Disclaimer: sigh I don't own Yu-Gi-Oh! (how many times do I have to say it..?) Of course, that means I don't own 'Evening Falls.' The lucky owner of that is Enya.
Summary: Oh, my favorite YGO bishie has been trapped in the Shadow Realm! Whatever shall he do?! Uh...dark, angsty, kinda sad... Songfic Ryou POV
I could feel my mind turn dark. The black was eating away at me...my worst fears played before me. My heart sat paralyzed in my chest. This couldn't be real...it must be a dream...
When the evening falls
And the daylight is fading,
From within me calls-
Could it be I am sleeping?
For a moment I stray,
Then it holds me completely.
Close to home - I cannot say.
Close to home feeling so far away.
I can barely feel my body any longer. I feel I am only a soul now. I'm close to the Earth, close to people, but I feel detached...I cannot hear anyone else...but, that's alright. I'm always alone. I can feel self-pity and self-hate almost totally fill me. I tell myself to let it go. It's really not all that bad here...It's just....Dark.
As I walk the room there before me a shadow
From another world where no other can follow
Carry me to my own, to where I can cross over...
Close to home - I cannot say.
Close to home, feeling so far away.
A shadow before me, a shadow behind. I find it odd that shadows can exist here, for there is no light. I am alone with my shadows... I want to become part of this place...to die. To be forever lost in this darkness, forever spiraling downward through my Hell...
Forever searching; never right, I am lost
In oceans of night. Forever
Hoping I can find memories.
Those memories I left behind.
I'm arguing with myself now. How can I actually want to be in darkness forever? The black washes over me, over my soul, and I scream. My chest hurts. Memories flood into my mind, and my body. The people I knew... I may never see them again. I remember what it is like to be kissed, to be hit, to get hurt, to be happy... I want to look for my Yami. He could survive here, in total darkness. I need to be with him. I call for him; I cry. I walk around in circles, only able to hear one voice - my own.
Even though I leave I will go on believing
That this time is real - am I lost in this feeling?
Like a child passing through, never knowing the reason.
I am home - I know the way.
I am home - feeling oh, so far away.
I laugh at myself. How naive am I? I'm alone. I'm stuck here...forever. I will be here, this is where I belong now. No matter how much I wish - how much I long - to leave, I'll be stuck. I sit on blackness and bring my knees to my face. No point in raising false hope. I'll just sit in loneliness and dark forever.
Fin
