Hey people. Okay I'm going to be out of town for the next week, then I'm coming back for like 3 days then I'm going out of town again for a week, then I'm probably leaving town right after that for another week. So, don't expect an update real soon okay? Be glad that I'm nice enough to update before I leave for all my trips lol. Enjoy!
Disclaimer: I see no point to these, it's not like people are THAT stupid....wait...well...for safety sake, I don't own it.
Guilt. It is all-consuming. Zoe didn't think there was a worse emotion you could experience. It had been a week and Psymon still wasn't talking to her. Every time she tried to even get close enough to start a conversation he would turn on his heel and leave her behind. Allegra had told her he was staying in Nate's bus. Zoe dismally thought that he might stay there the rest of the season, Psymon was someone to hold grudges. No matter what she tried, Zoe could not think of a way to get him to forgive her.
The few times Moby had crossed her path she had acted as if she couldn't see him, keeping her stare forward with an aloof look on her face had kept him at bay. For some reason that she could not fathom however, Zoe found herself wanting to talk to Moby. Perhaps she felt she needed to explain her boundaries a little better, though she realized with a painful jolt, that she didn't have a current boyfriend making the boundary situation moot. She would not think that she wanted to crawl back to him, could not think it. Yet... why not? That ever present annoying voice returned.
Zoe shook her head to clear her thoughts. Deciding that boarding would make her feel better, she grabbed one of her snowboards off their rack and giving it a quick polish she headed to the ski lift. The feeling of the icy breeze whipping her hair around her face relaxed Zoe like nothing else could. Soon she was speeding down the top of Peak 3 and all her cares were carried away with the passing wind. Relishing the feel of flying down the mountain at 60 mph she decided to practice some new tricks she had come up with.
It was hours later when a frozen, tired, yet very happy Zoe came trudging back into the bus park. The sun was almost set and it's last rays cast an ethereal light on the sparkling snow. Dropping her board off inside Zoe made herself a quick cup of hot chocolate and went back outside to sit on one of the benches by the ring of buses. Curling her knees into her chest she sipped on her warm drink and pondered about her current situation. She was so lost in thought that she didn't hear the crunch of approaching footsteps.
"Can I sit down?" Moby asked in a soft voice so as not to disturb the peace that seemed to have settled. Zoe just nodded without looking at him, she was tired of trying to avoid her ex, well one of them anyway. Moby sat down next to her on the bench and leaned back on his hands. They sat in silence as the sun slowly disappeared behind the mountain top. Finally with a sigh Zoe looked at Moby.
"What do you want from me?" she asked quietly. Moby looked confused.
"I don't want anything from you." Zoe shook her head.
"Don't play games with me Moby, I'm sick of being manipulated by you."
Moby had the grace to look ashamed.
"I don't mean to play games." he said seriously. "I just want you back, I miss you."
"Would you think about what you are saying!" Zoe suddenly shouted, breaking the calm that had previously surrounded them. "I've told you repeatedly that I don't love you anymore! I had another boyfriend yet you persisted in pursuing a relationship with me! And look what you did! You ruined my only chance with him! He'll never forgive me! Don't you see what you've done!"
Moby looked shocked at Zoe's tirade. She took several deep breaths, that had felt good. Zoe regained her composure after a few moments and turned to look him in the eye.
"Moby, if you really love me as much as you say you do. . . you'll let me go."
The Brit's eyes were downcast as Zoe stood to leave.
"Zoe," he said and grasped her wrist gently as she started to walk away. She turned a pained stare to him, and saw her own emotions reflected back at her.
"I'm so sorry."
Those three simple words released the floodgates that she had been trying to hold back the whole week. Moby gathered her in a hug as she sobbed into his chest.
"Every-thing . . . is so-messed up!" she said between sobs. Moby rubbed her back comfortingly and shushed her until her tears had stopped. He tapped her chin up to get her to look at him.
"I never meant to hurt you Zoe."
"But you did." she answered in hurt voice.
"I know!" Moby exclaimed and put his head in his hands. Zoe stayed on his lap. "I never 'meant' to! I wanted to hurt Psymon. I was angry at him for taking you away from me." he admitted. Zoe gave an angry sigh.
"He never 'stole' me from you Moby! That's what you don't understand. Psymon asked me out weeks after I broke up with you!"
"You liked him before you broke up with me, don't lie to me Zoe!" Moby said angrily.
"So I was attracted to him! That had nothing to do with our breakup! I saw you watching all those girls when we went to clubs and I didn't say anything about it!" Zoe defended herself. Moby huffed.
"We're talking about you, not me."
"Just forget it!" Zoe shouted and got off his lap. ". . . Let's just forget about it okay? It's done now." she said quieter after a few minutes. She sat down on the bench again. Moby put an arm around her, she didn't pull away.
"I promise, I won't hurt you again Zoe." Moby said sincerely. Overcome with emotion Zoe suddenly threw her arms around him.
"I can't lose you." she whispered. Moby hugged her back just as tight.
"You won't." he whispered back.
They kissed each other in a fit of passion, and did not break away until the sun was completely set and there was only darkness. Finally pulling away from each other Moby offered to walk her back to her bus.
As he gave her one last hug and a kiss goodnight Zoe grabbed him again and whispered fiercely.
"Don't you ever leave me." Moby smirked against her cheek.
"You know I won't love."
What do you guys think? Was the ending funky? I hope not. Please review! and don't tell me to update for your review since I'll be gone and that just gets annoying! Till next time.
elvenangel
