Where Do We Go From Here?
Chapter 11: Here We Go Again
By: Rogue-Slayer13
Summary: See pervious Chapters
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"Whatever happened to saying sorry when you were going to apologize to someone?"
Buffy looked up to see Willow standing in her doorway.
"What do you mean?" Buffy wasn't really in the mood to talk and hoped Willow would just go away.
"Well, I don't remember there ever being a moment when 'fuck you and your apology' was considered proper protocol."
"Why don't you go and snog Oz or something?"
"He's out on patrol and besides, I wanted to see what was bugging you."
"They said Ryan didn't have a soul," replied Buffy quietly.
"Well, technically he doesn't."
Buffy looked up at Willow in horror.
"What do you mean he doesn't?"
"Well, he's a shape shifting demon, so he doesn't really have a soul."
"But he's not evil, I mean, he makes pasta for Christ sakes."
"Well, he's got free will, so he can choose to be evil or not, but he doesn't have a soul. I mean he was way worse then Angelus back in the day."
"He doesn't have a soul at all?"
"Nope, but I thought you knew that. Y'know with the whole immortal aspect of things. It's his demonic nature that lets him live forever."
"Oh my god! I'm attracted to freaks!"
"No Buffy, you just like someone who can be considered your equal is all." Willow put her arms around her friend. "Besides, it's not like any of us have had the most normal of significant others."
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"Is she still pissed?" asked Angel.
"Less with the pissed and more with the wallowing in self-pity." Willow walked across the lobby and took a seat next to Oz.
"This is why I am disgusted with your kind. You're all too busy with your emotions to stay focused on the real problem," stated Illyeria in her usual cold tone.
"It's not like we lied or anything. Bint needs to bloody well come to terms with her choice of boyfriends."
"I agree with Spike. It's not our fault that Buffy is attracted to demons and can't accept it. I mean, she's way too self-righteous and hypocritical to ever be in a loving long term relationship," replied Dawn.
"Whoa! What is this, Bash Buffy Day?"
"Oh come on Xander. It's not like we just woke up today and decided to pick on Buffy, this has been a long time coming," said Dawn.
"What do you mean?"
"We've all known that Buffy has some serious hang ups and at first we just thought that it was a Slayer thing, but we've known how many Slayers now? Faith doesn't have the same emotional hang ups that Buffy does."
"Yeah, but Faith is way more of a rebel and had a huge evil villain phase. No offense." Xander looked over at the dark-haired Slayer.
"Non taken."
"Kendra wasn't that way either Xander and she was way by the book," said Willow.
"Non of the other slayers were like that either," added Andrew. "Well, except maybe for Kennedy."
"Kennedy was just a bitch," said Willow.
Everyone turned to look at the normally quiet red head.
"Well I'm sorry, but she was. She kept bugging me about Tara and saying that it was almost like I was cheating on her because I had so much stuff that had to do with Tara and then she had the nerve to screw around behind my back? I don't think so. My girlfriend was murdered, excuse me for grieving."
"Face it Xander, all of Buffy's hand ups and problems, aren't a Slayer thing, they're a Buffy thing," said Dawn.
"Why didn't anyone say anything to her before?" asked Xander.
"We were all scared of her, even if we didn't admit it or act like it. She was some big awe-inspiring thing that we didn't know a whole lot about, but then we met Faith and everybody else. She isn't special because she's the Slayer anymore, now she's just one out of thousands and the only thing that makes her special is the fact that she's Buffy." Dawn looked over at Xander.
"I guess you're right. We've always wanted to cut her slack because she was The Chosen One and everything, but maybe shouldn't have."
"All of the other girls have been able to deal with being the Slayer and having a life of their own, why can't Buffy?" asked Faith.
"She uses being the Slayer as an excuse. I mean she said being the Slayer was the reason why she couldn't date Spike and yet she dated Angel. Anytime anything went wrong with her life and she couldn't deal with it, she'd turn into a huge bitch and talk about how we didn't understand because we weren't Slayers. Well she doesn't have that excuse anymore," said Dawn.
Buffy couldn't believe what she was hearing from her spot at the top of the stairs. She'd been on her way down to the lobby to see what everyone was doing when she'd overheard the conversation that was currently taking place amongst her friends.
I'm not really that big of a bitch . . . am I? Thought Buffy.
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To Be Continued . . .
This will probably be the last new chapter added until I get back from Mexico. If I can come up with another tonight or tomorrow then I'll add it before I leave, but if not, I'll update as soon as I get back.
