"How can i tell you?"

A HinaNaru (also a SasuSaku, ShikaIno) pairing!

Authors notes: Hello, Geez. I never wrote anything this long EVER... Im soooo much runnin outta ideas to admit. anyways, Im still here! I'm In boredom mode right now... --;;;; Jeez, It took me forever to come up with this Mini-chapter. But You'll find this one Interesting, Ino will pour out every single thing she feels. I Think it WILL make you cry for a moment.... Im not much of a dramatic writer anyway... ;;; So... READ AND REVIEW PLEASE!

P.S. If you wanna know, This is mostly Ino's POV... o;;;

Disclaimer : Of course, the naruto series is not mine... if it was... hinata would appear more frequently and theyed get engaged in the series (you gotta love both of em) well... Naruto, Hinata-san, Ino, Sakura, Sasuke, Shikamaru, Kakashi and some other minor/major characters are NOT mine i tell you!!! (but i wish they were... TT)

How can I tell you? - Mini-Chapter (Chapter 9)
Why me? ; Ino's thoughts

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I sat there on the floor in front of the door. I couldnt walk outside, I feel awfully terrible.... I feel like the thing that seperates me from Shikamaru was this Shark infested Ocean that was deep and big... I dont want to think of him anymore, yet everything I am reminds me of him. My Father was friends with his father since they were kids... I met him years before the academy, he'd usually wander off into the meadow when I ask him to play with me and sakura. He just wasnt that open to anyone, I thought that he was absolutely weird. But right now, I'm here like this.... I feel like my heart's been broken into pieces and pieces and gets even more broken as time goes by.

Heh... temari, So tall. She was almost as tall as Shikamaru... I'm no match for her... Even Hinata is better than me... I cant even cook well... I feel horrable... I cant even get to sleep so I could just forget everything... I cant even use my Shintenshin Technique because I just dont see well because of my tears.... Why Cant I just Die?

That shikamaru, Most of everything I see right now reminds me of you... why? The brownish Elbony cabinet (its 5'6") was as tall as you were, and It particuarly reminded me of your eyes... You havent changed since the Chuunin exam... And... who am I kidding... why am I reminding myself of him?

(there was a knock)

"hey Ino! What's wrong with you!? youve been like this all day...! What's the matter?" he said.

It was Shikamaru... I cant take Him anymore... What I feel inside of me, wasnt hate... It was pure jealousy... my mother warned me once... 'If i find someone that I could love for the rest of my life, and someone else would take that man away from me... I'll feel horrable and i will be in pain..', She said that, and she was right... I am jealous...

"Shut up... Just leave me alone....! Leave me alone!!!!" I said with tears falling from my eyes, it never seemed to end... I count even stop them from falling...

"Ino, I have food for you... You have to eat or else you'll get Sick...Im-"

I didnt let him finish... I couldnt take it anymore.... That Pain Im experiencing right now is getting harder and harder to bear in time.... I just cant take it anymore...

"DAMNIT! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE...." I shouted to him with tears running down my face, I couldnt stand it... Talking to him makes me feel like hell... I want to kill myself for being so stupid to fall in love with that damn Shikamaru...

"im going leave your food on the door, Ino... You hear?" he said then he left.... I could hear His footsteps...walking away from me... I couldnt bear even hearing his voice. I slammed my head onto the door. I needed pain from my body to stop the pain that was inside of me... I really cant stand him or anything anymore... I punched and slapped myself, crying as hard as I can... Maybe I was right when I said to myself to just stay single when I was small... I didnt care if i'll never have a family, all I wanted was to be the best woman ninja in Konohagure... But now... I feel so vunerable and helpless... I was shivering now with pain as my legs get numb. The pain on my heart was similar to the 'Pins and needles' that seemed to throb on my poor leg...

Minutes of some mild pain passed... and the numbness completely faded away as I found the temporary strengh to stand and throw myself into the bed. Then I remembered... I didnt eat yet... My stomach was growling hard now... but I cant eat... I still feel horrable... Then Feel my eyes closing in on me... I tried opening them, but when I opened them... I was somewhere else... I was in a meadow... This was the meadow Shikamaru usually slept on when he had time when there was no missions to do. I walked around and felt someone poke me in the back...

"Hey ino...!"

"oh... Its you shikamaru..."

he kneeled down... I didnt know why, but My heart was shivering and Pounding at the same time when he held my right hand. What was he doing...?

"Please... Could you..."

Is he going to ask me to marry him? Please... Please... whoever hears me in here, Let this be what I think it is...

"could you.... Be the bridesmaid... for me and temari's wedding?"

When he said those last 8 words, I felt that the world thew the whole universe at me to carry, the burden of even hearing it was heavy enough for me to kill myself in the pain...

"Ino?" he asked...

I felt tears flowing from my closed eyes, I wanted to die.... now....

"Ino!" I felt somone shake me madly from behind... I opened my eyes. There saw Hinata Shaking me like crazy...

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"H-hinata....?" Ino said to her.

Hinata Sighed in relief...

"I heard some crying from your room, so I asked Shikamaru and Naruto to Slam the door open..." the white eyed Medic explained, "we found you crying in your sleep, what's wrong?"

Ino sat up and Shook her head.

"I-It was just a nightmare... I-Im sorry to make you all worry..."

Shikamaru walked closer to Ino and Hinata.

"Are you sure? Youve been like this all day long... There's gotta be something wrong with you Ino! SPEAK!" He said as he shook Ino like crazy..

Hinata stopped him, "Shikamaru... were worried for her... but I guess we should not force her to say what she feels..."

"there's nothing wrong with me Shikamaru..." Ino Said to him

Shikamaru didnt seem convinced.

"I'm... I mean...We're worried for you... we cant help you if you dont tell us what's wrong..." He said as he crossed his arms.

Naruto seemed to agree with him...

"hey... Ino... Shika's right... we cant help ya if you dont tell us anything...."

"Leave me alone..."

"Ino... please... tell us..." Shikamaru kneeled in front of ino like in her dream...

Not this again... I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE...

"Th-This is all your fault Shikamaru!" Ino said as she stormed out of the room crying.

Shikamaru tried to stop her, but she was too fast.

"Ino... What did I do?"

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This is the end of my Mini-Chapter... well... Remember, this had nothing much to do with the story, Its just to make it longer and to explain how Ino really felt.

Girl 1: Hey... Youre Making my entrance Later on?! I cant accept that!

Wait your turn... thanks to ino, You'll have one hell of an entrance...!

Girl 1: Alright!

Well... I hope you cried with Ino in this (mini)Chapter, see you folks soon! ;;

(gomen if im kinda repeatative with ino's POV... That's just one of my bad writing flaws... geez... I do this to improve... anyway... bye..)