I just wasn't ready. I thought I had put the past behind me, but when confronted with reality, I realized I just couldn't do it again. I've got too much to do, to be tied down in that way. I mean, look; I'm the First Lady's Chief of Staff now. I couldn't have done that if. . . .
It was just all wrong. We hadn't achieved the level of commitment to each other to do that. I wanted to live with Josh, he said he wasn't ready. I wanted to live together, to have a relationship, to get married. I was proud of myself, I was able to put my past behind me. I was finally able to commit myself to a man. To be able to love a man. But I wasn't ready for more than that.
It was just a matter of inconvenient timing, a lack of commitment on Josh's part. So I took care of matters on my own.
