-Things I'll Never Say-
Disclaimer: I do not own any of J.K. Rowling's characters or ideas pertaining to Harry Potter and I do not own "Things I'll Never Say", a song written by Avril Lavigne. I did, however, think up this plot by myself under the inspiration from many, many authors out there. (Lyrics will be in italics)
A/N: This is my first songfic, so I don't really know how to do this. . . I tried my best but I don't know if it's any good or not. This is a Harry/Hermione Romance fiction.
Begin Story. . .
I watch you walk into the common room every day while I do my homework. I watch your confident stride as you move towards me. Every day I am forced to listen to your simple "hello" when it means so much to me to know that you care, even if you only care a bit. I want to look my best for you; I want to be my best for you.
I'm tuggin' at my hair
I'm pullin' at my clothes
I'm trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
You've never noticed my feelings for you before. I never knew I felt like this until recently. You used to just be a really close friend. But sometimes I wish you could be more than that. . . more than a friend.
I wish I didn't stumble over my words when I talked to you. I wish I could act normal around you. I wish I could by only myself around you. But I can't, I need to tell you.
I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head
Maybe someday you'll see. Maybe someday you'll notice the way I gaze into you green eyes during class. The way I blush when you brush past me in the halls. The way I move closer to you when we sit together in the common room.
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you. . . away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could only say what I want to see
I want to see you go down. . . on one knee
I cry at night, never knowing what to say. Never knowing if I should tell you. The fantasies I dream of, the future I see. I may never love someone as much as I love you. . . I may never see someone as handsome as you.
Marry me today
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishin' my life away
With these things I'll never say
Am I asking too much? Am I telling you too little? Can't you read the signs? I get so damn mad when I can't tell you a thing. I lie about my fancies and never tell the truth. I make up excuses when I think you might notice. I never let you see, I never let you know.
It don't do me no good, it's just a waste of my time
What use is it to you what's on my mind
It ain't comin' out, we're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care
It's been so long, it's been so hard. Every day I tell my journal everything. Every day it looks like I'm doing my homework when I'm really writing about you. How do I get good grades? I stay up even later doing homework, but first I write about you. Oh, how I love you.
'Cause I'm feeling so nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it
You are worth it, you're worth every single minute I spend thinking about you. Wishing that when you saw me crying and you didn't know why, you'd hug me with love and not sympathy.
What's wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble, like I've got nothing to say
But I do have something to say. I have so much to say. I love you Harry. I love you so much. I love you with all my heart and all my mind. I love you so much that it hurts my heart to think about it. It hurts me so much to think about us, because there will never be an "us".
There will only be a "you".
There will only be "me".
