Frozen Memories

By Misao's Angel

I never believed the possibility of an angel

Until the moment you mended this torn soul

I never believed in the unlikelyness of happiness

Until the moment our lips were first infused in a kiss

I lay in the corner alone and deathly silent

Holding something soft and violet

A memory of hidden tears

Fills my mind with celestial fears

I try forever to wash this bloody past

But the stains are to deep to just erase

These memories I fear return when darkness casts,

So I turn to one memory before this torn face

And hold it in my arms until I feel whole at last

When the light comes, they temporarily retire

And leave me to this mind full of hell's fire

With the dawn comes the lie that hides what's real,

How can I smile despite all the pain I feel?

I promised you I'd never kill again

And still you are the only reason I live for

But when every day I grow more insane

All I want is the courage to kill just one more

If I join you now, would I be too late?

This life is just a painful excuse

In my hand I hold a dagger dipped in so much hate

I wonder just how long I can keep this false smile I use

I wonder if this sorrow is my deserved fate

And I wonder just how long I can be before it's not just my mind I loose

Everyday I find time to think of you

As I hold this violet memory to my face

I try to recall the scent of haku baikou

But long ago this memory was completely effaced

When my life leaves me I want to see you once more

In these tired arms I want to hold you near

To finally regain my life of missed sleep

By eternally resting inside a dream of love, not fear,

With you.

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hey everyone, how was this one? It was way more OOC then the last poem I wrote, but... ah well. It's a little more solemn too. Please tell me what you think of it! And, if there is anything you didn't understand, feel free to ask. Please review!