Lost In You
Chapter Five
The force from the kiss made my knees weak, and my heart skipped a beat. Nathan looked down on me; his eyes filled with compassion and love. His hands were around my waist, and my hands were cupping his face. I looked down the hall way and saw that it was deserted. I pulled Nathan's face close to mine and kissed him once more. "I can't stop thinking about you," he whispered.
The comment made me smile, "That makes two of us," I sweetly replied. We went our separate ways each having that goofy smile on our faces. I walked alone in the halls humming whatever song was in my head.
I heard Peyton's light chuckle from behind me, "And I though I'd seen it all..."
"What?" I questioned innocently.
"You and Nathan," she said, "Together....Kissing," I went to spit out a lie, but Peyton cut me off, "Don't even try to deny it," she teased, "I saw you two."
She had me defeated, "Are you going to tell Haley?" I asked with a sigh.
"No," Peyton said, "Brooke, you're my best friend. I'm here for you..."
I smiled, "Thanks," I said and then gave her a big hug. I rubbed her stomach lightly, "Do you know for sure?"
Peyton sighed, "Not for sure, but I'm taking the test tomorrow."
"It'll be okay," I assured her.
Peyton swallowed the lump that was beginning in her throat, "I hope so," she said weakly.
"How's Lucas feel?"
"He doesn't want to be like Dan so..." Peyton began.
3 months later...
I sat there holding my best friend's hand as she lay in the hospital bed. Peyton was having a baby, and was only 17 years old. We laughed and cried as we talked about all our dumb childhood memories. She was going to be a mom, "God Peyton, I thought I'd never see the day when you were fatter than me," I teased.
Peyton laughed, "Shut up Davis," she joked. She rubbed her hand along her big stomach and sighed, "If it's a girl I'm going to name her Brooke."
I smiled gratefully, "Why?"
"Because," Peyton said, "You're the bravest and strongest person I know..."
"I'm not brave," I said softly.
Peyton squeezed my hand tighter, "You are in my eyes."
I felt tears beginning to form in my eyes, "I'll be in the waiting room," I said and then kissed Peyton lightly on the forehead before leaving the room.
Life had changed for all of us. Peyton and Lucas were moving to Charleston with Keith after the baby was born. Nathan and Haley had gotten engaged, and we're planning to marry. I sat in the waiting room and looked around and saw Karen and Mr. Sawyer asleep on the uncomfortable chairs. Nathan and Haley sat a couple seats down from them. Haley had fallen asleep in Nathan's arms while he stared off into space. We made eye contact; I looked away quickly. We loved each other, he that us being together was too difficult. He didn't understand how hard it was for me to watch him marry another girl. Nathan walked over to me and sat down.
"I can't believe Peyton's pregnant," he said trying to make conversation.
I nodded my head, "Yeah..."
Nathan sighed, "Are you ever going to talk to me?"
"I am talking to you," I snapped back. I didn't need his shit, especially not now.
Nathan rubbed his temples, "You can't be like this Brooke."
"Why?" I asked, "You told me you loved me."
"I was confused," Nathan said as he cracked his knuckles.
I scoffed, "Confused? That's what you call it? I just thought since Haley was putting out you came to me to get some!"
"You know that's not true," he said defensively.
I rolled my eyes, "You'll never change Nathan. You're just the same old you..."
"I'm sorry," he said, "I didn't know you cared. I thought everything was just sex to you?"
I leaned away from him, "You're pathetic."
"How am I pathetic?" Nathan shot back.
I sighed, "Because you can't even admit that you love someone because you're so into yourself!"
"That's bull shit!" Nathan said trying to keep his voice calm.
"You're right!" I exclaimed, "This is all bull shit! This whole town is bull shit," and with that I got up from my chair.
I left. I didn't say goodbye to anyone, or see Peyton's baby. People always told me that there was only one Tree Hill. I ran away from the only place I'd ever known. I was leaving my home, my best friend, and my first love. One raven alone equals bravery and how strong it is, but a group of ravens together equals trouble...
2 years later...
I got out of my king sized bed and looked to my left to see my 32 year old boyfriend, Rich, lying there beside me. When I came to L.A. at 17 he took me under his wing and we've been dating for two years now. He was the best I could get, and he helped me forget about all the "poor people" as he called them, from Tree Hill. Rich showed me a life I had never experienced before, hard core night clubs, cigarettes, and drinking cock tails at 4:00 in the afternoon till midnight.
I was his secretary, and like all 32 year old men he liked a quick romp before work, and after work. I was his arm candy, and I didn't mind. All I wanted was someone who gave me attention, and he spoiled me rotten. He woke up and stretched his arms and looked towards me, "Morning beautiful," he said.
I smiled, "Good morning handsome," I said and gave him a quick kiss on the lips. I lit his cigarette for him and lit one of my own, "We have a meeting today with one of your executives," I reminded him.
He rolled his eyes, "I hate those pricks," he said.
"We can just pretend to be nice," I said as I rubbed his head lightly.
He swatted my hand away, "You're 19, and I'm 32. I think I know how to handle this," he said and then went towards the bathroom.
I took a drag from my cigarette and put it out on his favorite dresser. An hour later we were walking out of our mansion and into a limo. We got to restaurant in L.A. where I had never been before. We walked in there hand in hand with fake smiles on our faces. I think I began dating Rich because he was like me; fake. We sat down at the table, and our waitress came and got our drinks.
"Hi, I'm Haley," the brunette said, "I'll be your waitress tonight. What can I get you all to drink?"
