something to do, and then I blamed it on the werewolf part of me and started rubbing my head.
"James?" I asked rubbing my head and taking deep breaths of air.
"Are you okay?" Sirius asked almost falling down the rest of the stairs.
"I'm fine," I said leaning back in the chair. "I think I should go to bed now. My head feels like it is going to explode and I think I'm going to be sick."
"It's not a full moon tonight is it?" James asked looking at Sirius.
"No, but he could be having a before effect or something," said Sirius feeling my head. "Those things can happen can't they? Maybe we should go get Dumbledore or one of the nurses."
"No," I said feebly getting up. "This has been happening lately. I went to the doctor and they said it was something to do with changing and age, or something like that. All he said I had to do was lie down and take it easy, so I'm going upstairs now..."
"Do you want us to help?"
"No, I'll be fine," I said shaking my head and walking up the stairs. "If you hear me fall down or something loud happens then you can come."
I quickly walked up the stairs and went to my bed. I can be a great liar at times, which I never exactly do it on purpose... After a few minutes of silently laughing on the bed I feel asleep and had the continuous nightmares that I usually do at night. They do not bother me as much as they used to, but at times they can get to me. A new one came to me today...a short, ugly man had a silver hand and I for some reason was standing in front of a young boy that looked amazingly like James, but it couldn't have been. I was a lot older, I told the man that he was a betrayer and I would kill him if he ever touched the boy. He laughed at me and lunged at me with then silver hand and started saying things like, "Now you can go join Sirius, James, and Lily and watch my master kill this young boy!" He lunged at me once more and finally succeeded at with I a few minutes I was rolling on the ground in pain, much more than when I transform. The boy kneeled down before me and began shaking me and telling me everything will be okay and for me not to leave him. I, of course, couldn't do anything and passed on. Then beside my old friends I watched the boy try to defeat an evil spirit. I asked my friends who the boy was, but they would not answer me and then it ended as quickly as it had begun. I woke up with Sirius standing beside me.
"You looked like you were having a bad one this time," said Sirius sitting on the bed. "You began screaming in your sleep; amazingly I was the only one that woke up. What was it this time?"
"It was different," I said getting up. "I joined you, James, and Lily in death and watched a young boy..."
"That was a dream," said Sirius laughing. "You need to lay off some of those books you read. Who in the world could kill me, you, James or Lily?"
"I know, it was stupid," I said yawning. "But the boy looked so depressed, like he had lost everything that mattered in his life. And then when the man killed me with the silver the boy just..."
"Remus, I repeat, you need to lay off on some of those books!"
"I guess you're right," I said thinking about the boy. "He looked so much like James..."
"Honestly, shut up!!" I heard a boy yell.
"I'll see you in the morning," said Sirius returning to his bed.
I thought about the boy the rest of the night and couldn't sleep. After two hours of laying in bed I got up and dressed and then went downstairs to collect my thoughts. I paced around the Common Room and laughed at myself for feeling so strongly about a dream. I found it very pathetic to lie on something for to long. The truth is, that if you do something like that it will consume you.
"Remus," came Maria's voice. "What are you doing?"
"Thinking, and now that I am thinking about it, I'm looking for a book called The Hobbit too."
"I found that a few minutes ago," said Maria pulling to book from her pocket. "I found it on my last trip down here. When did you ever go to the Muggle world and get it? I haven't saw a book like this in years! And now that I'm talking to you, I was waiting for you for hours."
"I knew I was forgetting something," I said slapping myself in the face. "James and I got into it big time and I just stormed out before either of us said anything that we would regret. So I went to the library and bumped into Lily and that's were I got the book."
"Oh," said Maria. "Well, here's your book. I have to go upstairs and get some rest before school starts in a few hours." She walked away and disappeared.
Now instead of James being the ass, I just blew it. It's horrible, guys are so stupid, we just say the first thing that comes into our heads and don't think it through. And that's what I just did and I hurt Maria. I couldn't hurt her again so from then on until the beginning of sixth year I avoided her as much as I could.
"Hey Remus," said James slapping me in the back of the head. "What are you doing down here?"
"Couldn't sleep..."
"That's too bad," said James taking off his glasses and cleaning him with his shirt. "That's the only thing I hate about these things! You constantly have to clean them over and over, no magic will help!"
"I'm sorry about Lily," I said shrugging. "Before you even made us swear she could tell that you liked her, and she made me promise that..."
"Don't worry about it," said James shaking his head. "I understand why you wouldn't want to tell me."
"I knew you would find out sooner or later, I just didn't know when," I said shaking my head. "You were so in love with her that I didn't want to hurt you feelings and I just kept silent."
"Let me guess, you were lying last night when you said that you were sick and had to go to bed."
"It was the best way not to get my head bitten off from one of my best friends, don't you agree?"
James smiled, "I guess you're right..."
"Yeah."
