Heiji slowly opened his eyes, rubbing them to get rid of his lingering sleep. The morning sun shone through the windows, exposing the floating dust motes in the air. With a slight smile he recalled last nights events, curling into the sheets around him he took in the smell of Shinichi's sent. He smells like, Old Spice, and...cigarettes? Does he smoke; I have never seen Shinichi smoke. Heiji decided to ask him later, looking around he found that Shinichi was not in the room. He is probably just taking a shower. After an adequate amount of stretching, Heiji slid his feet over the edge of the futon, slowly getting up with a yawn. Well I had better get dressed, I don't have my school uniform so, and I guess I will just borrow one of his. He walked over to where Shinichi had folded and stacked his clothing; he pulled on his boxers and got one of Shinichi's crisp spare uniforms from the closet. He walked over to the bathroom door and knocked, but he didn't hear any water running, so Heiji decided he had gone off to school without him. Why would he do that? That makes no sense. Grabbing his pile of clothing, he hurried off to school, a bit pissed off.

Heiji threw his clothing into his locker and being late as usual, he dashed down the hall to his first period class. When he opened the door, he found that the classroom was vacant. What? Where are they, was it a field trip today? He sighed at looked at the clock, 9:45; there was 30 minutes left. He lowered his eyes from the clock to the board, Early Release, shortened classes. Groaning he ran off to second period upset that he missed his only class with Shinichi.

Heiji found Shinichi sitting at a table with Ran at lunch; he walked over his anger forgotten over being left alone in his house. "Shinichi!" At hearing Heiji say his name his chest tightened, he sighed in his head and turned to Heiji, his eyes cold.

"It's Kudo to you Hattori." Heiji stopped, not sure of what to think, all he knew was that something had snapped, or died, he felt like a small child who had blown the biggest bubble he ever had, and then the bubble popped.

"but I don't understand," Shinichi felt like he was going to fall apart, so he got up and took Heiji by the arm and dragged him off to the deserted part of campus at lunch time.

"Why are we here Shinichi?"

Please don't say my name, the way you say it, as if I matter. Don't say my name. "Don't say my name."

"Why not! Shinichi, Shinichi, SHINICHI!" The said boy slapped Heiji across the cheek, his hand shaking and his knees buckling.

"Don't...say my name." Heiji reached a hand up to where Schinichi had struck him, hard. "

You, you hit me!" Looking up at the angry boy, he saw a red mark where he had struck out, adding to the bruises on his skin. He held back his apologies, and his tears, I can't be with you again Heiji, I could end up doing more damage. So, no more Heiji, no more. Shinichi put himself together and cleared his throat, "We aren't together, we never were, you were just," How can I say it? "Another cheap fuck for my list." I think I may throw up.

Heiji just stood there, his mouth open and his limbs limp. "What...how, how can you say that?!" Shinichi felt his chest tighten again as tears started to pour out of Heiji's eyes.

"Because, it's true Hattori."

As he shook his head in denial, he saw that Shinichi's eyes were cold, there was no more warmth for him to seek comfort in, and no more love for him to hold onto, and the only emotion he saw in those eyes was affliction. "But you are hurting too, Shinichi. Please, I don't understand why you are saying these things. I gave you myself, because I love you Schinichi! I love you for your assuredness, and I love you because you are always so proud, and brave, and because you are so smart and I thought you were understanding. Please Shinichi; don't tell me I love only a lie." I did, I gave myself to you, I became your lover, my feelings, my body, it was all for you, but only for keeps, "I AM NOT FOR RENT SHINICHI! My feelings and my body are not for rent!" He wiped the tears from his eyes but they just continued to fall. With a heart wrenching sob he turned and ran from Shinichi, who watched him run, only one tear escaping from eyes, and one sob from his lips. He said his lovers name one time, before turning and walking back to lunch.


AN: OMG HOW COULD SHINICHI HIT HEIJI! Bastard, anyway, more soon, isn't that awful, sorry it is so short. P.K.W.L. --E. Raven