To Live a Life of Ridicule
by Satosh1

Chapter 4: Anguish

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Ritsuko clutched the knife firmly. Her suffering has come to this, becoming swallowed unto a state of total madness. She stood beside the door of Kaji's apartment, waiting for him to arrive from the witnessed betrayal within the bar of Tokyo-2. And to know it be the same place where they offhandedly met for the first time, only enticed her otherwise psychotic aggravation. Ritsuko's eyes were filled with the thirst of blood. Vengeance was in her grasp.

She stood there beside the door in anticipation, for hours upon end.

Then finally, what sounded like a key inserting within the door startled Ritsuko. She lifted the knife upwards. As the door unlocked, the person who did so stepped within, and it was obvious of who it was. Ritsuko inexplicably yelled the name of Kaji, and at the same time, stepped in front of him and swung towards his chest.

One.

Two.

Three.

Four.

Five.

She swung five times in succession in a crossways manner, moving left and right along the slashes. Each of them slashed into the clothes of its target, cutting deep into the skin and having its victim tremble and stumble backwards as they hit. Kaji clutched his chest in pain while his blood dripped onto his hands. He crouched onto the floor, looking upwards to the one who afflicted his wounds.

"Ritsuko... why...?"

Ritsuko charged her one-handed wielding, and she finished him in one fell swoop. Kaji slumped onto the ground as his eyes still peered upon her. His eyes unfocused.

Kaji was gone. And yet, Ritsuko continued. She stabbed the lifeless body relentlessly, again and again, her eyes full of intensity. Blood splattered around the floors and walls. Ritsuko did this for what seemed like forever, all with an unyielding smile.

And then she awakens.

It was still of night. Ritsuko had been within her bed sleeping all along, knowing she herself had never actually awakened and that it was all a dream. Kaji had never betrayed her, and she had never done something so, corrupt. Her body trembled and shivered at her dream's fanatical, psychotic nature.

"What a horrid nightmare..." she concluded as she clutched herself within her own arms.

This time in the opposite side was Kaji, sleeping and snoring without a care. She reached to him hugged him almost chokingly, knowing that the events within her nightmare had never truly occurred. She gave a lonesome tear which trickled down her cheeks and onto the bed covers.

"What's wrong, Ritsuko?" Kaji said as the embrace had disturbed his slumber.

Ritsuko said nothing as she came close and gave him a petite peck to the lips. She clutched onto him harder and then instantly fell asleep, to Kaji's warmth. The two stayed there in the loving embrace for the whole night.

Morning settles.

The two had already awoken and given themselves breakfast through the morning sunlight. After, they immediately left the complex to go on a loving date together. They ate sushi at a sensible traditional Japanese restaurant, drank a couple of beers over at a small bar and danced with the beats within a nearby club renown for their techno DJs and special guest appearances that included famous celebrities and other popular faces. Having the best time of her life, she clutched onto Kaji's arm and leaned against him like a little schoolgirl throughout their stroll.

Of course, there were always onlookers who simply peered or whispered to their persons beside them of their apparent relationship. Kaji seemed particularly annoyed by one certain onlooker who had bumped Ritsuko upon the shoulder in rudeness, and had an immediate urge to give him a right hook to the face. Kaji faced the same man and had almost thrown a punch to the man's face, had not Ritsuko stopped him, which calmed Kaji of his aggravation. The man coward away in fear and tripped over himself, giving himself a bloody nose instead of receiving it from Kaji's fist. Ritsuko gave an unwilling smile, trying to hold it back.

Ritsuko was fortunate to have such a kind, loving person beside her who had also loved her back, as it was apparent that he cared for her just as much as she did. It was the first time she has ever loved someone to this aptitude. They met under certain, terrible circumstances and yet they had grown to forget the past and care for one another in such an admirable way. Ritsuko simply smiled and clutched Kaji's arm even harder.

Night, on the same day.

The whole day seemed to pass by so quickly. Kaji and Ritsuko retreated to their apartment sanctuary, away from the obscurities of darkness which befell them within the night of silence. Within their apartment, Kaji went over to the refrigerator to grab a couple of refreshments for the both of them. They sat on the living room couch and cuddled against one another as they watched and dabbled with the channels within the TV display in front of them. One certain channel came of interest between the two of them. It had sex, and rightfully so as the channel was literally named in unoriginality, "The Sex Channel." People were mounting another in ways indescribable, and this enticed both Kaji and Ritsuko of their primal urges.

Watching intently into the TV while inspecting the different positions and such, Ritsuko felt a warm hand touch her breasts. It gently massaged her, making her quiver a bit upon each circular succession. She was immersed within her sexual drive and moaning all the while. She glanced onwards to Kaji's crotch, and immediately noticed a distinct protruding under his pants. Ritsuko pressed herself against Kaji and forced her tongue within his mouth in wild motions, mimicking every action portrayed within the TV. She rubbed herself onto him with constant moans and whimpers, until suddenly Kaji pushed her away, leaving Ritsuko in discomfiture and seemingly disappointed. It was Kaji himself who had initiated the approach in the first place, and the same person who had halted further progression.

"It's too early, Ritsuko..." uttered Kaji.

"How, how is it too early!?" Ritsuko seemed to be extremely irritated by Kaji stopping her, but who wouldn't be?

"We've only been seeing each other for a week. That's why." Kaji said with stern look.

"But... but... I thought you loved me?" Ritsuko seemed to be very upset.

"I do, and I also love you well enough to stop this."

Ritsuko became perplexed. She thought that if a couple loved another so deeply, they would most likely want to indulge in such acts to make certain of their love and affections. And that was what she truly wanted in that point.

"It's alright, I want to do this." Ritsuko said with conclude.

"I want to bear your child, Kaji."

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dekiru...