Lost In You
Chapter Four
I looked into the locker room mirror and checked my make up. Tonight was the Cheerleader Auction where all the horny guys from Tree Hill bid on the Raven Cheerleaders. I always got the highest bid, not because I was the prettiest, not because I had the best personality, no it was because I was the easiest. I wished that my Prince Charming would come and bid the highest bid and take me out to a nice restaurant and whisper sweet nothings in my ear and not ask for sex.
Peyton put her arm around my shoulder and smiled at me, "Are you ready to make the most money tonight?"
I shrugged, "Sometimes I wish they didn't bid on me for just sex you know?" I said sadly.
"Somebody out there really loves you," Peyton said genuinely and then walked away. I watched her walk away and then I heard Whitey announce my name and the boys holler. I smiled to myself and pranced up onto the stage.
I danced around for a little bit, and heard a whole lot of bids coming from every direction, but I never looked at who was bidding on me, it took all the fun out of everything. "450 dollars sold!" I heard Whitey yell and then bang his mallet on the podium.
I smiled at Whitey and skipped off the stage. I watched Peyton go up, and Lucas easily won her. She got off the stage and we hugged, "Who got you?" She asked poking me in the ribs.
"I don't know," I said, "Maybe Jake did or something?" We both shrugged and I walked out towards the front entrance of the school. Peyton walked away with Lucas and I gave them each a wave goodbye.
I rocked back and forth on my heels and looked around the school for anyone coming towards me. I sighed and was about to walk away until I heard a familiar voice telling me to stop. I turned and saw Nathan standing there holding the envelope that said "Brooke" with a smirk on his face.
"What kid did you have to beat up to get that?" I teased. He smiled.
He walked towards me with that smirk still on his face, "I bought you Brooke Davis."
"That's a scary thought," I said with a laugh.
I linked my arm into Nathan's as we walked out into the parking lot, "I thought we could go to my house and hang out."
I stopped in my tracks and looked at him in confusion, "Does Haley know about this?"
"No," Nathan said apprehensively.
"Right," I said sarcastically, "I'm just going to be you're little secret now?"
Nathan put his arm around me, which took me by surprise, "We're going to have fun tonight," he said.
Peyton sat on Lucas's bed and fumbled with her hands nervously, but tried to put on her best "everything's okay" smile. Lucas sat down beside her and held her trembling hands, "What's going on Peyton? You've been freaked out all night," he asked.
"You won't want to be with me if I told you," Peyton said softly as a single tear rolled down her cheek.
Lucas looked at her in confusion, "Did you cheat on me or something?"
Peyton shook her head, "No," she sobbed quietly, "Of course not."
"Then what?" Lucas asked as he put his strong arm around Peyton's shoulders.
Peyton bit her top lip and looked down at the ground, "I'm pretty sure I'm pregnant..."
Lucas's eyes got big, "What do you mean pretty sure?"
"Well, I'm late," Peyton said, "I haven't taken a test or anything yet."
"Is the baby mine?" Lucas asked apprehensively.
Peyton nodded, "Of course it's yours," she said as she rubbed her stomach.
Lucas grabbed onto Peyton's hand and squeezed it, "I'll go with you to take the test," he said sincerely, "This baby is ours."
I walked along Nathan's pool with him as we talked, "So your favorite food is prime rib?" Nathan asked me in disbelief.
"Yeah," I said in a 'duh' tone of voice, "I'd eat it for breakfast, lunch, and dinner if it wasn't so fattening."
Nathan agreed, "Yeah, we don't want to see any fat cheerleaders on the sidelines," he joked.
Brooke scoffed jokingly, "Also, we don't want to see a fat number 23 running down the court having to have a drink every five minutes," I teased and then pushed Nathan into the pool. I laughed hysterically as he came up to the surface.
"Davis you're dead," he threatened, but I stood there and laughed, "Okay," he said, "Help me out..."
I reached my hand out to help Nathan and just like I had expected he pulled me in as well, "For some reason I knew you were going to do that," I said as I splashed him.
Nathan picked me up and threw me at least a foot causing me to scream and then go under the water. I laughed and went over to him and tried to dunk him. I tried pushing down on his head to make him go under, but he was too strong, and he knew he was too strong that's why he was laughing the whole time I was trying. I ended up giving up because I was so weak from laughter. When I stopped Nathan pushed me and I almost went over, but stopped myself. I wrapped my arms around his neck and tried to get him under that way. We both laughed and then looked into each other's eyes. I noticed my arms were wrapped around his neck, and that his hands were on my hips. I laughed nervously and he looked embarrassed. I knew I should've swam away, but something told me to stay and let him hold me. My lips went towards his and we kissed. That feeling of comfort and love came through my body and I was smiling on the inside. He pushed me lightly against the side of the pool and kissed me with intensity; I loved it. I ran my hands through his short hair and began to kiss his neck.
I made out with Nathan Scott in his pool. We made out for what seemed like hours and I enjoyed every minute of it. We got out of the pool and stood by his car, "So," I said nervously, "I think you got a little bit more than you paid for," I laughed nervously.
He laughed, I loved his laugh, "No," he said, "I didn't pay to make out with you...I paid to be with you."
"Then why are you still with Haley?" I asked sadly.
He stood there in silence and didn't answer my question. I looked out the window as Nathan drove me home. We got to my driveway and I opened the door, "Look," I said, "I know I have a bad reputation. If that's the reason why you don't want to be with me then I understand, I just don't want you to use me," I said sadly.
"I'm not using you Brooke," Nathan said truthfully.