We all ordered tequilas and that's when I finally realized who the girl was, "Haley James?" I asked her.
She nodded her head, "Um, yeah?"
"From Tree Hill, North Carolina," I asked her.
"Yeah," she exclaimed. She did a look over on me and smirked, "Brooke? Brooke Davis?"
I smiled, "Yours truly," I joked.
We finished lunch and Haley sat down across from me and we caught up while the other men got beers, "Where have you been all this time?" Was the first thing she asked me.
"I left," I sighed, "I just felt it was my time to go, you know?" I lied. I left because of Nathan, and nobody knew that and nobody was going to find out.
Haley drummed her fingers lightly on the table, "Everyone missed you."
I bit my bottom lip, "I missed everyone too," I choked, but I remained calm. "What about you and Nathan?" I asked, changing the subject.
Haley chuckled lightly to herself, "That didn't work out..."
"Why?" I asked and then put a fry in my mouth.
Haley's face got beat red and she tried to hide it with her hand, "Well," she said with a nervous laugh, "I'm gay Brooke."
I'm almost choked on my fry, but I swallowed it in time, "What?" I asked.
"Yeah," she said, "A few months later after the engagement Nathan caught me in his apartment with another girl..."
My eyes popped out, "Was Nathan that bad in bed?"
"No," Haley exclaimed with a laugh, "He was great, he really was. I just...wasn't attracted to him anymore..."
I looked down at Haley's left hand and saw that the ring was gone, "So where's Nathan now?"
Haley shrugged, "The last heard he was in Tree Hill still."
I heard Rich calling for me and I sighed, "It was nice catching up with you Hales," I said and then gave her a hug.
"Peyton and Lucas are still in Charleston," she said before I left. I nodded and walked out of the restaurant.
"Who was that?" Rich asked as we got into the limo.
"An old friend from Tree Hill," I answered, "I need to go to Charleston," I said softly.
Rich laughed menacingly, "I don't think so beautiful."
I didn't say a word until we got back into the mansion, "Why not?" I finally asked.
"Because," he said, "I said so."
"I have to go," I said.
He laughed, "Why?"
I sighed, "Rich just let me go."
"I don't trust you," he slurred, "You probably have an old boyfriend from back in good old Tree Hill."
I crossed my arms tightly, "Don't be like this..."
"If you leave you'll never step foot in this house again," he threatened.
I went into the room we shared and started packing, "Is that a promise?"
He threw his glass down, "You weren't that good in bed anyways," he sneered.
I packed my things quickly and got into my Mercedes; I headed towards the Airport and got on a plane headed towards North Carolina. I sat and stared out the window, thinking about Nathan mostly and about Peyton and Lucas. I woke up just as we were landing. When I got off the plane I felt alone and scared. I looked at the address that Haley had given me on the phone earlier that day.
I drove to Charleston and followed the directions best I could. I found the address and lit a cigarette. The house was perfect for a couple with a baby. I got out of my car, cigarette dangling from my mouth, and my hands shaking like crazy. I took a deep drag and knocked on the door.
The girl I remembered answered the door, looking like she had put on a few pounds from the pregnancy and her blonde hair straightened. Peyton immediately recognized me and she put her hand over her mouth and I saw the tears form in her eyes.
"Hey best friend," I said quietly.
Peyton hugged me so tight I thought I was going to pop, "Brooke...I can't believe you're here..." The hug broke and she wiped the tears from her cheeks.
"Surprise," I said with a little laugh. I put out my cigarette and walked into the house, "How are you doing?" I asked her as I sit on the couch.
"I'm holding up," she said as she picked up a beautiful blonde haired two year old, "This is Brooke," Peyton said with a smile as the little girl waved to me.
I smiled and waved back to the baby, "She's gorgeous," I exclaimed.
"Thank you," Peyton said as she set the little girl down and sat down beside me, "Where were you?"
"L.A.," I said, "I had to leave Peyton. I couldn't be around him anymore..."
"He misses you," Peyton said, "Nathan was a wreck when you left."
I sighed, "I'm sorry I left..."
Peyton hugged me again, "When did you start smoking?" She asked.
"As soon as I met Rich," I said, "I'm going to quit though..."
"Rich?"
I bit the inside of my cheek, "Yeah, my 32 year old boyfriend..." I was ashamed.
"Oh Brooke," Peyton said so motherly that it scared me a bit.
"I know, I know," I said putting my hands up in defense, "Not the best choice in the world."
We heard the door knob turn and Lucas yell, "Honey I'm home!" We both looked at each other and laughed. Peyton had that certain sparkle in her eye that let me know that she was up to something.
Lucas walked into the room and following behind him was Nathan. I thought my heart had completely stopped, "Brooke," Lucas said with a smile as usual, "How are you?" He said as he gave me a hug.
"Good," I said. The hug broke and I looked over to Nathan and stood up, "Long time no see," I said softly.
Nathan crossed his arms, "Where have you been Brooke?"
I shrugged, "I needed some time away..."
"Away from me?" He asked.
"Not exactly," I lied, "I talked to Haley...I didn't know she was working in L.A."
Nathan rolled his eyes, "Yeah, and she's gay too."
I laughed lightly, "I heard about that too..."
Peyton walked over to the two of us and fake yawned, "You two need to get out," she teased, "Go out to dinner!" She said with a clap.
Nathan and I looked at each other and I sighed, "Sure, why not?" I said and we walked out the door and into his car.
"You don't have to do this," Nathan said as he pulled out.
"Take me to Tree Hill," I said ignoring his comment.
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