OMFG!! IT'S BEEN LIKE A YEAR!!! Unfortunately, I doubt my writing has gotten better- I'm starting to realize I fully suck at writing (I already knew that, but sumhow forgot it when I started this!) its gunna be a seriously short chappie, mostly lily sorting out her feelings and maybe some interaction with her mystery stalker!! Read and Review, as always! Motivate me! Thx to my best reviewer!!! I love Ruinsul she's the greatest Mad Cow ever!!
As Lily held tight to Remus, wild thoughts were running through her head. She looked around the room aimlessly, and noticed that James was nowhere to be found.
She mentally shook her head and reminded herself she likes Remus, not James. As the song ended, she looked at Remus.
He looked so perfectly content, and he was glowing. It gave her this warm fuzzy feeling inside that she could make him so carefree and blissful, because she had noticed lately how pale he could get during certain times of the month.
The next song came on, and she looked expectantly at Remus. He held out his arms, but his weary look had returned. She made a mental note to ask him about that later.
I know you think that
I shouldn't still love you
Or tell you that
But if I didn't say it
Well I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?
I will go down with this Ship
I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love... and always will be
Suddenly, Remus went lax in her arms, and she almost collapsed under the weight of him.
"Help me, please someone please get Madam Pomfrey!! Hurry!!!! Please!" Lily felt herself slipping into hysterics, as she felt intense fear overcome her.
"Lily..." Remus groaned, struggling to catch his breath.
"What?? What is it Remus?? O great gods of the sky, stay with me Remus! Talk to me!"
"James... Lily.... Please... meant...be..." Remus closed his eyes and slumped over on the floor, and ceased to move.
Lily, having gone into shock, could do no more than stare, feeling such a wave of emotions, like guilt, disbelief, puzzlement, and anger.
She had so many questions, and had no idea who to turn to for advice. What was Remus hiding from her? What did he mean right before he became unconscious? Was his collapse somehow her fault? How come he hadn't told her what was wrong with him??
She needed some answers, and for some reason she knew just who to ask: James Potter.
She ran frantically out the door, and into the corridor. She saw various couples making out and in some cases more, but nowhere was James with his adorable mussed black hair.
'Wait a second.' Lily thought to herself. 'Since when have I thought James ungodly hair is adorable?? What's going on with me?'
Suddenly she heard a loud sigh from one of the classrooms. She opened the door quietly, and there was James, with none other that Bellatrix Black! She rubbed her eyes, and took in the sight.
James seemed to be held down by Bella, but almost... willingly? Lily felt an unexplainable pang in her heart. But she shook it off as being scared for Remus.
'O, gods. Remus!! I almost forgot'
Just as she was about to interrupt, James murmured something that shocked her.
"O Lily, how I love you, my sweet girl."
Bella moved away form him so fast, her neck cracked. "Did you just call me Lily!!? As in Evans!? How dare you associate me with that Mudblood?" She shrieked.
Up until then, neither of them had noticed her presence. But they could hardly miss her, as she was blocking the doorway.
"Bella, wait! Our deal! You must...." James trailed off, as Bella had already stormed off. He looked hopelessly around the room, avoiding eye contact with Lily altogether.
"Why did you need Bellas help?" Lily asked him in a soft voice.
James hesitated before answering. "Lily. It was about you... and your parents in Vietnam. She said she had inside information.... I needed to know."
Lily's eyes were filled with tears. "James, please, you just don't understand. I can't tell you, if I did you would be in danger so terrible I wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy!"
"Lily, I can help you, if you let me. I have power and influence, I can make everything right."
Lily's chin trembled at the memory of her parents. All of a sudden, a strong feeling of resentment rose inside her at James. He still has his parents, so he could never know what she felt.
She looked at James, straight in the eye. "Look James. Thanks but no thanks. You could never help me, and frankly I don't need your help." She knew it was lie, and that all it was, was a desperate attempt to get him away from her.
He took a step forward, tried to touch her arm. She jerked, and he recoiled as if he'd been slapped.
She immediately felt bad, and just could not take it anymore. She ran out of the room. As she dashed toward the infirmary, someone grabbed her arm, and pulled her behind a curtain, into a tiny alcove.
She tried to scream, but he held a clamped hand over her mouth. "My Lady, you aren't going to help Remus. You are going to stay here with me, where you belong."
Ok so short recovery chappie, but it's the best I could do to start back up! So as always, review!!
