Frozen Memories
By Misao's Angel
I never believed the possibility of an angel
Until the moment you mended this torn soul
I never believed in the unlikelyness of happiness
Until the moment our lips were first infused in a kiss
I lay in the corner alone and deathly silent
Holding something soft and violet
A memory of hidden tears
Fills my mind with celestial fears
I try forever to wash this bloody past
But the stains are to deep to just erase
These memories I fear return when darkness casts,
So I turn to one memory before this torn face
And hold it in my arms until I feel whole at last
When the light comes, they temporarily retire
And leave me to this mind full of hell's fire
With the dawn comes the lie that hides what's real,
How can I smile despite all the pain I feel?
I promised you I'd never kill again
And still you are the only reason I live for
But when every day I grow more insane
All I want is the courage to kill just one more
If I join you now, would I be too late?
This life is just a painful excuse
In my hand I hold a dagger dipped in so much hate
I wonder just how long I can keep this false smile I use
I wonder if this sorrow is my deserved fate
And I wonder just how long I can be before it's not just my mind I loose
Everyday I find time to think of you
As I hold this violet memory to my face
I try to recall the scent of haku baikou
But long ago this memory was completely effaced
When my life leaves me I want to see you once more
In these tired arms I want to hold you near
To finally regain my life of missed sleep
By eternally resting inside a dream of love, not fear,
With you.
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hey everyone, how was this one? It was way more OOC then the last poem I wrote, but... ah well. It's a little more solemn too. Please tell me what you think of it! And, if there is anything you didn't understand, feel free to ask. Please review!