I sighed, "Then what exactly are you doing?" I said and then got out of my car and walked into my house.
I walked into my room and saw Peyton sitting on my bed, "Hey," I said. She would sometimes always show up at my house, and I really didn't make anything of it until I saw the tears in her eyes, "Oh my god," I exclaimed as I sat down next to her, "Are you okay?"
Peyton rested her head on my shoulder and sobbed, "I might be pregnant Brooke."
"Oh Peyton," I sighed as my jaw dropped, "Are you sure yet?"
Peyton shrugged, "I'm doing the test tomorrow..."
I turned on Peyton's favorite song to see if that would help her at all. I turned on Gavin Degraw's CD and let her lay her head on my lap and tell me all her problems.
Staring at a maple leaf
Leaning on the mother tree
I Said to myself we all lost touch
Nathan drove back home and thought about Brooke. He loved being around her, and being in her company. She had a positive energy and a smile that could light up any room that she entered.
Your favorite fruit is chocolate covered cherries
And seedless watermelon oh
Nothing from the ground is good enough
Peyton fell asleep on my lap and that gave me time to think about Nathan. He had such a confidence about him and I loved the way his big strong arms could protect me from anything. Nathan had a way of breaking a girl's heart without actually doing anything, and that's exactly what he had done to me.
Body rise
Look what's over me
Nathan laid on his bed and looked up at his ceiling. His clothes were still damp from the pool and his lips were yearning for Brooke's kiss. Nathan enjoyed kissing Brooke, even more than Haley. He knew what he was doing was going to hurt both of them in the long run, but he couldn't stop kissing Brooke and he couldn't stop being around Haley.
Oh Chariot your golden waves
are walking down upon this face
Oh Chariot I'm singing out loud
To guide me
Give me you're...
Strength
I drove back to Nathan's house. Peyton was asleep and I was still awake. I knew it was wrong for me to be going there, but I needed to go there. I walked into his front door and up to his room. His bedroom door was open and he must've heard me coming because he looked up at me. We didn't say anything, our bodies just touched and our lips met. Our bodies fit perfectly, and everything was just perfect.
Remember seeking moons of birth
Rings made mirrors of the earth
The sun was just yellow energy
It is a living promise land
He looked down at me and I looked up at him. I kissed him hard as we made love for the first time. He was different than other guys, and I was hoping that I was different than other girls. We both wanted to pretend that it was just sex, but I knew that it meant more. We smiled at each other and he whispered sweet nothings into my ear. He moaned in pleasure as I kissed his stomach, and I giggled as he kissed my neck.
Even over fields of sand
Seeds just fill my body
Cover me
Bringing back
Nathan ran his fingers through my hair, and we kissed and caressed. It felt good to be touched by him, and to be loved by him. I never thought once about Haley, Lucas, Peyton, or anybody. I didn't even think about my Aunt Sarah, all I could think about was Nathan and me. Me and Nathan. Us. I always had a strange feeling when I'm around Nathan, it's like I just want him to grab me and kiss me and then we can lay in bed together and tell each other everything. I trust him, and I don't know if I should.
More than a memory
We breathed heavily when it ended and I felt sad when it ended. I looked at him and smiled, he smiled back, "I want to know about you Nathan," I said softly.
"Why?"
I shrugged, "I don't know..."
Nathan sighed, "I'm not good at the whole opening up thing."
"Of course you're not...You're a guy," I laughed.
He smirked and rubbed the top of my head, "Goodnight Brooke," he said and then turned over and closed his eyes.
"Goodnight," I whispered and then got up and got my clothes on. I walked out of his bedroom and heard his parent's fighting. They yelled horrible things to each other, and I felt scared leaving Nathan here by himself. I walked back into Nathan's room and took his hand, "You're not staying here with them fighting like this."
Nathan brushed it off, "I'm used to it."
"Nathan," I said sternly, "You're coming with me." He must've heard the seriousness in my voice because he got on his clothes and we headed out the back door.
We walked into my room and Peyton was on the floor with a small blanket and one of my pillows. Nathan got into my bed and I got in beside him, "You didn't have to do this," he said.
"I know," I said, "I wanted to do this."
Nathan smiled and closed his eyes. I smiled to myself and then drifted off. I woke up the next morning and looked to see an empty space beside me. I sighed and woke up Peyton; her eyes were red from crying, "What did you do last night?" She asked.
"Went to Nathan's," I mumbled.
Peyton's eyes lit up, "Give me the gossip!"
I sighed as I got ready for school, "We had sex."
Peyton cooed, "He wants you chick."
"How do you know?" I asked, "He left this morning..."
"But," Peyton stated, "He did give you a kiss on the forehead before he left. I saw him do it," she said before I asked.
Peyton and I walked into school together and I saw Lucas run over towards her and hug her tightly, "I tried calling your cell phone," he said with a worried tone.
"She was at my house," I explained. He sighed with relief, and kissed Peyton passionately. I watched the two of them, they were so in love and they didn't have to hide it.
I walked into the school and saw Haley and Nathan walking in the hall together. Haley was babbling and Nathan was at least pretending to listen. He looked up and saw me, I smiled weakly and he smiled back. We had an understanding of each other; I couldn't take him away from Haley even though I would love to. I stared into my locker looking for my chemistry book. I felt hands grip my hips, I turned and saw Nathan standing there with a cocky smirk on his face, "What are you doing?" I whispered.
Nathan kissed me passionately, "Last night was amazing Brooke," he said, "I can't forget that..."
"You can't forget Haley," I said trying to be nice and considerate.
"Forget her," Nathan said sternly and kissed me again.
Oh Chariot....
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